I really wish i wasn't so unlucky and lazy in life.

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Depression due to the blackpill is one of the worst to happen.
Quarantine only was a vector of it.
I'll may be never make my parents happy by getting in the best job i was close to get because of it, and it's pretty much over.
Looks don't matter as much for me, or for people in the same typical traditional mindset family.
I had one job at life, and it's probably now definitively a miss.
It may sound shocking for most of you, but i was raised in the hope of making my parents hope become true, for all the suffering they had to get.
And i'm probably not even able to do that...

Why did i not see that i was digging my own intellectual grave? Is it what depression is and was like? to not care about what matter in life, and just rot, and feel like everyday is the same, tasteless?

Why has it to happen to me while i lacked in nothing in life and was raised well, not even lacking in looks, not even intelligence wise.

What a comedy i'm doing of myself. Do i deserve even one bit of mercy? I don't genuinely know, i would tend to not think of it, nor believing in it.

@brbbrah @TheCopefulCurry
 
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Just become delusional with your situation
It creates a feedback loop
If you feel good your outcome will be better so your real life situation will improve
Plus depression lowers test etc so getting out of it is in your looksmaxxing benefit
Like a winning streak almost
Can attest to this. I forced myself to positively think and cope through meditation and affirmations for months which actually genuinely improved my situation so much. Weird thing is, your brain can't tell the difference between imagination and reality so if you start imagining good scenerios happening in your life and feel the emotions you'd feel like those scenerios have already happened then your situation will improve
 
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you shouldn’t live for your parents goals, you need to do what makes you happy
i could, but not making them happy will also make me unhappy given how much they did for me.
Why has it to be that i wasn't self aware of myself, of my situation, to change it in due time?
It's only my fault.
Depression is a meme, i failed and i deserve my fate. I just hope to not make those i like to become sad.
Which is also probably a wishful thinking.
I even got decently good results given the little time i worked hard. It has so to happen that i did sabotage myself.
 
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Can attest to this. I forced myself to positively think and cope through meditation and affirmations for months which actually genuinely improved my situation so much. Weird thing is, your brain can't tell the difference between imagination and reality so if you start imagining good scenerios happening in your life and feel the emotions you'd feel like those scenerios have already happened then your situation will improve
I will try, but what if the most important moment of your life - most likely for a long moment - you failed in it, and this only by sabotating yourself?
 
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i could, but not making them happy will also make me unhappy given how much they did for me.
Why has it to be that i wasn't self aware of myself, of my situation, to change it in due time?
It's only my fault.
Depression is a meme, i failed and i deserve my fate. I just hope to not make those i like to become sad.
Which is also probably a wishful thinking.
I even got decently good results given the little time i worked hard. It has so to happen that i did sabotage myself.
This place will make or break you. Some of us are just not mentally built for it. It will take all the ego you ever had, all the fuel in your mind and burn it to some degree. If you want to make your family proud you should. Reality may not be as bad as we say it is. Who knows. Some people here (no disrespect) are legitimately mentally ill. That’s already somewhat of a red flag. I ignore my own advice which is hypocritical, but even then it’s taken it’s toll on me as well.
 
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Depression due to the blackpill is one of the worst to happen.
Quarantine only was a vector of it.
I'll may be never make my parents happy by getting in the best job i was close to get because of it, and it's pretty much over.
Looks don't matter as much for me, or for people in the same typical traditional mindset family.
I had one job at life, and it's probably now definitively a miss.
It may sound shocking for most of you, but i was raised in the hope of making my parents hope become true, for all the suffering they had to get.
And i'm probably not even able to do that...

Why did i not see that i was digging my own intellectual grave? Is it what depression is and was like? to not care about what matter in life, and just rot, and feel like everyday is the same, tasteless?

Why has it to happen to me while i lacked in nothing in life and was raised well, not even lacking in looks, not even intelligence wise.

What a comedy i'm doing of myself. Do i deserve even one bit of mercy? I don't genuinely know, i would tend to not think of it, nor believing in it.

