1 am thoughts.

[PseudoMaxxer]

What am I looking for in my life? How can I understand that?

What I have rn is a treasure for someone else, but sometimes mediocre for me at best.

Is it because i’m not grateful or is it because i’m not grateful enough? what is gratefulness anyway?

I think it’s appreciating what you have, not limiting yourself to what you have because it’s enough. Am I enough? I don’t think so.

I don’t see myself as someone worthy of a great life or great things, but why? All I do to myself is abuse, both mental and physical.

I can’t be looking for external validation and/or love if I can’t give it to myself in the first place.

I’m very tired physically, I feel like it’s not worth it suffering everyday for the rest of my life, but life is all about enduring lessons and pain and going through them to reach a higher goal and achieve things that we strive for.

What do I want? I don’t even do that.

On the external, I want a good car, a house, a loving family and a girl that will do anything for me. But am I ready to get what I want yet? I don’t think so, and I don’t even know what I can do to get ready.

Maybe the problem is that we focus too much on becoming, rather than just being.

What if instead of becoming a better human, I just be a better human right now. What can I do to be a good person?

Why do I search for other people forgiveness if I can’t forgive myself for being me? i’m me, i’m human, I make mistakes and I learn from them, i’m young, we are all young and we are all on a journey.

But what if we try to be the persone we would wanna be in 10 years, right now?

 

[Gengar]

Mentally unstable.

 

[Deleted member 76452]

What am I looking for in my life? How can I understand that?

What I have rn is a treasure for someone else, but sometimes mediocre for me at best.

Is it because i’m not grateful or is it because i’m not grateful enough? what is gratefulness anyway?

I think it’s appreciating what you have, not limiting yourself to what you have because it’s enough. Am I enough? I don’t think so.

I don’t see myself as someone worthy of a great life or great things, but why? All I do to myself is abuse, both mental and physical.

I can’t be looking for external validation and/or love if I can’t give it to myself in the first place.

I’m very tired physically, I feel like it’s not worth it suffering everyday for the rest of my life, but life is all about enduring lessons and pain and going through them to reach a higher goal and achieve things that we strive for.

What do I want? I don’t even do that.

On the external, I want a good car, a house, a loving family and a girl that will do anything for me. But am I ready to get what I want yet? I don’t think so, and I don’t even know what I can do to get ready.

Maybe the problem is that we focus too much on becoming, rather than just being.

What if instead of becoming a better human, I just be a better human right now. What can I do to be a good person?

Why do I search for other people forgiveness if I can’t forgive myself for being me? i’m me, i’m human, I make mistakes and I learn from them, i’m young, we are all young and we are all on a journey.

But what if we try to be the persone we would wanna be in 10 years, right now?

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