Why does the world treat me like shit everyday

[gooozooowggyoflove]

It feels like things never truly get better, and when they do, it’s never sustainable.
Earlier today I got a call from a girl who used to bully me. She was with another girl, and they asked if I wanted to hang out. She said they were “helping people with their glow-ups,” not realizing how much better I already look now. They still see me as the same person I used to be, and that really messed with me.
I’m pretty sure they’ve already seen how I look now—and honestly, I look way better than them—but it still doesn’t matter. Where I live, it feels like race and status always win no matter how you actually look. Girls here are insanely hypergamous, and it makes everything feel pointless. I genuinely feel like I can’t live here anymore.
I’m tall for my age (5'9.5" at 13), I have a deep voice, and a masculine face. Online and in male spaces, I get validation and respect. But in real life, I still get people bashing me and talking about me like nothing changed. After two years of constantly trying to improve my looks, hearing that stuff still hurts, no matter how much people say it shouldn’t.
I’ve stood up for myself before. I’ve fired back and made girls cry for saying stuff to me. But I’m exhausted from always having to defend myself. Now I just let it go and move on with my day, but it’s been weighing on me more and more.
Even though people say I’m good-looking now, I never feel secure. I have a girlfriend who I find really attractive, and she’s honestly my only real comfort. But the feeling never fully goes away. It’s like life keeps finding random ways to knock me down—like this call from someone from my old school, a place I literally transferred out of because of people like her. When I said I already had my glow-up, she replied, “That’s what you think.”
It makes me spiral into thinking I did something wrong, like this is karma or punishment. I’ll just be lying in bed staring at the ceiling wondering why this keeps happening.
On top of that, the stress hit me hard this morning. My cortisol spiked, I got bloated, and no matter what I did all day, I couldn’t fix it. Stress ruined my whole day before it even started.
I’m tired. I feel depressed. I don’t feel like I’m ugly anymore, but I lived that life before, and the memory never leaves. I get validation now, but it never feels permanent. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong, and I don’t know how much more of this I can take.
TL;DR
A girl who used to bully me called today and talked down to me like I hadn’t changed, which triggered a spiral. Even though I’ve glowed up a lot, get validation now, and have a girlfriend, I still don’t feel secure or at peace. Living where I do makes me feel constantly judged and inferior no matter how much I improve. Years of trying to fix my looks, dealing with stress, and reliving past bullying have left me exhausted, depressed, and questioning why life keeps knocking me down

 

[Deleted member 136057]

It never gets any better and when it does its never sustainable genuinky I just got a call from some girl that used to bully me and shes with another girl and they said wanna hangout and they were asking alotnof people and she said we are gonna help unwith ur glowup and shit not knowing how better I look now and they still think im the subhuman I was and it jst made me sad and shit and I rmemeber I think they saw how I look like now and I mog tf outta them and shit but white boy glaze will always beat someone no matter how they look like and shit is insane for how hypergamous gitls are in cali. I feel so sad and depressed lately even tho im considered rlly good by people here as some people say *htn* or shit sometimes higher or jst overall mogger and shit but with how hypergamous girls are here i cant live here anymore I'm litterly tall for my age im 5*9.5 im 13 I have a deep voice and a really masculine face which makes me get male glaze on here and in this community but outside I just have people bashing me and saying stuff abt me and shit but I cant with it anymore. It feels horrible knowing ive been trying to fix my looks for 2 years and people still say shit to me like it doesnt affect me. Ive stood up to myself for most part and made some foids cry by saying stuff to me but ive gotten so exhausted from doing thay here and there that I jst dont higher my cortisol and let it be and go with my day and ive been feeling rlly bad lately and life jst never lets me feel the sustainable experience as someone who is good looking would feel at all. Im not a invel either I have a gf thats rlly hot but this feeling never goes away ever I still feel like shit the only comfort I have is from my gf and other then that I feel like life wants me to feel this way for no reason I dont think imnugly yet I experienced the life of a subhuman before and not as much now I feel better from the male glazeni get but I never feel sustainable like this and the world throws the randomest things at me like a random gitl from my old school that I transferred out cause of one of their reasons and they call me and say stuff like what I said up there and I said I already glowed up so I dont need anything and she said * thats what you think* i deadass hate white boys they ruined everything for teenage love they will win no matter what a avg whiteboy is considered hotter then a way better looking person with white skin but has a big nose it genuinly kills me inside fuck fully white people its unfair I wish I was born in that way instead of looking masculine for my age and shit. Fuck my lige it couldn't get any worse rn but it always gets better but I catch myself at these times jst starring at my ceiling like what the fuck am I doing wrong for a random gitl to call me or for some random thing to happen to lower me like what did I do. Is this karma? What is this is cant with this shit anymore i cant live here im bloated for cortisol spike this morning too and spent my whole day trying to deblost and it didnt work at all because of the damages of me stressing hella in the morning. I cant anymore

