what ped or sarm to use during puberty

[retardmaxx2]

im 16 rn fucked my puberty bc when i was 14 or smth i was losing weight and then my mum put me into a fucking mental hospital where they gaslit me into thinking i had anorexia bc my heartrate was 30bpm but i was still fucking thriving and felt better thatn ever and was working out like a cunt so theyre schizo so they put me away in a fucking shrink for a year and a bit where i was getting fed through a feeding tube for a year of just sugary supplement drink now they made me fat now i have to be 60kg which makes me fat for my height and theres nothing i can do about it or else they will send me back which is fucking bullshit bc im a fat cunt and have to cheekbite and stomach vacuum all day so i dont look fat and retarded but now i have jowls forming from it so im cooked even more but now im tryna hop on a sarm or ped to gain muscle and lose fat which i wouldve beeen able to do when i was 14 and i couldve become a fucking jacked cunt but instead they locked me away bc they're insecure about themselves or whatever anyway what ped do i do and where do i get it to australia

 

[Thinking_CEL]

60kg makes u fat for ur height how tall r u then?

Cause even at 5’7 60kg would be considered slim

 

[retardmaxx2]

60kg makes u fat for ur height how tall r u then?

Cause even at 5’7 60kg would be considered slim

like 5'5 but im still fat idk if i just store fat in my stomach or smth