Danish_Retard
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It's impossible to suffer for your goals if you don't love yourself and want the best for yourself.
now self love sounds cringe and gay but I mean it more as self-acknowledgement and not in a sexual way
I used to think the suffering would give me worth, which would give me self-love, but for me, the sequence only works when it's initiated from the self-love point.
I've lost 3kg, consistently gymmaxxed and softmaxxed only after loving myself.
I had an experience where a girl from my folkeskole that used to barely talk to me was glued to me during a party and showed obvious IOI.
And I realised, that all those years of hating myself, of thinking myself unworthy because that was how others perceived me was fucking retarded, all it took for me to go from subhuman to worthy of undivided attention for hours was just fucking LOOKS, that's all, a bit of looks and masking is literally all that stood between being hated and loved.
Literally all those years of suffering, was all for nothing.
Ironically this is one of the most blackpilling experiences of my life, it really is all just about irrelevant shit mostly outside of your control.
I realised then, that the idea of letting others determine whether or not you "deserve" (there is no such thing) love is incredibly stupid, furthermore, if anyone has ever loved you before (for me, my grandparents) it becomes impossible to doubt that you "lovable".
Even the whole idea of someone being "lovable" or "deserveing" love, according to whom? According to what? Morals? Achievements? Realistically the individual is the only one that can determine if they feel they deserve love.
now self love sounds cringe and gay but I mean it more as self-acknowledgement and not in a sexual way
I used to think the suffering would give me worth, which would give me self-love, but for me, the sequence only works when it's initiated from the self-love point.
I've lost 3kg, consistently gymmaxxed and softmaxxed only after loving myself.
I had an experience where a girl from my folkeskole that used to barely talk to me was glued to me during a party and showed obvious IOI.
And I realised, that all those years of hating myself, of thinking myself unworthy because that was how others perceived me was fucking retarded, all it took for me to go from subhuman to worthy of undivided attention for hours was just fucking LOOKS, that's all, a bit of looks and masking is literally all that stood between being hated and loved.
Literally all those years of suffering, was all for nothing.
Ironically this is one of the most blackpilling experiences of my life, it really is all just about irrelevant shit mostly outside of your control.
I realised then, that the idea of letting others determine whether or not you "deserve" (there is no such thing) love is incredibly stupid, furthermore, if anyone has ever loved you before (for me, my grandparents) it becomes impossible to doubt that you "lovable".
Even the whole idea of someone being "lovable" or "deserveing" love, according to whom? According to what? Morals? Achievements? Realistically the individual is the only one that can determine if they feel they deserve love.