Completely unreadable text. Paragraphs bro paragraphs

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

Completely unreadable text. Paragraphs bro paragraphs

Sorry im on my samsung rn I feel completely horrible and my hands are shaky to write so sorry for the typos and shit I jst cant think rn

 

[BeanCelll]

Didn't even read any of it unconsciously tbh

sorry though sounds like shit based off the title

 

[iblamepersonalityy]

yo chatgpt summarize this essay for me

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

Didn't even read any of it unconsciously tbh

sorry though sounds like shit based off the title

Yeah bro I try to counter it in any way to distress my life but shit jst gets thrown at me here and there and out of nowhere no matter what I really jst wanna live in a farm alone

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

yo chatgpt summarize this essay for me

Alr i jst edited it

 

[sln]

hey man i fw you heavy but please use commas and periods. but besides that i absolutely see where you're coming from with the hypergamy, its just something you are going to have to accept and move on from. and I know it seems impossible but you need to stop stressing over some of this shit. If people are calling you an htn and you're tall for your age, you aren't going to end up like a lot of the users on this site. I'm not trying to cope for you but you definitely have it better than the majority of people your age. (physically)

 

[Deleted member 136057]

Alr i jst edited it

Bro, i almost killed myself at 15. Im still subhuman pig piece of shit, women laugh at me basically.

Still i try to be positive. U have better life than me, i envy you. Dont be sad

 

[User28823]

 

[iblamepersonalityy]

Alr i jst edited it

the stuff you say is valid like how foids don’t realize how much you change and just see you as your self from when you first met but you also gotta see how good you got it. i mean you have a gf and you have friends so your life isn’t even bad

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

hey man i fw you heavy but please use commas and periods. but besides that i absolutely see where you're coming from with the hypergamy, its just something you are going to have to accept and move on from. and I know it seems impossible but you need to stop stressing over some of this shit, if people are calling you an htn and you're tall for your age you aren't going to end up like a lot of the users on this site. I'm not trying to cope for you but you definitely have it better than the majority of people your age. (physically)

Thats what I like to think but I dont fit anyone here where I live. Im a black dyed hair and I look emo because that fits my pheno and the world continues to throw things at me to fuck with me for no reason I look really ugly rn I havent shaved im bloated im high stressed I feel terrible.

U can picture James sapphire whenever he gets depressed he looks insanely worse

 

[OlympicSizzler]

Well I’m illiterate already, this just makes it worse

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

Bro, i almost killed myself at 15. Im still subhuman pig piece of shit, women laugh at me basically.

Still i try to be positive. U have better life than me, i envy you. Dont be sad

Thabk yoy bhai thay means alot and I should be grateful ur right but idk from where I used to come from when I was completely subhuman in cali it was a horrible experience and I wish nobody goes thru i was so alone and all the thoughts and self awareness ive gained from crying in the bathroom everyday for my looks jst to go back to school to get hated on again and again ive switched form that school and yet someone jst needs to call me on snap to say that

 

[sln]

Thats what I like to think but I dont fit anyone here where I live. Im a black dyed hair and I look emo because that fits my pheno and the world continues to throw things at me to fuck with me for no reason I look really ugly rn I havent shaved im bloated im high stressed I feel terrible.

