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christislord271
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i’ve literally given up atp i’ve got nothing left i need help so bad, ive never been this depressed in my life, the feeling i have 24/7 is something i wish on no one the pit in my chest, the endless want to change how i look, the disappointment from family, it’s too much i can’t do this anymore, if my parents weren’t so strict i would have ascended by now no doubt, i was coping with raw diet and okay i got some results but overall it’s not gonna change my facial structure just body fat loss. I couldn’t continue that became my parents went metal i got diagnosed with an ed because of it. Tbf my thoughts about food are hurting me but it’s not the problem alone. My mum thinks i’m crazy for bonesmashing and yes it’s a grey thing to say but it’s worked a lot for me, ik it’s probably swelling but im so desperate for a solution that i’ll do anything to be happy even tho that’s not ever gonna happen. My mum found my accutane ai and hgh before i even got to properly start. i got taken to hospital and i tried to od before it cus i thought it was over. My family have given up on me and i’m dating some foid who is depressed and im hurting more cus of her depression it’s so painful but i gotta pretend im good to make her happy. lowk not gonna explain everything as it’s too long but i need help man. Its so bad please i just need help im tired i just wanna rope atp its so painful my life is horrible and i haven’t even explained any of it really ik no one is reading all ts but i js need help im so desperate bp and my depression has ruined my life i cant do this anymore fuck these foids aswell who pretend to help you but make it worse, i just wanna feel happy again i can’t live much longer im so close now lowk feel empty im loosing my memory i can feel my body shutting down its so over.
