Years of social isolation ruined my life and reputation.

[180]

Growing up I never got attention considering I was an ugly fuck. I started jestering when i was like 8 because it was the only way I could get any attention whatsoever from the foidlet I had liked. God I hate looking back at myself doing this. My parents have always been the strict type so lacking attention was a problem for me. I made it my whole personality to be a total jester (I was retarded enough not to realize that it made the girls laugh AT me not with me). It kind of grew on my entire personality being loud and obnoxious and that's just how people knew me as. As my peers and I grew older instead of being funny to people I just bugged them and they started ignoring me to the point of about a year when I had extremely little social interaction, witch of course made me an autistic fuck who didn't understand people. and the fact that I had no social media up until I was 13 only segregated me from being a normie even more than I already was. I started hanging out with another weird kid and we were pretty good friends from 6-8th grade. And of course I started talking to weird girls (or should I say a weird girl) who had taken advantage of my gap in social skills and led me on for 10 months before brutally dropping me for no apparent reason. Now I only talk with a few people who see me as human and understand me. I hate all girls and most boys. why do humans have to be this way. why couldn't I just be born Chad and naturally get the attention everyone deserves. if your still reading sorry for making this shut quality its just so over I'll forever rot as a 5'5 chud.

TLDR: became a jester when I was like 8 and now I have no respect and girls think I'm gay

 

[Rylie]

 

[180]

bump

 

[topology]

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Why is this being bumped? What you've described isn't terribly uncommon and you've prompted no question. Do you want sympathy?

 

[180]

Why is this being bumped? What you've described isn't terribly uncommon and you've prompted no question. Do you want sympathy?

yeah I want people to see this and feel bad for me because I crave social validation

 

[topology]

yeah I want people to see this and feel bad for me because I crave social validation

It's obvious that you do. Best case scenario is you wanting to trauma bond with others. Great, you're still a loser.

Notice how you're still a nobody at the end of the day? How you're going to most likely kill yourself? Pathetic.

 

[180]

It's obvious that you do. Best case scenario is you wanting to trauma bond with others. Great, you're still a loser.

Notice how you're still a nobody at the end of the day? How you're going to most likely kill yourself? Pathetic.

wow really! this is some fresh information that I never considered! thank you for helping me know what to do with the rest of my life.

 

[topology]

wow really! this is some fresh information that I never considered! thank you for helping me know what to do with the rest of my life.

I'm inside your head. Ponder and nothing will come. Toodles!

 

[Luquier]

The blackpill is shit starts young.

 

[180]

The blackpill is shit starts young.

its always been there

 

[Luquier]

its always been there

Yep and adults act the same

It is what it is people seek value and weed out lessers

 

[180]

Yep and adults act the same

It is what it is people seek value and weed out lessers

natural selection in a way

 

[Prøphet]

Socialization is a weapon normies will leverage against you if you’re an undesirable. Sickening shit

 

[7zyzz7]

touch grass