U can picture James sapphire whenever he gets depressed he looks insanely worse

i understand where you're coming from, some days i wake up and i feel like im just getting raped constantly. the important thing to remember is by feeding into negative emotions, it causes more negative emotions. so ig just be delusional if that makes sense

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

Well I’m illiterate already, this just makes it worse

Same bhai I jst cant catch a break I feel like I need my gaurd up all the time

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

i understand where you're coming from, some days i wake up and i feel like im just getting raped constantly. the important thing to remember is by feeding into negative emotions, it causes more negative emotions. so ig just be delusional if that makes sense

That's right but still at some point it will get to you and my bottle of emotions have shattered rn and i csnt with anything this site is the only thing I have because I can actuslly relate to how other people feel and feel like home here but outside I feel like itter shit and it hurts more seeing average whiteboys or people considered attractive that sre *getting into bp*. When they've never been called ugly ever in their life...

 

[Deleted member 136057]

Thabk yoy bhai thay means alot and I should be grateful ur right but idk from where I used to come from when I was completely subhuman in cali it was a horrible experience and I wish nobody goes thru i was so alone and all the thoughts and self awareness ive gained from crying in the bathroom everyday for my looks jst to go back to school to get hated on again and again ive switched form that school and yet someone jst needs to call me on snap to say that

Back when middle school ended and i almost killed myself, i realised my subhumanity and how helpless i am to do anything about it.

I cried and malded for many nights, almost choked on air. Now i just live with it.

 

[sln]

That's right but still at some point it will get to you and my bottle of emotions have shattered rn and i csnt with anything this site is the only thing I have because I can actuslly relate to how other people feel and feel like home here but outside I feel like itter shit and it hurts more seeing average whiteboys or people considered attractive that sre *getting into bp*. When they've never been called ugly ever in their life...

That shit enrages me as well. I can't stand the slop on tiktok and other sites regarding this community. Fucking idiots who think bp and looksmaxxing are the same god damn thing. As methods and sites get more popular, the average person will become uglier and uglier until todays htn will be next decades ltn. Its sad but there is nothing we can do

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

the stuff you say is valid like how foids don’t realize how much you change and just see you as your self from when you first met but you also gotta see how good you got it. i mean you have a gf and you have friends so your life isn’t even bad

I mean yeah ofc I like to look at the positives but when I felt that lonely and a depressed incel at the ripe age of 10 and (im 13 now) and how ive been working on my looks since that age ive felt like utter dog shit and exhaustion from everything in life I cant go tk school because it higher stress or do anything anymore axcept go outside walk around meditate and looksmax and get my confidence on and hangout with my gf once a while it jst feels so horrible and my parents are worried for me because I dont go to school at all even tho its private and there should be no stress or anything. Life is so complicated and when I try to make it simpler more complicated things appear foids ruined my life and boys back then treated me like a punching bag for looks and I was considered the weird kif jst for my looks.

 

[iblamepersonalityy]

I mean yeah ofc I like to look at the positives but when I felt that lonely and a depressed incel at the ripe age of 10 and (im 13 now) and how ive been working on my looks since that age ive felt like utter dog shit and exhaustion from everything in life I cant go tk school because it higher stress or do anything anymore axcept go outside walk around meditate and looksmax and get my confidence on and hangout with my gf once a while it jst feels so horrible and my parents are worried for me because I dont go to school at all even tho its private and there should be no stress or anything. Life is so complicated and when I try to make it simpler more complicated things appear foids ruined my life and boys back then treated me like a punching bag for looks and I was considered the weird kif jst for my looks.

honestly it just sounds like you have anxiety your life doesn’t seem bad at all but you imagine it worse than it is idk maybe take prescription or smoke (i don’t recommend but it’s easier to get than prescription)

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

Back when middle school ended and i almost killed myself, i realised my subhumanity and how helpless i am to do anything about it.

