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Every day I wake up 3 hours before school shower teeth whitening floss mouthwash oil pulling blowdrying foundation eyebrow pencil ice on face chug water light cardio hair gel skin care, no breakfast cause god forbid I eat
I drive to school looking in the mirror the whole time fixing slight imperfections I look on my phone camera to see if it's distortion it's not I'm just fucking ugly
I come home for lunch some girls snap me one I'm talking to, doesn't matter I've completely turned my life in to transactions she means somthing to me but Ik I'm just another guy and time will pass, but she is good for social clout and whatnot. and I constantly have meanignless conversations to boost societal clout with my peers . Every person I talk to feels like a chore to upkeep my standing on the ladder, I hate it but then I remeber my life as a ugly fucking 4'11 chud who would get told im ugly on the daily and go home and cry myself to sleep every night wondering why people were so rude to me and why i had no friends despite trying to be nice, so I lock in on my looks and how I talk anyway
And then I go to practice, who's there, Chad, funny tall attractive insanely smart has a hot gf, every school in the country wants him to go play for them. I see the acne on his face and realize I'm coping so hard, it was never about acne it was about the structure of my face, I slightly jester to fit in with my peers at practice, try not cry the whole ride home,
Why is my life like this
I think about killing myeslf a lot but I don't want to make my parents feel like failures since my sister already tried to
I used to not be able to stand up in class to Sharpen my pencil I knew people would laugh at me, teachers laughed at me, I got called ugly to my face all the time
But I finally have a decent "glow up"
I realize it was never about how I act it was about how I look the same lhtb that would call me ugly and "cute" now talk and snap me, I now I can navigate social settings and people tell me I'm "funny asf" and very "cool" even though the whole time I riddled with anxiety and jsut want to rip the fucking skin off my face and blow my head off
But Chad, Chad doesn't think about any of this he wakes up and gets worshiped form dusk to dawn goes to school, everyone likes him goes home to his huge mansion with his family wating to worship him just for existing girls blowing up his phone, why are some of us so unfortunate in life, to know you will never have a experince like that is ropefuel
I can't even jerk off anymore cause I think about my ugly fucking face and how no girl will truly love me without exception
I've completely ruined my life and I have never had a genuine experince past the age of 13 were I wasn't thinking about how I looked or how I was precived
I'm going to get surgery once I'm 18 and if it's botched I am going to move to Asia and kill myself fresh off the plane, hopefully my parents think it was some sort of murder since they are kinda racist
I'm so close to being somthing but ik I will be another statistic
My side profiled to cooked to even post
I jsut cut myself a lot and think about how my life could be better Ik it's not the worst but it's almost the most brutal part knowing I'm so close and can't accept being a fucking deadbeat nothing quite yet, so I persist, and everyone just thinks I'm some dumbass who's funny cause that's what a larp as
And if any of you think being intimate with a woman will fix u, you are sorrily mistaken if you hate how you look or a insecure it is genuinely over, trust me no sex will fix u
My biggest fantasy is crying infront of somebody and having them hug me and tell me it's going to be okay and that I'm not a ugly pos
I wonder how I got to this point in my life and I wonder what young me would think,
but I have class in 20 min so I better get ready for that
Fuckkkkkkk
I drive to school looking in the mirror the whole time fixing slight imperfections I look on my phone camera to see if it's distortion it's not I'm just fucking ugly
I come home for lunch some girls snap me one I'm talking to, doesn't matter I've completely turned my life in to transactions she means somthing to me but Ik I'm just another guy and time will pass, but she is good for social clout and whatnot. and I constantly have meanignless conversations to boost societal clout with my peers . Every person I talk to feels like a chore to upkeep my standing on the ladder, I hate it but then I remeber my life as a ugly fucking 4'11 chud who would get told im ugly on the daily and go home and cry myself to sleep every night wondering why people were so rude to me and why i had no friends despite trying to be nice, so I lock in on my looks and how I talk anyway
And then I go to practice, who's there, Chad, funny tall attractive insanely smart has a hot gf, every school in the country wants him to go play for them. I see the acne on his face and realize I'm coping so hard, it was never about acne it was about the structure of my face, I slightly jester to fit in with my peers at practice, try not cry the whole ride home,
Why is my life like this
I think about killing myeslf a lot but I don't want to make my parents feel like failures since my sister already tried to
I used to not be able to stand up in class to Sharpen my pencil I knew people would laugh at me, teachers laughed at me, I got called ugly to my face all the time
But I finally have a decent "glow up"
I realize it was never about how I act it was about how I look the same lhtb that would call me ugly and "cute" now talk and snap me, I now I can navigate social settings and people tell me I'm "funny asf" and very "cool" even though the whole time I riddled with anxiety and jsut want to rip the fucking skin off my face and blow my head off
But Chad, Chad doesn't think about any of this he wakes up and gets worshiped form dusk to dawn goes to school, everyone likes him goes home to his huge mansion with his family wating to worship him just for existing girls blowing up his phone, why are some of us so unfortunate in life, to know you will never have a experince like that is ropefuel
I can't even jerk off anymore cause I think about my ugly fucking face and how no girl will truly love me without exception
I've completely ruined my life and I have never had a genuine experince past the age of 13 were I wasn't thinking about how I looked or how I was precived
I'm going to get surgery once I'm 18 and if it's botched I am going to move to Asia and kill myself fresh off the plane, hopefully my parents think it was some sort of murder since they are kinda racist
I'm so close to being somthing but ik I will be another statistic
My side profiled to cooked to even post
I jsut cut myself a lot and think about how my life could be better Ik it's not the worst but it's almost the most brutal part knowing I'm so close and can't accept being a fucking deadbeat nothing quite yet, so I persist, and everyone just thinks I'm some dumbass who's funny cause that's what a larp as
And if any of you think being intimate with a woman will fix u, you are sorrily mistaken if you hate how you look or a insecure it is genuinely over, trust me no sex will fix u
My biggest fantasy is crying infront of somebody and having them hug me and tell me it's going to be okay and that I'm not a ugly pos
I wonder how I got to this point in my life and I wonder what young me would think,
but I have class in 20 min so I better get ready for that
Fuckkkkkkk
you are not bad looking youre pretty above average, i think you can easily handle this. Just dont get bloated and you will probably look good 
