ivan.kuk
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It is simply being able to derive pleasure (dopamine) from talking about mindless topics, and not being in your head (depression, being sad, socially anxious). Your brain NEEDS to reward your constant blabering and chatting, especially about yourself. It's how you see those fucking bitches sitting at the coffee table for half a day talking about how Chad looked at them that day. They get fucking high of that shit.
You can forget about getting along, building relationships, making friendships if your brain does not find the prospect of talking to a person about what they ate, watched, fucked, shat, heard and saw today rewarding.
With this is mind, the only time where I was NT was when I had dopamine and serotonin coursing through my brain, induced by DRUGS. Whenever I'm in a great mood I can entertain a talk with anyone, and it captures my attention fully and I'm in "flow". I think normies are in this kind of flow automatically, when they interact.
For all intents and purposes NT can be also described as sad/overly-analizing/socially anxious/uninterested cunt syndrome.
I always knew I was a bit different. I had social anxiety because I could never "click" with the rest of the people as easily as they all made it out to be.
Why? Fuck if I knew. Maybe I was sadder, more sensitive than the rest. Why? Maybe biology, maybe upbringing.
What's the answer to all of this? I realized I'll never be NT or a functioning adult with my default brain. I fully plan on using drugs to get something out of this life. I'm 24 and I'm fucking tired of waiting for natural copes to "fix" me. In this purpose I'm looking at ketamine therapy, DXM megadosing/microdosing, wellbutrin, shrooms.
Moral of the story - if your brain doesn't fit the mold of 95% of the population, you can fuck yourself. Inb4 I changed myself with exposure therapy, muh you just have to get out there.
BITCH. YOU WERE NT ALL ALONG THEN. IF IT WAS THAT EASY I WOULD NOT BE HERE ANYMORE.
You can forget about getting along, building relationships, making friendships if your brain does not find the prospect of talking to a person about what they ate, watched, fucked, shat, heard and saw today rewarding.
With this is mind, the only time where I was NT was when I had dopamine and serotonin coursing through my brain, induced by DRUGS. Whenever I'm in a great mood I can entertain a talk with anyone, and it captures my attention fully and I'm in "flow". I think normies are in this kind of flow automatically, when they interact.
For all intents and purposes NT can be also described as sad/overly-analizing/socially anxious/uninterested cunt syndrome.
I always knew I was a bit different. I had social anxiety because I could never "click" with the rest of the people as easily as they all made it out to be.
Why? Fuck if I knew. Maybe I was sadder, more sensitive than the rest. Why? Maybe biology, maybe upbringing.
What's the answer to all of this? I realized I'll never be NT or a functioning adult with my default brain. I fully plan on using drugs to get something out of this life. I'm 24 and I'm fucking tired of waiting for natural copes to "fix" me. In this purpose I'm looking at ketamine therapy, DXM megadosing/microdosing, wellbutrin, shrooms.
Moral of the story - if your brain doesn't fit the mold of 95% of the population, you can fuck yourself. Inb4 I changed myself with exposure therapy, muh you just have to get out there.
BITCH. YOU WERE NT ALL ALONG THEN. IF IT WAS THAT EASY I WOULD NOT BE HERE ANYMORE.