Ritalincell
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I dont wanna give out details so I'll be quick with the intro.
I'm a young guy. I am the shy/nerdy type, and I now met someone, for the first time, what you could call a girlfriend (yay me). She's great, nice, lovely, and she drives me mad.
But here's the catch. All those years before, I never dared talking to girls, I only ever dreamed of being with one. And there I was, laying on the bed with her. She was wearing a thong, her entire body was just driving me mad. But I couldn't do it. It didn't "work". Can you even imagine that? Being there with a girl you really care for. Having never had sex in my life, dreaming of this moment, she knows I was (still am, to some point) a virgin. We took it slow, and yet there I was... I dont know if I am addicted to masturbation/porn, some say it's cool some say it isn't. I usually masturbate once a day/2 days. I dont wanna put the blame on others, because I am an overthinker and I was nervous/panicked (we didn't try just once it was multiple times already, and not only on one day). You could say we still had sex, because I used other parts of my body to get her there. She even went down on me, she gave me a blowjob. Can you imagine, after all these years of doing it alone in front of a screen, feeling her lips on it? It never got fully erect tho, that's why she could only do it with her mouth. She did it for a couple minutes until she stopped trying. It felt great and I loved it, but it was still flappy, never fully erect. She kept saying it's okay, and that it doesn't matter. But it does matter to me. I feel less manly. How can I feel manly if I can't even do the most basic thing men are supposed to do?
I've seen porn for the first time when I was about 10 y.o. I have what would be classified in porn as a "tiny dick", even though according to my measurements it's above average. Yet every time you see people in porn with humongous dicks, you feel less of a man. People commenting on a porn movie, where the guy has a dick at least an inch bigger than yours, saying: "lol small dick".
Fuck you. Fuck the porn industry.
I know my dick is average, and even she kept saying that (lol, now it sounds like she's been with a ton of guys). As the porn was going through my prepubescent mind, as I was growing up seeing my penis grow, and yet even now not achieving the "sizes" porn would tell you it "should" be. Fuck you.
I am literally crying in front of the computer right now. I feel like a drug addict writing this.
Please, stop watching porn guys. PLEASE, don't let it ruin you. Girls don't want huge dicks, she went mad when I used 1 finger (I can only say she, but I presume it's the same for all women/girls). Penetration is not the only way to achieve orgasm for women, and if you look it up you'll see most of them say they can't reach it with penetration alone.
I want to say FUCK YOU to everyone in the porn industry. I know nobody meant for this to happen with porn. Men were probably always insecure about their size down below. And yet porn just perpetuates it.
This is why it's illegal for people under 18. We need sexual education. We need someone to tell 10 year old boys who WILL find porn that that's not how it's gonna be.
I will get through this. As I was laying there with her, not even an hour ago I swore to myself never to watch porn again.
To every teenage boy here, I can't tell you to stop, because I know how horny you are. But if nothing else, please know that the average size is about as long as the smartphone you're probably reading this on.
I am mad, sad, disappoint and ashamed of myself right now.
If you can't stop, please try to do it less. I know they can tell you its healthy and even people in relationships do it. But once something becomes a habit (doing it on the same place, at approximately the same time always), it is programming your brain to only ever expect sexual satisfaction from your hands, watching a screen.
If you want to masturbate, do it without porn.
I don't even know why I am here. I want to AGAIN say to everyone out there with "small" dicks, because I know I'm not the only one (statistics), that it's okay. Be proud of your small dick. Don't let the "standards" out there ruin you. If you don't believe me, go to the nearest store and buy a pack of condoms. Can you put it on your dick? Good. You're a man. Now go be awesome.
I'm a young guy. I am the shy/nerdy type, and I now met someone, for the first time, what you could call a girlfriend (yay me). She's great, nice, lovely, and she drives me mad.
But here's the catch. All those years before, I never dared talking to girls, I only ever dreamed of being with one. And there I was, laying on the bed with her. She was wearing a thong, her entire body was just driving me mad. But I couldn't do it. It didn't "work". Can you even imagine that? Being there with a girl you really care for. Having never had sex in my life, dreaming of this moment, she knows I was (still am, to some point) a virgin. We took it slow, and yet there I was... I dont know if I am addicted to masturbation/porn, some say it's cool some say it isn't. I usually masturbate once a day/2 days. I dont wanna put the blame on others, because I am an overthinker and I was nervous/panicked (we didn't try just once it was multiple times already, and not only on one day). You could say we still had sex, because I used other parts of my body to get her there. She even went down on me, she gave me a blowjob. Can you imagine, after all these years of doing it alone in front of a screen, feeling her lips on it? It never got fully erect tho, that's why she could only do it with her mouth. She did it for a couple minutes until she stopped trying. It felt great and I loved it, but it was still flappy, never fully erect. She kept saying it's okay, and that it doesn't matter. But it does matter to me. I feel less manly. How can I feel manly if I can't even do the most basic thing men are supposed to do?
I've seen porn for the first time when I was about 10 y.o. I have what would be classified in porn as a "tiny dick", even though according to my measurements it's above average. Yet every time you see people in porn with humongous dicks, you feel less of a man. People commenting on a porn movie, where the guy has a dick at least an inch bigger than yours, saying: "lol small dick".
Fuck you. Fuck the porn industry.
I know my dick is average, and even she kept saying that (lol, now it sounds like she's been with a ton of guys). As the porn was going through my prepubescent mind, as I was growing up seeing my penis grow, and yet even now not achieving the "sizes" porn would tell you it "should" be. Fuck you.
I am literally crying in front of the computer right now. I feel like a drug addict writing this.
Please, stop watching porn guys. PLEASE, don't let it ruin you. Girls don't want huge dicks, she went mad when I used 1 finger (I can only say she, but I presume it's the same for all women/girls). Penetration is not the only way to achieve orgasm for women, and if you look it up you'll see most of them say they can't reach it with penetration alone.
I want to say FUCK YOU to everyone in the porn industry. I know nobody meant for this to happen with porn. Men were probably always insecure about their size down below. And yet porn just perpetuates it.
This is why it's illegal for people under 18. We need sexual education. We need someone to tell 10 year old boys who WILL find porn that that's not how it's gonna be.
I will get through this. As I was laying there with her, not even an hour ago I swore to myself never to watch porn again.
To every teenage boy here, I can't tell you to stop, because I know how horny you are. But if nothing else, please know that the average size is about as long as the smartphone you're probably reading this on.
I am mad, sad, disappoint and ashamed of myself right now.
If you can't stop, please try to do it less. I know they can tell you its healthy and even people in relationships do it. But once something becomes a habit (doing it on the same place, at approximately the same time always), it is programming your brain to only ever expect sexual satisfaction from your hands, watching a screen.
If you want to masturbate, do it without porn.
I don't even know why I am here. I want to AGAIN say to everyone out there with "small" dicks, because I know I'm not the only one (statistics), that it's okay. Be proud of your small dick. Don't let the "standards" out there ruin you. If you don't believe me, go to the nearest store and buy a pack of condoms. Can you put it on your dick? Good. You're a man. Now go be awesome.
