CookieGuy
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It’s not necessarily because you aren’t chad, while being chad would probably help your confidence and low self esteem. but read the following
You are shy; you know you look somewhat okay, you aren’t hideous nor drop dead gorgeous. You have a hard time making friends but probably have a few. And if you have friends they are most likely outside of school. In school most kids sort of just leave you be and only come to you if you need anything since you are so shy. Girls don’t necessarily hate you at all, some probably showed interest in you. maybe you had one that thought you were atrocious, but chances are she was ugIy and projected onto a normie like you.
But one day everything changed, one sweet and kind girl showed interest in you, a major point in a lot of people like your’s lives. You were confused, you weren’t a chad, you were shy, introverted, play videogames all day and have weird interests butt yet for some reason she wanted you, maybe she was as nerdy as you too about games.
You would call over the phone and laugh and talk; and suddenly you fall into the dark pit. You start hearing things that remind you of her, and thinking about things that remind you of her and you want to push them away even thought you are close with her. Falling in love brought you with these sick dark feelings of unworthiness and you start putting her on a pedastool like she is a god above you. Everything she does seems amazing, and perfect; and you love her vibe. And you feel unworthy. You start to isolate more from her, you start to change, get more depressed, feel these dark pits in your stomach whenever you are talking with her, and she notices is and she gets sad. She thinks you hate her. And what do most of you guys do. You leave her while loving her so much because you can’t handle being who you are with someone so amazing. You tear up thinking about her, about how amazing she was, the hugs she gave you, the fun times you had playing, and you miss her. You start to have thoughts like “if I get better mentally and get all the surgery I need to feel perfect I will come back to her” but that won’t happen, by then she would have tried her best to move on from you. At the time she loved you for you, she loved your face, even thought it was MTN at the best, she found you cute, she found your character cute, she loved you. Now you have gone your own way and isolate yourself from the world, and want everything good that ever happened to you out of your life. And you wanted the person who treated you the best out of your life because you felt you weren’t worthy enough for them.
You use the blackpill as a coping mechanism in hopes that one day you will be normal, and hopefully be able to reciprocate the love an amazing kind and loyal virgin girl gives you without putting yourself away in shame and failure.
Now here you are, playing games in a basement, not going outside with kids your age, and you are depressed.
Now you go back to school with no friends because you don’t talk or socialize, it isn’t because of your looks either but you insist that it is. And the only thing you Semi look forward too is that random spike of dopamine for a day that you get once a week or once every too weeks, whether you get invested in a videogame that day or you look in the mirror and look slightly better than usual.
Was this relatable?
You are shy; you know you look somewhat okay, you aren’t hideous nor drop dead gorgeous. You have a hard time making friends but probably have a few. And if you have friends they are most likely outside of school. In school most kids sort of just leave you be and only come to you if you need anything since you are so shy. Girls don’t necessarily hate you at all, some probably showed interest in you. maybe you had one that thought you were atrocious, but chances are she was ugIy and projected onto a normie like you.
But one day everything changed, one sweet and kind girl showed interest in you, a major point in a lot of people like your’s lives. You were confused, you weren’t a chad, you were shy, introverted, play videogames all day and have weird interests butt yet for some reason she wanted you, maybe she was as nerdy as you too about games.
You would call over the phone and laugh and talk; and suddenly you fall into the dark pit. You start hearing things that remind you of her, and thinking about things that remind you of her and you want to push them away even thought you are close with her. Falling in love brought you with these sick dark feelings of unworthiness and you start putting her on a pedastool like she is a god above you. Everything she does seems amazing, and perfect; and you love her vibe. And you feel unworthy. You start to isolate more from her, you start to change, get more depressed, feel these dark pits in your stomach whenever you are talking with her, and she notices is and she gets sad. She thinks you hate her. And what do most of you guys do. You leave her while loving her so much because you can’t handle being who you are with someone so amazing. You tear up thinking about her, about how amazing she was, the hugs she gave you, the fun times you had playing, and you miss her. You start to have thoughts like “if I get better mentally and get all the surgery I need to feel perfect I will come back to her” but that won’t happen, by then she would have tried her best to move on from you. At the time she loved you for you, she loved your face, even thought it was MTN at the best, she found you cute, she found your character cute, she loved you. Now you have gone your own way and isolate yourself from the world, and want everything good that ever happened to you out of your life. And you wanted the person who treated you the best out of your life because you felt you weren’t worthy enough for them.
You use the blackpill as a coping mechanism in hopes that one day you will be normal, and hopefully be able to reciprocate the love an amazing kind and loyal virgin girl gives you without putting yourself away in shame and failure.
Now here you are, playing games in a basement, not going outside with kids your age, and you are depressed.
Now you go back to school with no friends because you don’t talk or socialize, it isn’t because of your looks either but you insist that it is. And the only thing you Semi look forward too is that random spike of dopamine for a day that you get once a week or once every too weeks, whether you get invested in a videogame that day or you look in the mirror and look slightly better than usual.
Was this relatable?
I was projecting my life basically, I feel for you, it’s awful. I hope you feel a bit less alone I guess cuz I know I do
