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h111
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I always tend to say gay things, its become a habit. It started off with just gay jokes once in a while, but now so many things I say have a subtle gay joke behind it, and I randomly say sexual things about men. We were talking and the topic of gay people got brought up, and he said he suspected me of being gay, but I just haven't come out yet. I tried to tell him they were all just jokes, but everyone nearby agreed that the way I say it is way too serious and it happens so often, and I felt like killing myself.
Even after I tried to stop I couldnt, and ive become full autist at this point. I guess its because I constantly think about having sex and doing sexual things but im too high inhib to say out loud "bro i want head from my gf" so i will project those thoughts by saying something like "i wanna suck his dick so badly" or something like that.
He said those jokes are a reflection of my true fantasies, but I know it isnt true.
How brutal is this?
Even after I tried to stop I couldnt, and ive become full autist at this point. I guess its because I constantly think about having sex and doing sexual things but im too high inhib to say out loud "bro i want head from my gf" so i will project those thoughts by saying something like "i wanna suck his dick so badly" or something like that.
He said those jokes are a reflection of my true fantasies, but I know it isnt true.
How brutal is this?