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Okay lets see I could looksmax to my max potential. Moneymaxx, get rich fuck bitches.
But what's the point?
A vapid life going from whore to whore isn't fun.
I didn't need to be rich to have that.
No family and the group of friends I had is gone.
I'm too old to relive those same experiences of youthful teenage summer nights bonding doing retarded shit. Not caring about anything so we could be as honest as we needed.
Trespassing places just to explore. Getting fucked up whenever we wanted just cause. Climbing towers. Skating streets at 3 am. Then winding down at someones apartment and watching anime till we feel like passing out.
The blackpill is consumed in a bell curve . The bottom and top of the tails are the ones that know how society really is and just the top decides the way society goes for everyone else. So maybe I need to climb the social ladder to reach that group of people. But those at the top are always ready to backstab you. They have so much to gain and are scared of losing what they have. Back then as teens no ones gonna backstab you there's nothing to gain. Fights and arguments about a bitch or petty change sure but that either let you know who was a fag or deepened the bonds in the end.
Doesn't mean I'm gonna stop improoooooving but the dread just grows with time.
I've spent the last couple years almost always alone and I see no change.
But what's the point?
A vapid life going from whore to whore isn't fun.
I didn't need to be rich to have that.
No family and the group of friends I had is gone.
I'm too old to relive those same experiences of youthful teenage summer nights bonding doing retarded shit. Not caring about anything so we could be as honest as we needed.
Trespassing places just to explore. Getting fucked up whenever we wanted just cause. Climbing towers. Skating streets at 3 am. Then winding down at someones apartment and watching anime till we feel like passing out.
The blackpill is consumed in a bell curve . The bottom and top of the tails are the ones that know how society really is and just the top decides the way society goes for everyone else. So maybe I need to climb the social ladder to reach that group of people. But those at the top are always ready to backstab you. They have so much to gain and are scared of losing what they have. Back then as teens no ones gonna backstab you there's nothing to gain. Fights and arguments about a bitch or petty change sure but that either let you know who was a fag or deepened the bonds in the end.
Doesn't mean I'm gonna stop improoooooving but the dread just grows with time.
I've spent the last couple years almost always alone and I see no change.
