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Reposting this from incels.is. It is one of the most high iq threads I have ever read, made by blkpillpress do read it.
I've often considered converting to Islam, but if I'm being honest, I'd only convert for the perks of living in a society where women can't just go about whoring around, but my experiences and those that I have seen and read about online have left a bitter taste in my mouth that cannot be removed
Even if a 10/10 virgin muslim woman was promised to me in marriage
I can't see myself ever being happy with her or any woman, I can't get married, the task seems impossible to me now. I'd enjoy having sex with her, but I wouldn't really care to spend time with her at all unless we had similar interests, and we very likely won't. Even if we did share interests, it would still feel forced, after years of having to enjoy tasks all on your own it is going to feel weird having to do tasks as a group, I've gotten so accustomed to pursuing goals, enjoying entertainment, etc with myself
All the BS that is expected in relationships like "gazing into eachothers eyes" and looking back at her with "love in your eyes", I could not pull it off anymore, only one who is ignorant of reality can do it because they are still part of the illusion, to them the illusion is real, it won't feel like "faking", its just them taking part in an experience that is as real to them as it is to their partner, but it won't be like that for a black piller
I'd look into her eyes, see her pupils dilate, and I won't be thinking - "she loves me", I'll be thinking - "that's an indicator of arousal/excitement"
Once you take the black pill, and you start looking at everything objectively, looking at everything for what it is and not what you want it to be, and not trying to sugar coat it, that's when its over for you
These observations become a habit, and you've built upon those habits for years and years, you are a nihilist at this point, you can't break these habits because to do so would require you to erase your memory, selfawareness has become your enemy, because the only way to fall back into a normie life (ascend) is to lose your self awareness and forget
The black pill has destroyed socializing for me because I know exactly what I'm doing and what others are doing, the "magic" and "enjoyment" of the "human experience" comes from not knowing, once you know whats behind the curtains there's no more "feeling" behind it, its basically all 1's and 0's, you can see the patterns, to everybody else it feels like this fluid thing but to you its robotic
I'll know that I don't really "love" her and she doesn't really "love" me, and there's nothing "deep" about our attraction for eachother, its just chemicals in our brains, and she is only faithful because she's forced to be within the islamic culture I abide in, and if given the chance to trade up she'd just "fall in love" with the other guy
I also feel like raising children would be a drag to me now, the prospect was fun and desirable to me in the past like all incels I'm sure, I would joke to friends about having "like 20 children", now it just feels like an empty waste of resources to me, I don't feel the need to bring another life into this disgusting empty world
Once you swallow the black pill it is truly over, because you realize it never began, everything you ever wanted before the black pill, never had any meaning to begin with
THAT'S WHAT "IT'S OVER" AND "IT NEVER BEGAN" MEANS TO ME
Not that you could never attain the things you wanted before the black pill (you can via alternative and/or extreme means), but that after taking the black pill you'll realize how pointless and empty all of those things are, and the only reason you valued those things was because you were blue pilled
When the black pill is swallowed and the veil is lifted, you'll realize that its over for you and it never began, because those things you wanted never existed to begin with, they were an illusion
I've often considered converting to Islam, but if I'm being honest, I'd only convert for the perks of living in a society where women can't just go about whoring around, but my experiences and those that I have seen and read about online have left a bitter taste in my mouth that cannot be removed
Even if a 10/10 virgin muslim woman was promised to me in marriage
I can't see myself ever being happy with her or any woman, I can't get married, the task seems impossible to me now. I'd enjoy having sex with her, but I wouldn't really care to spend time with her at all unless we had similar interests, and we very likely won't. Even if we did share interests, it would still feel forced, after years of having to enjoy tasks all on your own it is going to feel weird having to do tasks as a group, I've gotten so accustomed to pursuing goals, enjoying entertainment, etc with myself
All the BS that is expected in relationships like "gazing into eachothers eyes" and looking back at her with "love in your eyes", I could not pull it off anymore, only one who is ignorant of reality can do it because they are still part of the illusion, to them the illusion is real, it won't feel like "faking", its just them taking part in an experience that is as real to them as it is to their partner, but it won't be like that for a black piller
I'd look into her eyes, see her pupils dilate, and I won't be thinking - "she loves me", I'll be thinking - "that's an indicator of arousal/excitement"
Once you take the black pill, and you start looking at everything objectively, looking at everything for what it is and not what you want it to be, and not trying to sugar coat it, that's when its over for you
These observations become a habit, and you've built upon those habits for years and years, you are a nihilist at this point, you can't break these habits because to do so would require you to erase your memory, selfawareness has become your enemy, because the only way to fall back into a normie life (ascend) is to lose your self awareness and forget
The black pill has destroyed socializing for me because I know exactly what I'm doing and what others are doing, the "magic" and "enjoyment" of the "human experience" comes from not knowing, once you know whats behind the curtains there's no more "feeling" behind it, its basically all 1's and 0's, you can see the patterns, to everybody else it feels like this fluid thing but to you its robotic
I'll know that I don't really "love" her and she doesn't really "love" me, and there's nothing "deep" about our attraction for eachother, its just chemicals in our brains, and she is only faithful because she's forced to be within the islamic culture I abide in, and if given the chance to trade up she'd just "fall in love" with the other guy
I also feel like raising children would be a drag to me now, the prospect was fun and desirable to me in the past like all incels I'm sure, I would joke to friends about having "like 20 children", now it just feels like an empty waste of resources to me, I don't feel the need to bring another life into this disgusting empty world
Once you swallow the black pill it is truly over, because you realize it never began, everything you ever wanted before the black pill, never had any meaning to begin with
THAT'S WHAT "IT'S OVER" AND "IT NEVER BEGAN" MEANS TO ME
Not that you could never attain the things you wanted before the black pill (you can via alternative and/or extreme means), but that after taking the black pill you'll realize how pointless and empty all of those things are, and the only reason you valued those things was because you were blue pilled
When the black pill is swallowed and the veil is lifted, you'll realize that its over for you and it never began, because those things you wanted never existed to begin with, they were an illusion
@subhuman incel @bonelessMan