I cried and malded for many nights, almost choked on air. Now i just live with it.

I wish i was like you and accepted my looks its jst I cant wait till im 18 to get surgery FUCKING LIFE ALWAYS BRINGS THIS TOWARDS ME I never catch a break they always is around me its like I get so confident one day then the next day some girl calls me ugly because im not a * blonde avg whiteboy* they genuinly are the superior race and I am fucking persian white so im pale asf with blue eyes but with a big nose and dark hair so im not considered white. Fuck my life bro im sorry u went thu that

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

That shit enrages me as well. I can't stand the slop on tiktok and other sites regarding this community. Fucking idiots who think bp and looksmaxxing are the same god damn thing. As methods and sites get more popular, the average person will become uglier and uglier until todays htn will be next decades ltn. Its sad but there is nothing we can do

Yesh it makes me wanna cry bro the same people that used to bully me are now into *bp* it enrages me to another level

 

[hungrythanos414]

It feels like things never truly get better, and when they do, it’s never sustainable.
Earlier today I got a call from a girl who used to bully me. She was with another girl, and they asked if I wanted to hang out. She said they were “helping people with their glow-ups,” not realizing how much better I already look now. They still see me as the same person I used to be, and that really messed with me.
I’m pretty sure they’ve already seen how I look now—and honestly, I look way better than them—but it still doesn’t matter. Where I live, it feels like race and status always win no matter how you actually look. Girls here are insanely hypergamous, and it makes everything feel pointless. I genuinely feel like I can’t live here anymore.
I’m tall for my age (5'9.5" at 13), I have a deep voice, and a masculine face. Online and in male spaces, I get validation and respect. But in real life, I still get people bashing me and talking about me like nothing changed. After two years of constantly trying to improve my looks, hearing that stuff still hurts, no matter how much people say it shouldn’t.
I’ve stood up for myself before. I’ve fired back and made girls cry for saying stuff to me. But I’m exhausted from always having to defend myself. Now I just let it go and move on with my day, but it’s been weighing on me more and more.
Even though people say I’m good-looking now, I never feel secure. I have a girlfriend who I find really attractive, and she’s honestly my only real comfort. But the feeling never fully goes away. It’s like life keeps finding random ways to knock me down—like this call from someone from my old school, a place I literally transferred out of because of people like her. When I said I already had my glow-up, she replied, “That’s what you think.”
It makes me spiral into thinking I did something wrong, like this is karma or punishment. I’ll just be lying in bed staring at the ceiling wondering why this keeps happening.
On top of that, the stress hit me hard this morning. My cortisol spiked, I got bloated, and no matter what I did all day, I couldn’t fix it. Stress ruined my whole day before it even started.
I’m tired. I feel depressed. I don’t feel like I’m ugly anymore, but I lived that life before, and the memory never leaves. I get validation now, but it never feels permanent. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong, and I don’t know how much more of this I can take.
TL;DR
A girl who used to bully me called today and talked down to me like I hadn’t changed, which triggered a spiral. Even though I’ve glowed up a lot, get validation now, and have a girlfriend, I still don’t feel secure or at peace. Living where I do makes me feel constantly judged and inferior no matter how much I improve. Years of trying to fix my looks, dealing with stress, and reliving past bullying have left me exhausted, depressed, and questioning why life keeps knocking me down

DNR u fucking retard jfl if you thought anyone was reading a single molecule of your low t vent

 

[sln]

take prescription or smoke

this shit pisses me off as well, niggas are seriously out here prescribing 13 year olds SSRIS or having them smoke weed because they don't feel 100% amazing all of the time. You're apart of the problem

 

[iblamepersonalityy]

this shit pisses me off as well, niggas are seriously out here prescribing 13 year olds SSRIS or having them smoke weed because they don't feel 100% amazing all of the time. You're apart of the problem

bro read what he wrote every problem he has is all in his head his life is good

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

this shit pisses me off as well, niggas are seriously out here prescribing 13 year olds SSRIS or having them smoke weed because they don't feel 100% amazing all of the time. You're apart of the problem

Yeah and the same ngas my age that vape , (i dont do anything like alcohol or vape or shit) are the same ngas talking about *MUH IM LIEK CLAVICULAR* and it makes me rethink my whole life just how easy it wouldve been if I was a brainless whiteboy like them and jst think like that while slaying any girl on snap.

