why are foids like this

[2chudded2care]

after like 3 months since breaking up with my ex and a long cycle of wanting to kms, getting attached to someone, them leaving, me wanting to kms again and this repeating over and over, i finally met a foid who was just as obsessive as i am and we got along so well and everything felt perfect (bear in mind this all happened within 24 hours. i am fucking retarded) and then she starts being dry and talking about another guy to her friends and acting like i dont exist. she did mention earlier that she was gonna drink tonight and said she gets bitchy when she drinks but still im obviously not taking that as an excuse. it's over for attention whores like myself. the worst bit is that i had a bit of hope for the last 48 hours, i knew that it would fail because she's a tcc girl (loves mass shooters basically) and mentally ill and shit but i thought that it would fail a little sooner jfl. i wanted to at least be able to spend 2 weeks in delusion not wanting to kill myself or go ER. but nope all it took was less than 48 hours. why the fuck am i so desperate for love and affection what is wrong with me

 

[romanstock]

girls like that love drama so tell her shes making u want to kys ur gonna do it tonight fuarkkkkk. she'll love it.

 

[2chudded2care]

girls like that love drama so tell her shes making u want to kys ur gonna do it tonight fuarkkkkk. she'll love it.

i don't wanna come across as a loser even doe i already am jfl

maybe i will if she starts acting lovey dovey to me again. wouldn't be the worst idea, if maybe she has an ounce of empathy she might just continue acting nice and not make me want to kill myself

i'd rather be in delusion atp, i just need someone to love until i find another viable option and then i can move on and repeat the cycle lol. having breaks of loneliness in between my phases of obsession is what's making me want to go postal so that's just all i've gotta avoid

 

[romanstock]

i don't wanna come across as a loser even doe i already am jfl

maybe i will if she starts acting lovey dovey to me again. wouldn't be the worst idea, if maybe she has an ounce of empathy she might just continue acting nice and not make me want to kill myself

i'd rather be in delusion atp, i just need someone to love until i find another viable option and then i can move on and repeat the cycle lol. having breaks of loneliness in between my phases of obsession is what's making me want to go postal so that's just all i've gotta avoid

that's non-nt. non-nt never works. nt often works no matter how stupid it looks on paper. be nt and do as i say

 

[2chudded2care]

that's non-nt. non-nt never works. nt often works no matter how stupid it looks on paper. be nt and do as i say

well what do i do bruh

my autistic ass just wants someone who loves me as i am but i'm beginning to think that that doesn't exist

 

[romanstock]

well what do i do bruh

my autistic ass just wants someone who loves me as i am but i'm beginning to think that that doesn't exist

bruh, i literally already told you what to do

 

[2chudded2care]

bruh, i literally already told you what to do

my bad

anyways i talked to my friend about it and she suggested she tried setting me up with someone

online dating clearly doesnt work and i just gotta get out of my comfort zone

she said she knows an autist so hopefully that goes well, just gotta act NT enough till both comfortable (which is what i usually do anyways. hopefully she just doesn't hate me once im comfortable lol)

and since it's summer holidays in like 3 weeks i'll have to do something other than sit inside all day lol, i needa get out and stuff so hopefully this goes well.

wish me luck boyo!