@brbbrah @TheCopefulCurry
Listened to this while reading this post
 
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This place will make or break you. Some of us are just not mentally built for it. It will take all the ego you ever had, all the fuel in your mind and burn it to some degree. If you want to make your family proud you should. Reality may not be as bad as we say it is. Who knows. Some people here (no disrespect) are legitimately mentally ill. That’s already somewhat of a red flag. I ignore my own advice which is hypocritical, but even then it’s taken it’s toll on me as well.
This forum is only good if you'r the opposite of super sensitive, and very self aware on things that matter, way more than looks.
Some things i wish i knew. But when you'r in the loop, you just can't feel or do anything, everything seems so enjoyable.
That much, that even the best student will be breaken in half and will fail while everyone else, bluepilled to the core, will continue their road, and suceed, despite having less capabilities.

Was it my fate? Or am i totally responsible? Probably the later. I just wish there were a comeback.
 
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how old are u and why is it too late
23. I was getting the best grades for the 4 years of my life in uni - needs 5 as most EU unis to get a decent grade -, but then, last year discovered the blackpill, got depressed, and refused to give exams. Asked to do it again this year, got depressed and came back into psl again in november. So much into "depression", that i actually studied for a whole year exam only the day before, to get 50/100, while i needed at least 70/100. And i can't start it again. The second semester basically this year won't count.
 
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Depression due to the blackpill is one of the worst to happen.
Quarantine only was a vector of it.
I'll may be never make my parents happy by getting in the best job i was close to get because of it, and it's pretty much over.
Looks don't matter as much for me, or for people in the same typical traditional mindset family.
I had one job at life, and it's probably now definitively a miss.
It may sound shocking for most of you, but i was raised in the hope of making my parents hope become true, for all the suffering they had to get.
And i'm probably not even able to do that...

Why did i not see that i was digging my own intellectual grave? Is it what depression is and was like? to not care about what matter in life, and just rot, and feel like everyday is the same, tasteless?

Why has it to happen to me while i lacked in nothing in life and was raised well, not even lacking in looks, not even intelligence wise.

What a comedy i'm doing of myself. Do i deserve even one bit of mercy? I don't genuinely know, i would tend to not think of it, nor believing in it.

@brbbrah @TheCopefulCurry
You are YAMNAYA
 
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nobody dies wishing they studied harder

just get off this site tbh
this is true, but this was the sole thing i had to do in life...
You'r also leaving on the same day i had this sad realization and my day of birth. I hope it will turn out well, i can't cope anymore, i need to face reality.
 
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23. I was getting the best grades for the 4 years of my life in uni - needs 5 as most EU unis to get a decent grade -, but then, last year discovered the blackpill, got depressed, and refused to give exams. Asked to do it again this year, got depressed and came back into psl again in november. So much into "depression", that i actually studied for a whole year exam only the day before, to get 50/100, while i needed at least 70/100. And i can't start it again. The second semester basically this year won't count.
What were u studying
 
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what do you mean best job?

you missed your chance?

are you in grad school or undergrad

you sitll have time to change things around and get a good paying job
 
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23. I was getting the best grades for the 4 years of my life in uni - needs 5 as most EU unis to get a decent grade -, but then, last year discovered the blackpill, got depressed, and refused to give exams. Asked to do it again this year, got depressed and came back into psl again in november. So much into "depression", that i actually studied for a whole year exam only the day before, to get 50/100, while i needed at least 70/100. And i can't start it again. The second semester basically this year won't count.
so you failed how many semesters in total?
one two jfl?
you still have time
 
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you missed your chance?

are you in grad school or undergrad
I guess it's the equivalent of grad school, like my last year mostly.
you sitll have time to change things around and get a good paying job
only possible jobs that are lessly seen in current era, and not as respected.
For me, i don't care. but i refused to study medecine while my dad really would have loved to because i knew i couldn't suceed while seeing blood, so i did choose this field... and failed, in the last step, by my own autism. imagine the inner shame. I'm lower than i ever thought.
 
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so you failed how many semesters in total?
one two jfl?
you still have time
Given the date of applications, and the time for the results of the second semester, it will probably not impact anything sadly.
Corona fucked everything.
 
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Depression due to the blackpill is one of the worst to happen.
Quarantine only was a vector of it.
I'll may be never make my parents happy by getting in the best job i was close to get because of it, and it's pretty much over.
Looks don't matter as much for me, or for people in the same typical traditional mindset family.
I had one job at life, and it's probably now definitively a miss.
It may sound shocking for most of you, but i was raised in the hope of making my parents hope become true, for all the suffering they had to get.
And i'm probably not even able to do that...

Why did i not see that i was digging my own intellectual grave? Is it what depression is and was like? to not care about what matter in life, and just rot, and feel like everyday is the same, tasteless?