 

[sln]

bro read what he wrote every problem he has is all in his head his life is good

but the solution isn't drugs, he needs help but you shouldn't jump to medicine tard

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

bro read what he wrote every problem he has is all in his head his life is good

Ur right I would say I have s good life but mentally and personally idk why random things such as someone calling me ugly for no reason or someone hating or someone saying shit abt me to my gf or getting a call or so on and so on...

 

[sln]

Yeah and the same ngas my age that vape , (i dont do anything like alcohol or vape or shit) are the same ngas talking about *MUH IM LIEK CLAVICULAR* and it makes me rethink my whole life just how easy it wouldve been if I was a brainless whiteboy like them and jst think like that while slaying any girl on snap.

you're superior to them, anybody who does that shit and acts like that is low iq

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

but the solution isn't drugs, he needs help but you shouldn't jump to medicine tard

Im never gonna go to drugs for mental health issues ever I ve always coped on my own and its gotten to the last strand for me i feel like crying but not at the same time

 

[iblamepersonalityy]

yo

Ur right I would say I have s good life but mentally and personally idk why random things such as someone calling me ugly for no reason or someone hating or someone saying shit abt me to my gf or getting a call or so on and so on...

your acting like no one else experiences getting called ugly or bullied

 

[sln]

Im never gonna go to drugs for mental health issues ever I ve always coped on my own and its gotten to the last strand for me i feel like crying but not at the same time

ik you won't agree but maybe take a break from this site, it seems to be doing bad damage to your mental health

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

you're superior to them, anybody who does that shit and acts like that is low iq

Exactly but yet the one getting the the whole girl fg is the low iq whiteboy.

I have resentment towards almost every femal but my hg and my gf and family thats a female.

My gf is genuinly the only one I see true and only one I have idc to talk to my friends because that never helped me in any way I remmeber I was forced tk be outside alot of times when I felt crazy ugly and I would spiral my mind over trying not to cry outlook knowing on the inside im drowning in my tears

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

yo

your acting like no one else experiences getting called ugly or bullied

Ik that bro but here's the thing in school I wasnt the ugliest kid but for some reason they acknowledged my ugliness more then kids uglier then me and they always never hope off or never acknowledge anyone else uglier and Istg ive always felt targeted no matter what thats why I started increasing and lurking on reddit and shit at around 10-11

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

ik you won't agree but maybe take a break from this site, it seems to be doing bad damage to your mental health

This site is the only thing I come to sometimes other then my gf because I jst wanna keep it to myself I kvoe this site I can rage and vent here and relate to people like me I feel more warmth here then living in the outside world with dirty whiteboys

 

[sln]

Exactly but yet the one getting the the whole girl fg is the low iq whiteboy.

I have resentment towards almost every femal but my hg and my gf and family thats a female.

My gf is genuinly the only one I see true and only one I have idc to talk to my friends because that never helped me in any way I remmeber I was forced tk be outside alot of times when I felt crazy ugly and I would spiral my mind over trying not to cry outlook knowing on the inside im drowning in my tears

so why do you care about foids if you have a gf man

 

[sln]

This site is the only thing I come to sometimes other then my gf because I jst wanna keep it to myself I kvoe this site I can rage and vent here and relate to people like me I feel more warmth here then living in the outside world with dirty whiteboys

maybe try a less toxic site ig, other forums might be a bit better on your mental health

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

so why do you care about foids if you have a gf man

Because more then we want to admit it the reason why we are looksmaxxing is for foids they started it all.

