Cyframe
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A bit of context. I got into Lookism at 14, arrived here before the trend of 2023 through the initial funnel of the Tate-Hamza sphere.
I always wanted female attention, something that I lacked. No girl ever complimented me for the first fourteen years of my life. Something that was likely the result of both my physical looks (Which isn't sub-5, I just look quite plain) and my environment (lack of point of contact with the opposite gender)
This led to me idealizing the fairer sex, and at times building delusional romances in my head for years on end. Perhaps, I possessed a cognitive bias because of the lack of female attention.
Much like a wandering nomad in a desert who has been deprived of fluids for an extended period of time, I saw romantic attention from places that it simply did not come from.
These three and a half years have not been very productive from a purely materialistic point of view; I haven't grown taller. Neither have I gotten better looking. I lack the ability to put things into action, analysis paralysis.
But what has changed is the way that I think, and I am immensely grateful for possessing this.
I recognize the differences in genes. I am able to predict the result of a social interaction between two individuals with strikingly good accuracy, it feels like you have the ability to look into the future.
Normies look at me in awe, whenever I accurately guess who is attracted to who. Why the girl will obviously reject him and accept the other. Pointing out how certain behaviors that they deem as "cringe" would cease to be so if the genetics of the perpetrator was different.
I learnt about Sexual Selection and Natural Selection. The brutality of genes.
I learnt about the influence of genes on not only physical appearance but also your behavior. Began watching Jolly Heretic, Nick Fuentes, @6ft4, TAILS and read books on racial science. It exposed me to alternate views on race, views that I simply wouldn't have been exposed to as an ethnic.
I began reading philosophy and science partly in order to cope with the blackpill, though I didn't acknowledge this consciously. It led to extensive intellectual growth; my viewpoints have completely changed.
I solidified my position as an agnostic atheist when it comes to the question of God. I understood that morals are relative. I learnt about how morals and culture are a result of group-evolutionary strategy, that they are not arbitrary but also have basis in behavioral tendencies influenced by gene clusters formed through pressures in either geographical environment or other natural pressures.
I read a lot of books on theology and philosophy.
I also went through humiliating experiences. Where I asked out friends. The recent one has immensely scarred me, its safe to say that my ability to trust people has been damaged significantly to the point that I don't believe that I can trust a friend like that again for now.
After, going through all of this. I simply realized the solution. It was to just be "yourself"
Not out of the expectation of getting girls, but rather because you have lost hope. All hope.
That was me, I began to assume that any girl that I talked to. Did not like me and would not like me. This wasn't conscious, it had just become a reality after being rejected and overseen.
To my surprise, I got asked out by two girls and IOI from one within the span of 3 weeks after going for a inter-school event. Mind you, I showed them zero interest and did not do anything other than being friendly because I genuinely had zero hope. I turned them down as they were not my type.
After the mentality shift, I was able to talk to girls completely fine.
I do think that the Nietzschean "will to power" is something that is real. I made many advancements in my life (Academic and Intellectual Extracurriculars) because I literally just went and gave it my best, because I had already assumed defeat in my head... So why not just try?
The trajectory of my life was changed, simply because I took up opportunities and restrained the part of my mind that told me that I was a genetic failure.
Did my "will" change my genes? No. But, I realized that I have enough to have a happy life... and I do feel like many in this forum also do but simply don't go for those opportunities because of defeatism.
I have realized that girls should not really ever be your goal, it's extremely cucked and this is coming from a person who spent the majority of his formative years with it as one.
I am passionate about politics, history and philosophy. I've found a higher purpose.
Even if I do not get any girls, I am fine. Because the struggle towards fulfilling my ambition, is a task so large that I don't event think about my biological impulses anymore.
Understanding that "love" is simply a biological imperative rather than an abstract magical-idea that many of us subscribe to. Really shifted the way that I think about pursuing girls, because I realize that it's just an instinct that I can supersede.
If I didn't have it, I would not care at all.
I always wanted female attention, something that I lacked. No girl ever complimented me for the first fourteen years of my life. Something that was likely the result of both my physical looks (Which isn't sub-5, I just look quite plain) and my environment (lack of point of contact with the opposite gender)
This led to me idealizing the fairer sex, and at times building delusional romances in my head for years on end. Perhaps, I possessed a cognitive bias because of the lack of female attention.
Much like a wandering nomad in a desert who has been deprived of fluids for an extended period of time, I saw romantic attention from places that it simply did not come from.
These three and a half years have not been very productive from a purely materialistic point of view; I haven't grown taller. Neither have I gotten better looking. I lack the ability to put things into action, analysis paralysis.
But what has changed is the way that I think, and I am immensely grateful for possessing this.
I recognize the differences in genes. I am able to predict the result of a social interaction between two individuals with strikingly good accuracy, it feels like you have the ability to look into the future.
Normies look at me in awe, whenever I accurately guess who is attracted to who. Why the girl will obviously reject him and accept the other. Pointing out how certain behaviors that they deem as "cringe" would cease to be so if the genetics of the perpetrator was different.
I learnt about Sexual Selection and Natural Selection. The brutality of genes.
I learnt about the influence of genes on not only physical appearance but also your behavior. Began watching Jolly Heretic, Nick Fuentes, @6ft4, TAILS and read books on racial science. It exposed me to alternate views on race, views that I simply wouldn't have been exposed to as an ethnic.
I began reading philosophy and science partly in order to cope with the blackpill, though I didn't acknowledge this consciously. It led to extensive intellectual growth; my viewpoints have completely changed.
I solidified my position as an agnostic atheist when it comes to the question of God. I understood that morals are relative. I learnt about how morals and culture are a result of group-evolutionary strategy, that they are not arbitrary but also have basis in behavioral tendencies influenced by gene clusters formed through pressures in either geographical environment or other natural pressures.
I read a lot of books on theology and philosophy.
I also went through humiliating experiences. Where I asked out friends. The recent one has immensely scarred me, its safe to say that my ability to trust people has been damaged significantly to the point that I don't believe that I can trust a friend like that again for now.
After, going through all of this. I simply realized the solution. It was to just be "yourself"
Not out of the expectation of getting girls, but rather because you have lost hope. All hope.
That was me, I began to assume that any girl that I talked to. Did not like me and would not like me. This wasn't conscious, it had just become a reality after being rejected and overseen.
To my surprise, I got asked out by two girls and IOI from one within the span of 3 weeks after going for a inter-school event. Mind you, I showed them zero interest and did not do anything other than being friendly because I genuinely had zero hope. I turned them down as they were not my type.
After the mentality shift, I was able to talk to girls completely fine.
I do think that the Nietzschean "will to power" is something that is real. I made many advancements in my life (Academic and Intellectual Extracurriculars) because I literally just went and gave it my best, because I had already assumed defeat in my head... So why not just try?
The trajectory of my life was changed, simply because I took up opportunities and restrained the part of my mind that told me that I was a genetic failure.
Did my "will" change my genes? No. But, I realized that I have enough to have a happy life... and I do feel like many in this forum also do but simply don't go for those opportunities because of defeatism.
I have realized that girls should not really ever be your goal, it's extremely cucked and this is coming from a person who spent the majority of his formative years with it as one.
I am passionate about politics, history and philosophy. I've found a higher purpose.
Even if I do not get any girls, I am fine. Because the struggle towards fulfilling my ambition, is a task so large that I don't event think about my biological impulses anymore.
Understanding that "love" is simply a biological imperative rather than an abstract magical-idea that many of us subscribe to. Really shifted the way that I think about pursuing girls, because I realize that it's just an instinct that I can supersede.
If I didn't have it, I would not care at all.
