when i was 5

[crhoidu]

I've only started to actually listen to this lookmaxxing stuff for like the last few months, something around that.
I've always been pretty ugly but I remember when I was like 5 and everyone was at school playing boys-catch girls and I asked to play. I ran around for like 10 minutes and realised nobody was actually chasing me. I stood around for like 2 minutes and then walked away.
I was 5 years old and even then I was unwanted

 

[n9wiff]

Nah bro that's wild af

I would have crashed out

 

[bttb]

I don’t even know what to say bro I’m so sorry

 

[LTNUser]

Sorry bro

 

[craven]

You cant even call ur self an incel if this never happenned to you

 

[crhoidu]

I think one of the worst parts about it was how oblivious i was. It was only till years later, after holding out some ridiculous hope I'd actually be genuinely liked by someone I remembered it clearly. I'm 18 now. 5 year old me was undeveloped, I had nice hair, I was active, smiled, happy. Even still I was rejected by everyone. Everyone thought I was a weirdo freak, I don't even know why. I fucking hate this stupid place, I feel so ashamed walking in my local village because I see people i went to school with, the same people who tortured me, ruined any confidence or ego I had. Women are so cruel, so so cruel. I don't want to hate them, I don't like thinking I hate them but what else am I supposed to do when I have been undermined and humiliated by them for years for simply existing?