Why do i feel like im the bottom of the food chain everytime?

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Everytime in life, I've been insecure about anything.

Getting good grades? Its probably bad, and if I get good, alot of people got it well

I used to think for my entire childhood that masculine ogres bully phenotype rule the world, and I was a short and weak and frankly ugly as a kid.

I see people who are absolute bums and I always think in my time frame that they'd do better than me. They will probably somehow succeed more than me

I win a game? Somehow I was lucky and they were just off.

I always assume I am judged, I have never gotten into the flow that other people have

I always assume people see me as a child



I always assume that I have some energy that I give off that even when someone smiles and say they find me interesting, I think they were trying to mask me

I always assume that I would be a secondary option everywhere

I always feel like my dad and mom think im a weirdo for the way I approach life.

 

[Primalsplit]

It's because you are.

 

[FiendFiend]

Everytime in life, I've been insecure about anything.

Getting good grades? Its probably bad, and if I get good, alot of people got it well

I used to think for my entire childhood that masculine ogres bully phenotype rule the world, and I was a short and weak and frankly ugly as a kid.

I see people who are absolute bums and I always think in my time frame that they'd do better than me. They will probably somehow succeed more than me

I win a game? Somehow I was lucky and they were just off.

I always assume I am judged, I have never gotten into the flow that other people have

I always assume people see me as a child



I always assume that I have some energy that I give off that even when someone smiles and say they find me interesting, I think they were trying to mask me

I always assume that I would be a secondary option everywhere

I always feel like my dad and mom think im a weirdo for the way I approach life.

if u had a parent who beat ur ass or was an alcoholic that could be why. Even when i was a cutecel 14 year old HTN 40kg twink, i was this way.

If the anxiety is so bad take benzos or some shit so ur not sitting at one spot. But once u geti n the flow it may not be that bad. I sat on my ass for months. If ur ugly too , doesnt matter u shouldnt hate urself so much to the point u cant step outside , work or be a productive member of soyciety.

Just take benzos and go work and save for surgery u need.

 

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if u had a parent who beat ur ass or was an alcoholic that could be why. Even when i was a cutecel 14 year old HTN 40kg twink, i was this way.

If the anxiety is so bad take benzos or some shit so ur not sitting at one spot. But once u geti n the flow it may not be that bad. I sat on my ass for months. If ur ugly too , doesnt matter u shouldnt hate urself so much to the point u cant step outside , work or be a productive member of soyciety.

Just take benzos and go work and save for surgery u need.

My parents were loving and calm, I wasn't bullied either

I wasnt even done anything, I legitimately have 0 traumas from memory