
beyondbirthday
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What's the point of even living? I can’t help but ask myself that every day. After university, all that’s waiting for me is a long, arduous search for a job, only to end up stuck in a never-ending grind. I'll work tirelessly until I’m physically worn out, until my body can’t keep up with the demands anymore. And then what? I’ll just wait for the inevitable end. Is that really all there is to life? It’s hard to shake the feeling that I’m incapable of being loved. I look around at others, and it seems like people just have this innate ability to connect, to build meaningful relationships, while I feel like an outsider, unable to even understand what makes others feel seen and valued. I’m not sure if I’ll ever be able to feel that connection. And if I can't experience love or genuine companionship, does life even have a real purpose? But it's not just the personal side of things that gets me. I look up at the stars and wonder, how can we be the only intelligent beings in this massive universe? The sheer size of it all makes me feel so infinitesimally insignificant. We're just one tiny speck in this vast expanse, and all our struggles, all our pursuits, seem so small in comparison. Why was I born in this century, in this era? Why am I here, in this period of human history where we’re still so undeveloped in so many ways? I could’ve been born in a different time, where perhaps things were simpler, or maybe even a time when humanity had already progressed. I wonder if it would have been better if I lived during a more enlightened age, one where we would’ve figured out how to make life meaningful on a global scale, where the concept of work didn’t feel like a rat race for survival. But here I am, stuck in the present, and it feels like I’m just drifting through life. And even though I might have big dreams, I don’t see myself as someone who can make a difference. I’m not special or smart enough to create something that will help humanity as a whole. I’m not going to invent the next life-changing technology, or write something that will inspire generations to come. So, what’s the point of trying so hard if the odds of doing anything truly impactful seem so low? And that’s what frustrates me the most. Why do we have to work so hard just to exist? We didn’t choose to be born into this world. We didn’t get to opt-in or opt-out, and yet here we are, trying to make a living, struggling to find meaning in the midst of all the chaos. We’re told we have to work hard to live a “normal” life—just to survive. And for what? So we can just keep going, paying bills, working, maybe even finding a few fleeting moments of happiness along the way? It doesn’t feel like it’s worth it, especially when the finish line is death, and nothing after that. I don’t know if there’s a real answer to any of this. Maybe life isn’t meant to make sense, and we’re just supposed to keep going because that’s all we can do. But there are days when it feels like everything is meaningless, and it’s hard to find the motivation to keep going, to keep fighting through all the struggles, knowing that in the grand scheme of things, we’re all just tiny, insignificant blips in time.
TL;DR: Life feels pointless—after university, it’s just job struggles, working until I can’t move, and then waiting to die. I feel unlovable and insignificant in the vast universe. Humanity isn’t even close to reaching its full potential, and I don’t think I can make a meaningful impact. We didn’t choose to be born, and we have to work hard just to survive. It all feels meaningless.
TL;DR: Life feels pointless—after university, it’s just job struggles, working until I can’t move, and then waiting to die. I feel unlovable and insignificant in the vast universe. Humanity isn’t even close to reaching its full potential, and I don’t think I can make a meaningful impact. We didn’t choose to be born, and we have to work hard just to survive. It all feels meaningless.