Why do I fake and mask all my interactions with other people?

[CorinthianLOX]

I can’t be authentic with most people or anyone for that matter. I have to mask and fake all my interactions with other people and idk why. I just can’t take it anymore. That’s why I haven’t gone out today despite it’s the start of summer holiday and graduation day for most people so many people are celebrating. But I just don’t want to go out to party because I fake all my emotions and hide my true feelings from others and it’s exhausting and so tiring.

 

[CorinthianLOX]

Bump

 

[pope]

I can’t be authentic with most people or anyone for that matter. I have to mask and fake all my interactions with other people and idk why. I just can’t take it anymore. That’s why I haven’t gone out today despite it’s the start of summer holiday and graduation day for most people so many people are celebrating. But I just don’t want to go out to party because I fake all my emotions and hide my true feelings from others and it’s exhausting and so tiring.

What would you look like without masking ?

 

[CorinthianLOX]

What would you look like without masking ?

Probably pretty hateful, resentful, cold and overall pretty retarded and mentally ill jfl.

 

[fwhr glazer]

I can’t be authentic with most people or anyone for that matter. I have to mask and fake all my interactions with other people and idk why. I just can’t take it anymore. That’s why I haven’t gone out today despite it’s the start of summer holiday and graduation day for most people so many people are celebrating. But I just don’t want to go out to party because I fake all my emotions and hide my true feelings from others and it’s exhausting and so tiring.

acting nt is hard

 

[CorinthianLOX]

acting nt is hard

I know and it’s exhausting.

 

[Popstar867]

I can’t be authentic with most people or anyone for that matter. I have to mask and fake all my interactions with other people and idk why. I just can’t take it anymore. That’s why I haven’t gone out today despite it’s the start of summer holiday and graduation day for most people so many people are celebrating. But I just don’t want to go out to party because I fake all my emotions and hide my true feelings from others and it’s exhausting and so tiring.

Authentic is not a simple thing . There’s many definition of it . In my opinion authenticity means that I do things how I want . not showing people on everything I do isn’t really being fake . As long as I don’t go against my ideals . I’m authentic . Following others and doing things I don’t want to do is what I would call being unauthentic

 

[superpsycho]

that’s normal

 

[Vultus Tui Res]

I can’t be authentic with most people or anyone for that matter. I have to mask and fake all my interactions with other people and idk why. I just can’t take it anymore. That’s why I haven’t gone out today despite it’s the start of summer holiday and graduation day for most people so many people are celebrating. But I just don’t want to go out to party because I fake all my emotions and hide my true feelings from others and it’s exhausting and so tiring.

You haven’t found the right people, who knows if you will, hopefully.

 

[CorinthianLOX]

Authentic is not a simple thing . There’s many definition of it . In my opinion authenticity means that I do things how I want . not showing people on everything I do isn’t really being fake . As long as I don’t go against my ideals . I’m authentic . Following others and doing things I don’t want to do is what I would call being unauthentic

If i was coerced into going outside then it would feel unauthentic.

 

[aryan mogger]

Because you're literally Patrick Bateman in American Psycho.

 

[CorinthianLOX]

You haven’t found the right people, who knows if you will, hopefully.

Why do I feel like this won’t happen? I feel like i don’t even care about most people outside my family on a deep level.

 

[CorinthianLOX]

Because you're literally Patrick Bateman in American Psycho.

Patrick bateman isn’t even the best psycho in fiction.

 

[pope]

Probably pretty hateful, resentful, cold and overall pretty retarded and mentally ill jfl.

same, try just doing things without the mask once and see what happens ?

 

[aryan mogger]

Patrick bateman isn’t even the best psycho in fiction.

You prefer Anton Chigurh. I know

 

[CorinthianLOX]

same, try just doing things without the mask once and see what happens ?

I have also repressed and bottled up my true feelings so taking the mask off in the presence of other people is hard.

 

[Popstar867]

If i was coerced into going outside then it would feel unauthentic.

No you wouldn’t. In fact no human in history would . You just don’t understand what you actually want , and make yourself believe into thinking what you’re saying is the actual truth .

 

[CorinthianLOX]

You prefer Anton Chigurh. I know

I prefer anton chigurh, dexter, jack torrence and hannibal lecter. Patrick was a little too impulsive. Still lowkey relatable though i wouldn’t kill women.

 

[CorinthianLOX]

No you wouldn’t. In fact no human in history would . You just don’t understand what you actually want , and make yourself believe into thinking what you’re saying is the actual truth .

Maybe you’re right

 

[Alias!]

