Why cant i fit in with the others at school

[dark triad]

Title. Atp im not even an outcast people love me n cherish my presence but idk how to hold relationships with people
I always distance myself from them cuz I've always assumed they dont love me and dont like me but its the opposite
Ive tried NTmaxxing or whatever its called,i fixed my social skills
Id say im bold and charismatic,i dont stutter like a retard anymore or shut down cuz im shy
Ive also forced myself to like slop topics normies love like football,music,fashion,cars,books, skateboarding,gaming,tech,sports in general,and alpt of other stuff so im fun to hang out with
But at this point i feel like patrick bateman it's all a fucking mask and it slowly drains me
8 hours at school hardly pass that i feel like crashing out and hitting everyone
Its js hell i dont know if i can keep going like this

 

[dark triad]

Bump

 

[dark triad]

Dump

 

[Latinolooksmaxxer]

too dark triad for normies

 

[DeborahAnnWollFARTS]

 

[fuxkdakikez]

low self esteem

 

[dark triad]

low self esteem

What can i do
Im death scared of being proven unworthy of something
Am i doomed?

 

[Crusile]

Title. Atp im not even an outcast people love me n cherish my presence but idk how to hold relationships with people
I always distance myself from them cuz I've always assumed they dont love me and dont like me but its the opposite
Ive tried NTmaxxing or whatever its called,i fixed my social skills
Id say im bold and charismatic,i dont stutter like a retard anymore or shut down cuz im shy
Ive also forced myself to like slop topics normies love like football,music,fashion,cars,books, skateboarding,gaming,tech,sports in general,and alpt of other stuff so im fun to hang out with
But at this point i feel like patrick bateman it's all a fucking mask and it slowly drains me
8 hours at school hardly pass that i feel like crashing out and hitting everyone
Its js hell i dont know if i can keep going like this

You cant force behavior, its unsustainable. you have to act more normally

 

[dark triad]

too dark triad for normies

Meh i hate this username cant change it sadly

 

[dark triad]

You cant force behavior, its unsustainable. you have to act more normally

I cant im autistic as fuck
Last time i tried acting "normally" I HIT A NIGGA WITH A CHAIR TO HIS HEAD n got called by the principal so nuh uh

 

[Crusile]

I cant im autistic as fuck
Last time i tried acting "normally" I HIT A NIGGA WITH A CHAIR TO HIS HEAD n got called by the principal so nuh uh

Im similar but its fine you just have to try your best and maybe mellow yourself out

 

[dark triad]

Im similar but its fine you just have to try your best and maybe mellow yourself out

Idk im trying but too high inhib to act like my true self
Im "non chalant" or whatever these normies call it now

 

[Crusile]

Idk im trying but too high inhib to act like my true self
Im "non chalant" or whatever these normies call it now

Also when you act normally you learn how to regulate your compulsive behaviors that ppl find annoying. as in, you have more outbursts where you embarrass yourself

 

[MrMogger]

Willing lost 10+ IQ points just to fit in, what a champ

If you're non-NT just find a hobby or something interesting enough to sink your hours into. A life, spent wasted or not, is still a fucking life. Use it as you will.

 

[dark triad]

Willing lost 10+ IQ points just to fit in, what a champ

If you're non-NT just find a hobby or something interesting enough to sink your hours into. A life, spent wasted or not, is still a fucking life. Use it as you will.

What sucks with autism is all those hobbies are just hyper fixations
You dedicate a third of your life to it and then js give up and get all disinterested in it

 

[chadlitemaxxing]

dnr a single molecule - cuz ure in .org retard get a life

 

[ascendingESRcel]

Relatable bro

 

[omermaxxing]

Same shit just fucking get over it, that's best advice ppl love me and miss me 24/7 when am absent so there's smt am doin right I fuck up with maintaining ties ONLINE and outside school and shit tho ngl

 

[unfortunatehobbies]

8 hours at school hardly pass that i feel like crashing out and hitting everyone

ay i kinda understand. feel the anger, feel it in your veins, and feel energised by it. instead of seeing it as a huge burden, see it as a power that courses through you. imagine a nuclear reactor, giving off heat, but in a highly controlled way. this sort of drive can be dangerously powerful.

I always distance myself from them cuz I've always assumed they dont love me and dont like me but its the opposite

nothing wrong with assuming the worst, but also have a couple of folks whom you know will have your back. it isn't healthy to not trust a single person. how about finding a completely separate group to show your real personality to, perhaps online or another social group that the main group will never find out about?

once you personalitymaxx consciously, there is no going back. once you realise the potential with the mask on, you will never want to take it off. i myself am struggling against the current to go down this path and fully personalitymaxx. i might regret it someday, but i imagine the reward at the end, the slays and the ltr.