The reason why we dress up fancy and put cologne on when we go to a mall is because we dont wanan look ugly for foids even tho we know they might not even see us. We take the chance we dont wanan look ugly for them and not saying I find other girls attractive I only love my gf but it feels like charity work to my gf sometimes when I hear foids saying that to me because then I feel bad as if im not good looking enough for my gf.

 

[sln]

Because more then we want to admit it the reason why we are looksmaxxing is for foids they started it all.

The reason why we dress up fancy and put cologne on when we go to a mall is because we dont wanan look ugly for foids even tho we know they might not even see us. We take the chance we dont wanan look ugly for them and not saying I find other girls attractive I only love my gf but it feels like charity work to my gf sometimes when I hear foids saying that to me because then I feel bad as if im not good looking enough for my gf.

fair enough thats at least why i started, but not to get them or impress them. I just wanted to stop being used as an accessory to their jokes.

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

maybe try a less toxic site ig, other forums might be a bit better on your mental health

That nakes sense I guess but no othe website is gonna relate to me more then how incell and horrible I used to feel then here because to me I feel like a incel even with a gf. And I hate how females bash men for being *incells* and shit when its their genetics and they insulted them for bringing a ibcell or saying they dont get any girls because that are just a incell is litterly proving why incels are incels

 

[Thad Castle]

It feels like things never truly get better, and when they do, it’s never sustainable.
Earlier today I got a call from a girl who used to bully me. She was with another girl, and they asked if I wanted to hang out. She said they were “helping people with their glow-ups,” not realizing how much better I already look now. They still see me as the same person I used to be, and that really messed with me.
I’m pretty sure they’ve already seen how I look now—and honestly, I look way better than them—but it still doesn’t matter. Where I live, it feels like race and status always win no matter how you actually look. Girls here are insanely hypergamous, and it makes everything feel pointless. I genuinely feel like I can’t live here anymore.
I’m tall for my age (5'9.5" at 13), I have a deep voice, and a masculine face. Online and in male spaces, I get validation and respect. But in real life, I still get people bashing me and talking about me like nothing changed. After two years of constantly trying to improve my looks, hearing that stuff still hurts, no matter how much people say it shouldn’t.
I’ve stood up for myself before. I’ve fired back and made girls cry for saying stuff to me. But I’m exhausted from always having to defend myself. Now I just let it go and move on with my day, but it’s been weighing on me more and more.
Even though people say I’m good-looking now, I never feel secure. I have a girlfriend who I find really attractive, and she’s honestly my only real comfort. But the feeling never fully goes away. It’s like life keeps finding random ways to knock me down—like this call from someone from my old school, a place I literally transferred out of because of people like her. When I said I already had my glow-up, she replied, “That’s what you think.”
It makes me spiral into thinking I did something wrong, like this is karma or punishment. I’ll just be lying in bed staring at the ceiling wondering why this keeps happening.
On top of that, the stress hit me hard this morning. My cortisol spiked, I got bloated, and no matter what I did all day, I couldn’t fix it. Stress ruined my whole day before it even started.
I’m tired. I feel depressed. I don’t feel like I’m ugly anymore, but I lived that life before, and the memory never leaves. I get validation now, but it never feels permanent. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong, and I don’t know how much more of this I can take.
TL;DR
A girl who used to bully me called today and talked down to me like I hadn’t changed, which triggered a spiral. Even though I’ve glowed up a lot, get validation now, and have a girlfriend, I still don’t feel secure or at peace. Living where I do makes me feel constantly judged and inferior no matter how much I improve. Years of trying to fix my looks, dealing with stress, and reliving past bullying have left me exhausted, depressed, and questioning why life keeps knocking me down

I liked ur post earlier td and i read every molecule of this too

First off why give these stupid sluts ur attention and worst of all letting them spike ur cortisol. U remind me of when i was 13 except i didnt have a gf and was being fucked in life 6 ways to sunday.