Why has it to happen to me while i lacked in nothing in life and was raised well, not even lacking in looks, not even intelligence wise.

What a comedy i'm doing of myself. Do i deserve even one bit of mercy? I don't genuinely know, i would tend to not think of it, nor believing in it.

@brbbrah @TheCopefulCurry
If you wanna go into more detail about what is going wrong feel free to send me a dm
Depression due to the blackpill is one of the worst to happen.
Quarantine only was a vector of it.
I'll may be never make my parents happy by getting in the best job i was close to get because of it, and it's pretty much over.
Looks don't matter as much for me, or for people in the same typical traditional mindset family.
I had one job at life, and it's probably now definitively a miss.
It may sound shocking for most of you, but i was raised in the hope of making my parents hope become true, for all the suffering they had to get.
And i'm probably not even able to do that...

Why did i not see that i was digging my own intellectual grave? Is it what depression is and was like? to not care about what matter in life, and just rot, and feel like everyday is the same, tasteless?

Why has it to happen to me while i lacked in nothing in life and was raised well, not even lacking in looks, not even intelligence wise.

What a comedy i'm doing of myself. Do i deserve even one bit of mercy? I don't genuinely know, i would tend to not think of it, nor believing in it.

@brbbrah @TheCopefulCurry
You are by far my favourite person on here, you are one of the only people on here who values a traditional households and values over being promiscuous.

I really hope you get through your troubles bro.
 
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jfl @ u mentally weak subhumans

just do shit n stop being such a bitch, youve already been here for 2 years lmfao
 
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i could, but not making them happy will also make me unhappy given how much they did for me.
Why has it to be that i wasn't self aware of myself, of my situation, to change it in due time?
It's only my fault.
Depression is a meme, i failed and i deserve my fate. I just hope to not make those i like to become sad.
Which is also probably a wishful thinking.
I even got decently good results given the little time i worked hard. It has so to happen that i did sabotage myself.
you don’t have to make them unhappy in the process bro

if they are unhappy at you doing whats make you happy that’s bad on them
 
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srs?dont feel sad or depressed and if you need anything just pm me bro,you can tell me about your problems if that helps but try to stay strong
 
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I will try, but what if the most important moment of your life - most likely for a long moment - you failed in it, and this only by sabotating yourself?
The only constant in life is time. You can never know when the most important moment of your life is because there is only ever the present moment. People suffer more in imagination then they do in reality and by saying that you’re sabotaging yourself by thinking positively in the present moment is frankly insanity. You create the paradigm and rules you set for your life through the thought loop patterns you chose to accept. If you think you’ve won, you have. If you think you lost, you have. If you think you have missed your opportunity then you have. I don’t expect too many people on this forum to understand this concept, but it is your duty if you want to live a life you love to understand it.
 
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It’s too easy to succumb to nihilism and just think “the blackpill is the way it is and my situation isn’t down to my control.” Realise that if you don’t like feeling a certain way you have every single ability to change it. I suggest watching this video if you want to learn something about your mindset and yourself
 
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It’s too easy to succumb to nihilism and just think “the blackpill is the way it is and my situation isn’t down to my control.” Realise that if you don’t like feeling a certain way you have every single ability to change it. I suggest watching this video if you want to learn something about your mindset and yourself

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Depression due to the blackpill is one of the worst to happen.
Quarantine only was a vector of it.
I'll may be never make my parents happy by getting in the best job i was close to get because of it, and it's pretty much over.
Looks don't matter as much for me, or for people in the same typical traditional mindset family.
I had one job at life, and it's probably now definitively a miss.
It may sound shocking for most of you, but i was raised in the hope of making my parents hope become true, for all the suffering they had to get.
And i'm probably not even able to do that...

Why did i not see that i was digging my own intellectual grave? Is it what depression is and was like? to not care about what matter in life, and just rot, and feel like everyday is the same, tasteless?

Why has it to happen to me while i lacked in nothing in life and was raised well, not even lacking in looks, not even intelligence wise.

What a comedy i'm doing of myself. Do i deserve even one bit of mercy? I don't genuinely know, i would tend to not think of it, nor believing in it.

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My fellow bro read my last post. I am feeling 0-10 now, worst ever. Crazy things happened tonight cant even talk about it. But I will fix that things again. Love
 

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