why am i so unlovable, whats wrong with me

[Kiwi'sSub5]

I'm making this thread to express the hatred I feel towards myself, and partly towards women (it's not the first time something like this has happened, but this is definitely the one that hurt me the most). My mental health is deteriorating more and more, all I think about is killing myself. These days, however, I met a girl on a dating app. She is truly amazing, she treated me well right away and we had a great understanding. The more time passed, the better things got. She started calling me "love", she gave me the sweetest compliments and said really romantic things. She always talked about how as soon as we saw each other she would cover me with kisses and never leave my side. She truly made me feel loved for the first time in my entire life, truly. Today, however, she came out with a message that I honestly suspected, but that I hoped with all my heart would never arrive. All of her tiktok reposts were about her ex, and on the one hand I already knew how it would end, but I really hoped it wouldn't. she said these exact words "i don't feel ready for a relationship, but it's not you, it's me. you are a beautiful boy and one of the best people i've ever met". the question then sticks out in my mind, why were you on a dating app and immediately made me feel loved and raised my hopes? evidently she just needed attention and had to "forget" his ex. but apparently this is not enough, it's not enough to be kind and "beautiful", it will never be enough for me. meeting this girl has marked me a lot, not only because she made me feel good and truly loved, but also because for a moment I stopped thinking about committing suicide, I didn't want to make her feel bad, I didn't want her to cry for me. but what's even more important than all: I hoped for a better future with her, I hoped she could help me, I hoped all those nice things she told me in chat could really happen. I confess that I'm not sure I wouldn't have killed myself even if she had stayed, but now that she's gone she has certainly given me more motivation to kill myself. apparently for everyone i am a beautiful and fantastic person, but still nobody wants me. i am tired, i don’t want to play this game no more chat.

 

[JoeLesbo420]

I'm making this thread to express the hatred I feel towards myself, and partly towards women (it's not the first time something like this has happened, but this is definitely the one that hurt me the most). My mental health is deteriorating more and more, all I think about is killing myself. These days, however, I met a girl on a dating app. She is truly amazing, she treated me well right away and we had a great understanding. The more time passed, the better things got. She started calling me "love", she gave me the sweetest compliments and said really romantic things. She always talked about how as soon as we saw each other she would cover me with kisses and never leave my side. She truly made me feel loved for the first time in my entire life, truly. Today, however, she came out with a message that I honestly suspected, but that I hoped with all my heart would never arrive. All of her tiktok reposts were about her ex, and on the one hand I already knew how it would end, but I really hoped it wouldn't. she said these exact words "i don't feel ready for a relationship, but it's not you, it's me. you are a beautiful boy and one of the best people i've ever met". the question then sticks out in my mind, why were you on a dating app and immediately made me feel loved and raised my hopes? evidently she just needed attention and had to "forget" his ex. but apparently this is not enough, it's not enough to be kind and "beautiful", it will never be enough for me. meeting this girl has marked me a lot, not only because she made me feel good and truly loved, but also because for a moment I stopped thinking about committing suicide, I didn't want to make her feel bad, I didn't want her to cry for me. but what's even more important than all: I hoped for a better future with her, I hoped she could help me, I hoped all those nice things she told me in chat could really happen. I confess that I'm not sure I wouldn't have killed myself even if she had stayed, but now that she's gone she has certainly given me more motivation to kill myself. apparently for everyone i am a beautiful and fantastic person, but still nobody wants me. i am tired, i don’t want to play this game no more chat.

I'm making this thread to express the hatred I feel towards myself, and partly towards women (it's not the first time something like this has happened, but this is definitely the one that hurt me the most). My mental health is deteriorating more and more, all I think about is killing myself. These days, however, I met a girl on a dating app. She is truly amazing, she treated me well right away and we had a great understanding. The more time passed, the better things got. She started calling me "love", she gave me the sweetest compliments and said really romantic things. She always talked about how as soon as we saw each other she would cover me with kisses and never leave my side. She truly made me feel loved for the first time in my entire life, truly. Today, however, she came out with a message that I honestly suspected, but that I hoped with all my heart would never arrive. All of her tiktok reposts were about her ex, and on the one hand I already knew how it would end, but I really hoped it wouldn't. she said these exact words "i don't feel ready for a relationship, but it's not you, it's me. you are a beautiful boy and one of the best people i've ever met". the question then sticks out in my mind, why were you on a dating app and immediately made me feel loved and raised my hopes? evidently she just needed attention and had to "forget" his ex. but apparently this is not enough, it's not enough to be kind and "beautiful", it will never be enough for me. meeting this girl has marked me a lot, not only because she made me feel good and truly loved, but also because for a moment I stopped thinking about committing suicide, I didn't want to make her feel bad, I didn't want her to cry for me. but what's even more important than all: I hoped for a better future with her, I hoped she could help me, I hoped all those nice things she told me in chat could really happen. I confess that I'm not sure I wouldn't have killed myself even if she had stayed, but now that she's gone she has certainly given me more motivation to kill myself. apparently for everyone i am a beautiful and fantastic person, but still nobody wants me. i am tired, i don’t want to play this game no more chat.

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[Kiwi'sSub5]

I'm making this thread to express the hatred I feel towards myself, and partly towards women (it's not the first time something like this has happened, but this is definitely the one that hurt me the most). My mental health is deteriorating more and more, all I think about is killing myself. These days, however, I met a girl on a dating app. She is truly amazing, she treated me well right away and we had a great understanding. The more time passed, the better things got. She started calling me "love", she gave me the sweetest compliments and said really romantic things. She always talked about how as soon as we saw each other she would cover me with kisses and never leave my side. She truly made me feel loved for the first time in my entire life, truly. Today, however, she came out with a message that I honestly suspected, but that I hoped with all my heart would never arrive. All of her tiktok reposts were about her ex, and on the one hand I already knew how it would end, but I really hoped it wouldn't. she said these exact words "i don't feel ready for a relationship, but it's not you, it's me. you are a beautiful boy and one of the best people i've ever met". the question then sticks out in my mind, why were you on a dating app and immediately made me feel loved and raised my hopes? evidently she just needed attention and had to "forget" his ex. but apparently this is not enough, it's not enough to be kind and "beautiful", it will never be enough for me. meeting this girl has marked me a lot, not only because she made me feel good and truly loved, but also because for a moment I stopped thinking about committing suicide, I didn't want to make her feel bad, I didn't want her to cry for me. but what's even more important than all: I hoped for a better future with her, I hoped she could help me, I hoped all those nice things she told me in chat could really happen. I confess that I'm not sure I wouldn't have killed myself even if she had stayed, but now that she's gone she has certainly given me more motivation to kill myself. apparently for everyone i am a beautiful and fantastic person, but still nobody wants me. i am tired, i don’t want to play this game no more chat.

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aight bro

 

[looksmaxingbeyond]

didn’t read, but you are probably recessed

 

[illegalally]

the smiths reference

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

didn’t read, but you are probably recessed

im not recessed lol, at least not in the pics she saw

 

[superpsycho]

because your genetics are not deemed good enough by society

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

because your genetics are not deemed good enough by society

yeah, time to rope

 

[nobodylovesme]

You got to see there's some good in this world even if this ended badly.

Pull through, bud. Too early for you