Even though i was good looking in grade school i still wouldve liked the attention even if it was bullying. you seem like a mature 13 year old which is why u remind me of me at 13. But being bullied by chicks is literally nothing to stress over. I graduated early from hs on my 17th bday 5 months ago, and have had nothing but isolation and 50 hour work weeks since. it does continue to get worse just keep ascending and dont let these worthless foids stress you out. Love u bhai

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

fair enough thats at least why i started, but not to get them or impress them. I just wanted to stop being used as an accessory to their jokes.

Fair yes I agree same here I jst wanted to get attention on how the other attractive people got and shit

 

[Thad Castle]

I have resentment towards almost every femal but my hg and my gf and family thats a female.

same here, all foids deserve the gas chamber

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

I liked ur post earlier td and i read every molecule of this too

First off why give these stupid sluts ur attention and worst of all letting them spike ur cortisol. U remind me of when i was 13 except i didnt have a gf and was being fucked in life 6 ways to sunday.

Even though i was good looking in grade school i still wouldve liked the attention even if it was bullying. you seem like a mature 13 year old which is why u remind me of me at 13. But being bullied by chicks is literally nothing to stress over. I graduated early from hs on my 17th bday 5 months ago, and have had nothing but isolation and 50 hour work weeks since. it does continue to get worse just keep ascending and dont let these worthless foids stress you out. Love u bhai

Thank you bhai and people like u is what makes org and stuff a more usable app and this made my heart warm fr thank you ive made hella posts talking abt my mental health and shit here because I have nowhere else to speak ever fully without them relating its crazy how little u find incells irl. Just full of whiteboys getting their love every way or another no matter what I only post tiktok in the bp format to get male glaze because thats the only thing that makes me happy and confidence and shit. But outside people jst bully me for no reason so thats why I barely go outside where other people are I just walk in mg neighborhood and meditate. That you bhai much love for the reply

 

[Lvminositycc]

It feels like things never truly get better, and when they do, it’s never sustainable.
Earlier today I got a call from a girl who used to bully me. She was with another girl, and they asked if I wanted to hang out. She said they were “helping people with their glow-ups,” not realizing how much better I already look now. They still see me as the same person I used to be, and that really messed with me.
I’m pretty sure they’ve already seen how I look now—and honestly, I look way better than them—but it still doesn’t matter. Where I live, it feels like race and status always win no matter how you actually look. Girls here are insanely hypergamous, and it makes everything feel pointless. I genuinely feel like I can’t live here anymore.
I’m tall for my age (5'9.5" at 13), I have a deep voice, and a masculine face. Online and in male spaces, I get validation and respect. But in real life, I still get people bashing me and talking about me like nothing changed. After two years of constantly trying to improve my looks, hearing that stuff still hurts, no matter how much people say it shouldn’t.
I’ve stood up for myself before. I’ve fired back and made girls cry for saying stuff to me. But I’m exhausted from always having to defend myself. Now I just let it go and move on with my day, but it’s been weighing on me more and more.
Even though people say I’m good-looking now, I never feel secure. I have a girlfriend who I find really attractive, and she’s honestly my only real comfort. But the feeling never fully goes away. It’s like life keeps finding random ways to knock me down—like this call from someone from my old school, a place I literally transferred out of because of people like her. When I said I already had my glow-up, she replied, “That’s what you think.”
It makes me spiral into thinking I did something wrong, like this is karma or punishment. I’ll just be lying in bed staring at the ceiling wondering why this keeps happening.
On top of that, the stress hit me hard this morning. My cortisol spiked, I got bloated, and no matter what I did all day, I couldn’t fix it. Stress ruined my whole day before it even started.
I’m tired. I feel depressed. I don’t feel like I’m ugly anymore, but I lived that life before, and the memory never leaves. I get validation now, but it never feels permanent. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong, and I don’t know how much more of this I can take.
TL;DR
A girl who used to bully me called today and talked down to me like I hadn’t changed, which triggered a spiral. Even though I’ve glowed up a lot, get validation now, and have a girlfriend, I still don’t feel secure or at peace. Living where I do makes me feel constantly judged and inferior no matter how much I improve. Years of trying to fix my looks, dealing with stress, and reliving past bullying have left me exhausted, depressed, and questioning why life keeps knocking me down

