Gengar
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First of all I'm religious (Islamic) and that's the main reason why, really. I have certain standards when it comes to behavior etc.
I actually have had girls in my life say "hi" to me, absolute strangers but due to being religious I would only say "hi" and then wander off rather than engaging with them because I didn't want to be rude to them or sometimes I'd completely ignore them but without intending to.
On top of this I'm pretty much asexual. Good looks don't do anything for me. The girls I'm talking about previously were hella cute too. One was tall and blonde; absolute chad factory.
For the past few years I had an ethnic oneitis and I pretty much only am capable of liking one girl at a time and I had no idea what she looked like either, I liked her because of other reasons. I'd have wanted to be with her even if she was a femcel.
And finally I'm also unattractive facially so I have gotten rejected because of this by my oneitis. She didn't say it directly but she had no reason to reject me even though she'd have plenty if she knew I had no job, I didn't have a college degree, that I dropped out etc. But none of this she knew at the time.
She said she was already seeing someone but I think she was saying that not to hurt my feelings. Yet she ignored all my other messages so at the same time I don't think she's particularly a nice person, someone who doesn't want to hurt someone's feelings. She got married a year later.
Furthermore, prostitution is legal here so I can lose my virginity if I really cared about it but I don't. I have also had a friend repeatedly ask me for threesomes with his fuckbuddy because my dick is bigger than his (I'm 6.5" x 5.7" with 5.9" at the base and he's below average apparently) but I turned every one of his invitation down. He's got new fuckbuddies since then so if I really wanted to I could ask him but I'm genuinely not interested.
That's pretty much it. One can argue "why don't you go for an arranged marriage?" Well refer to my earlier point of being unattractive. When I was in my own country (Pakistan) I got zero interest from women. If you say "but just use your passport halo bhai!" then that just doesn't cut it anymore if you're not attractive enough.
Women who knew I was from overseas didn't change their attitude towards me so that pretty much solidifies how ugly I am. I have heard of other Pakistanis on here that they get marriage proposals whenever they go there and I never got one so that speaks volumes.
The only time I got one was indirect and it was just a woman telling my mother she was looking for a husband for her daughter. Knowing she's born and raised in the west and thus too westernized for my taste I obviously told my mother I wasn't interested. Besides if I were to show up, she'd reject me for my looks anyway.
I actually have had girls in my life say "hi" to me, absolute strangers but due to being religious I would only say "hi" and then wander off rather than engaging with them because I didn't want to be rude to them or sometimes I'd completely ignore them but without intending to.
On top of this I'm pretty much asexual. Good looks don't do anything for me. The girls I'm talking about previously were hella cute too. One was tall and blonde; absolute chad factory.
For the past few years I had an ethnic oneitis and I pretty much only am capable of liking one girl at a time and I had no idea what she looked like either, I liked her because of other reasons. I'd have wanted to be with her even if she was a femcel.
And finally I'm also unattractive facially so I have gotten rejected because of this by my oneitis. She didn't say it directly but she had no reason to reject me even though she'd have plenty if she knew I had no job, I didn't have a college degree, that I dropped out etc. But none of this she knew at the time.
She said she was already seeing someone but I think she was saying that not to hurt my feelings. Yet she ignored all my other messages so at the same time I don't think she's particularly a nice person, someone who doesn't want to hurt someone's feelings. She got married a year later.
Furthermore, prostitution is legal here so I can lose my virginity if I really cared about it but I don't. I have also had a friend repeatedly ask me for threesomes with his fuckbuddy because my dick is bigger than his (I'm 6.5" x 5.7" with 5.9" at the base and he's below average apparently) but I turned every one of his invitation down. He's got new fuckbuddies since then so if I really wanted to I could ask him but I'm genuinely not interested.
That's pretty much it. One can argue "why don't you go for an arranged marriage?" Well refer to my earlier point of being unattractive. When I was in my own country (Pakistan) I got zero interest from women. If you say "but just use your passport halo bhai!" then that just doesn't cut it anymore if you're not attractive enough.
Women who knew I was from overseas didn't change their attitude towards me so that pretty much solidifies how ugly I am. I have heard of other Pakistanis on here that they get marriage proposals whenever they go there and I never got one so that speaks volumes.
The only time I got one was indirect and it was just a woman telling my mother she was looking for a husband for her daughter. Knowing she's born and raised in the west and thus too westernized for my taste I obviously told my mother I wasn't interested. Besides if I were to show up, she'd reject me for my looks anyway.
