RICO
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I wonder if women will ever understand that we never had fun in our twenties. We had small moments of beers with close friends or a shared cigar, but no one invited us to parties or would take us binge drinking. No one took us out on dates or made us feel like we were worth anything. I don't know how to describe to a person how soul crushing it is to see someone who partied and fucked their entire twenties over weekends while I was going to the gym every day and studying Engineering until midnight. It makes me want to kill myself, or at the very least kill myself with insane levels of drugs to hide the pain. Everyone convinced me I was worthless, and I thought I was worthless for years. That was my 20s. It wasn't being young dumb and having fun, it was fighting as hard as I could to be someone.
I wonder if women will ever understand that we never had fun in our twenties. We had small moments of beers with close friends or a shared cigar, but no one invited us to parties or would take us binge drinking. No one took us out on dates or made us feel like we were worth anything. I don't know how to describe to a person how soul crushing it is to see someone who partied and fucked their entire twenties over weekends while I was going to the gym every day and studying Engineering until midnight. It makes me want to kill myself, or at the very least kill myself with insane levels of drugs to hide the pain. Everyone convinced me I was worthless, and I thought I was worthless for years. That was my 20s. It wasn't being young dumb and having fun, it was fighting as hard as I could to be someone.