DNR

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

same here, all foids deserve the gas chamber

They ruined a piece of me to live the normal life as a rich kid in cali would but instead I have to think abt my whole puberty plan to keep ascending ive done so much I dont even know why ive started or how everything happened anymore

 

[gooozooowggyoflove]

@worstgenetics @Thad Castle if I were to say how I feel no one rlly does it better then how this guy's states it

 

[Thad Castle]

Thank you bhai and people like u is what makes org and stuff a more usable app and this made my heart warm fr thank you ive made hella posts talking abt my mental health and shit here because I have nowhere else to speak ever fully without them relating its crazy how little u find incells irl. Just full of whiteboys getting their love every way or another no matter what I only post tiktok in the bp format to get male glaze because thats the only thing that makes me happy and confidence and shit. But outside people jst bully me for no reason so thats why I barely go outside where other people are I just walk in mg neighborhood and meditate. That you bhai much love for the reply

In grade school id see my friends flirting and shit with girls in my grade, i always held back from trying to talk to foids in that way and was always bitter to them cause i couldnt be a normal person. It looked so natural for people to make relationships espically in hs too, i kinda regret graduating 2 years early i kind of dont have a social life.But all they are today are worthless people who cant cook a proper meal, i hope ur gf is a good woman for you

 

[Scandicel]

It feels like things never truly get better, and when they do, it’s never sustainable.
Earlier today I got a call from a girl who used to bully me. She was with another girl, and they asked if I wanted to hang out. She said they were “helping people with their glow-ups,” not realizing how much better I already look now. They still see me as the same person I used to be, and that really messed with me.
I’m pretty sure they’ve already seen how I look now—and honestly, I look way better than them—but it still doesn’t matter. Where I live, it feels like race and status always win no matter how you actually look. Girls here are insanely hypergamous, and it makes everything feel pointless. I genuinely feel like I can’t live here anymore.
I’m tall for my age (5'9.5" at 13), I have a deep voice, and a masculine face. Online and in male spaces, I get validation and respect. But in real life, I still get people bashing me and talking about me like nothing changed. After two years of constantly trying to improve my looks, hearing that stuff still hurts, no matter how much people say it shouldn’t.
I’ve stood up for myself before. I’ve fired back and made girls cry for saying stuff to me. But I’m exhausted from always having to defend myself. Now I just let it go and move on with my day, but it’s been weighing on me more and more.
Even though people say I’m good-looking now, I never feel secure. I have a girlfriend who I find really attractive, and she’s honestly my only real comfort. But the feeling never fully goes away. It’s like life keeps finding random ways to knock me down—like this call from someone from my old school, a place I literally transferred out of because of people like her. When I said I already had my glow-up, she replied, “That’s what you think.”
It makes me spiral into thinking I did something wrong, like this is karma or punishment. I’ll just be lying in bed staring at the ceiling wondering why this keeps happening.
On top of that, the stress hit me hard this morning. My cortisol spiked, I got bloated, and no matter what I did all day, I couldn’t fix it. Stress ruined my whole day before it even started.
I’m tired. I feel depressed. I don’t feel like I’m ugly anymore, but I lived that life before, and the memory never leaves. I get validation now, but it never feels permanent. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong, and I don’t know how much more of this I can take.
TL;DR
A girl who used to bully me called today and talked down to me like I hadn’t changed, which triggered a spiral. Even though I’ve glowed up a lot, get validation now, and have a girlfriend, I still don’t feel secure or at peace. Living where I do makes me feel constantly judged and inferior no matter how much I improve. Years of trying to fix my looks, dealing with stress, and reliving past bullying have left me exhausted, depressed, and questioning why life keeps knocking me down

Destiny will find it's way of blessing you king. Just keep your head up and push all the negative thought away, and honestly just don't take any of it to heart. I used to be like you but i have learnt to control my own mind. Good luck bro