Acquiescence
#1 Oofy Doofy Jestermaxxer
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Mine - falling for redpill lies instead of having the balls to take the blackpill, back in 2018 as a 16yo youngcel
The cost was enormous, irreversible, and highly damaging - the best years of my prime (mid-late teens and early 20s, aka almost the entirety of high school and college) spent pointlessly grinding futile side quests like academics, “interesting” hobbies, gym, and cultivating muh alpha mindset broooooo. All the while being a pitiful KV
I could have properly softmaxxed within a couple of months, hopped on dut + min right at 18 to prevent NW2 recession, had a much more relaxed and NT school experience, saved up for and gotten trimax + implants in time for college, and likely wouldn’t be KV anymore + I’d be an overall much more positive and confident person
Instead, here I am picking up the pieces as I rapidly approach my mid 20s, attempting to ascend as a wageslave before it’s too late due to the agepill, while also dealing with intense feelings of bitterness, rage, jadedness, and being emotionally and spiritually stuck in the past
The only plus is that the rp did, to a certain extent, push me to socialize, “Put Myself Out There”, and get some NT life experiences in. But that’s about it
I know there’s nothing else to do now but move on and improve what’s still feasible and realistic to, but I also know deep down that I’ll never fully get past that ever gnawing regret
Brootal
The cost was enormous, irreversible, and highly damaging - the best years of my prime (mid-late teens and early 20s, aka almost the entirety of high school and college) spent pointlessly grinding futile side quests like academics, “interesting” hobbies, gym, and cultivating muh alpha mindset broooooo. All the while being a pitiful KV
I could have properly softmaxxed within a couple of months, hopped on dut + min right at 18 to prevent NW2 recession, had a much more relaxed and NT school experience, saved up for and gotten trimax + implants in time for college, and likely wouldn’t be KV anymore + I’d be an overall much more positive and confident person
Instead, here I am picking up the pieces as I rapidly approach my mid 20s, attempting to ascend as a wageslave before it’s too late due to the agepill, while also dealing with intense feelings of bitterness, rage, jadedness, and being emotionally and spiritually stuck in the past
The only plus is that the rp did, to a certain extent, push me to socialize, “Put Myself Out There”, and get some NT life experiences in. But that’s about it
I know there’s nothing else to do now but move on and improve what’s still feasible and realistic to, but I also know deep down that I’ll never fully get past that ever gnawing regret
Brootal
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