I can’t be authentic with most people or anyone for that matter. I have to mask and fake all my interactions with other people and idk why. I just can’t take it anymore. That’s why I haven’t gone out today despite it’s the start of summer holiday and graduation day for most people so many people are celebrating. But I just don’t want to go out to party because I fake all my emotions and hide my true feelings from others and it’s exhausting and so tiring.

Cuz if we all didn’t mask we would get sent to the ward

 

[Vultus Tui Res]

Why do I feel like this won’t happen? I feel like i don’t even care about most people outside my family on a deep level.

Because it’s rare to find real people. Maybe you’re meant to thrive alone.

 

[Popstar867]

Maybe you’re right

Also when I say , doing things that you don’t want isn’t a simple thing . Like riding a rollercoaster when I don’t want too , or leaving my room when I’m tired . I meant as in going against your belief , although it’s nearly impossible to do that for humans , but still I try my best .

 

[CorinthianLOX]

Because it’s rare to find real people. Maybe you’re meant to thrive alone.

I want a ltr gf but relationships are hard and i feel like i’m too impatient and unempathetic for that.

 

[Popstar867]

Because it’s rare to find real people. Maybe you’re meant to thrive alone.

No it isn’t , you don’t even know what real people even mean . Everyone’s different and you should see who you actually enjoy being with

 

[Beastimmung]

Give an example of how you behaved and how you would have behaved if you didn't mask anything

 

[CorinthianLOX]

Also when I say , doing things that you don’t want isn’t a simple thing . Like riding a rollercoaster when I don’t want too , or leaving my room when I’m tired . I meant as in going against your belief , although it’s nearly impossible to do that for humans , but still I try my best .

The thing is that I can’t form connections with people and shit. A girl liked me at a party and i fucked up because i was too retarded and aloof.

 

[CorinthianLOX]

Give an example of how you behaved and how you would have behaved if you didn't mask anything

I act like society would want me to. If i didn’t mask i would be more blunt about everything and probably would act on my darkest urges & impulses for example break the law.

 

[Popstar867]

The thing is that I can’t form connections with people and shit. A girl liked me at a party and i fucked up because i was too retarded and aloof.

Forming connection just means both of you enjoy each other company . If you’re the kindest man with the most hilarious stories , you can still not form connection. You either need to change the things you do to improve your chances or find yourself a person who likes you now

 

[Popstar867]

I act like society would want me to. If i didn’t mask i would be more blunt about everything and probably would act on my darkest urges & impulses for example break the law.

Every single normie has the same feeling as this btw

 

[CorinthianLOX]

Every single normie has the same feeling as this btw

Also i participated in my school’s extracurricular activities and I absolutely hated them even though everyone else loved them. I also skipped school alot because i just wouldn’t bother with going.

 

[Beastimmung]

I act like society would want me to. If i didn’t mask i would be more blunt about everything and probably would act on my darkest urges & impulses for example break the law.

Which law would you break?

 

[Popstar867]

Also i participated in my school’s extracurricular activities and I absolutely hated them even though everyone else loved them. I also skipped school alot because i just wouldn’t bother with going.

Me aswell just find things you actually enjoy then ? There’s millions like you

 

[Vultus Tui Res]

No it isn’t , you don’t even know what real people even mean . Everyone’s different and you should see who you actually enjoy being with

So tell me, what does real people mean.

One can enjoy being with others, but do they enjoy it. I don’t think that necessarily means that they will be there at your lowest.

 

[CorinthianLOX]

Which law would you break?

Idk. Probably something property related. Also the thing about law breaking, i don’t abide by laws because i feel some moral responsibility. I abide by laws because I don’t bother breaking them and also the risk of getting caught. If i would for example study burgraly then I would do it regurarly but i haven’t bothered yet. If I get too bored then who knows?

 

[CorinthianLOX]

Me aswell just find things you actually enjoy then ? There’s millions like you

I don’t like rules. Most activities have rules. I usually break or bend the rules whenever I can. I’ve noticed this pattern of behaviour and it’s starting to worry me.

 

[mentally_ill_chad]

If i would for example study burgraly then I would do it regurarly

I also fantasized about that, here's a cool book about it

The Home Invaders: Confessions of a Cat Burglar

True confession of a CAT BURGLAR. Dressed in black shin…

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The Home Invaders Confessions Of A Cat Burglar, Frank Hohimer (1975) : Frank Hohimer : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive

A book detailing Frank Hohimer's time in the mob as a cat burglar and how he got out

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[DonaldJTrump]

i feel for you man, being non nt kills your social life