Sanemaxx
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This is my one year ascension.
THEN:
I felt lonely, not respected, hurt for many years and never really understood why, but last year the realization came to me that looks are everything.
One time i looked in the mirror after a solid amount of time and i couldn’t believe what i saw.
I was very insecure and i mean very: I couldn’t look in the mirror, I avoided taking pictures or others taking them, I couldn’t hold eye contact. All because i was afraid of judgment. I intentionally turned away from cameras or phones because i was afraid that someone might take a pic of me. It was horrible. But the worst was that I couldn’t for myself accept that I looked bad, so i also kinda thought it was good, because i had certain features that are considered goodlooking, like a strong browrdge etc. SO i kinda lived a contradicionary life. At the same time i was craving real hard all the time. I was happy about any interaction with a girl or with people that had status in my social circle.
This whole year my face was everything i thought about all the time: How do people see me in this light?, how does my side profile look to the person next to me?, Do the girls on the street laugh about me ? These kind of questions, were my pessangers throughout my everyday. I was KHHV and my self esteem, was as low as never before. Unimaginable for most.
NOW:
People respect me, people are kind to me, people compliment me,
Girls are coming to me themselves, without any effort on my behalf.
Story: I was just about to leave the club, when suddenly a guy touches my shoulder and tells me that his female friend thinks that im really beautiful. So i took the chance and called her to me, we talked about 10 min when we make out. After that she tells me a couple of more times that she really likes my face.
A few days later i was also with a girl in the club, she was so insanely craving after me that she made me finger her on the danceflor in the club, all while she was a virgin. In the same night i lost my virginity with her.
Theres a few other similar make out stories, where it was zero effort for me, but i think you got my point.
A few days ago i have seen an old friends of mine that i haven’t seen for a longer period of time. And through out the hangout they all really tried to tell me how good i look. They first told me that i looked like Chico and called me that for the rest of the hangover. One even told me that i look like an UNKOWN Slayer.
Now all my dreams have come true, that’s what I’ve been dreaming about the whole time. Im still stuned that this is really happening all at once now. For me now there is no doubt that looks is the key to social and sexual prosperity.
My confidence and self esteem are now through the roof.
Height: 187cm -> 190cm
Based on my personal observations and reactions i got, i fall into the htn category, but you can decide for yourself.
in Motion:
THEN:
I felt lonely, not respected, hurt for many years and never really understood why, but last year the realization came to me that looks are everything.
One time i looked in the mirror after a solid amount of time and i couldn’t believe what i saw.
I was very insecure and i mean very: I couldn’t look in the mirror, I avoided taking pictures or others taking them, I couldn’t hold eye contact. All because i was afraid of judgment. I intentionally turned away from cameras or phones because i was afraid that someone might take a pic of me. It was horrible. But the worst was that I couldn’t for myself accept that I looked bad, so i also kinda thought it was good, because i had certain features that are considered goodlooking, like a strong browrdge etc. SO i kinda lived a contradicionary life. At the same time i was craving real hard all the time. I was happy about any interaction with a girl or with people that had status in my social circle.
This whole year my face was everything i thought about all the time: How do people see me in this light?, how does my side profile look to the person next to me?, Do the girls on the street laugh about me ? These kind of questions, were my pessangers throughout my everyday. I was KHHV and my self esteem, was as low as never before. Unimaginable for most.
NOW:
People respect me, people are kind to me, people compliment me,
Girls are coming to me themselves, without any effort on my behalf.
Story: I was just about to leave the club, when suddenly a guy touches my shoulder and tells me that his female friend thinks that im really beautiful. So i took the chance and called her to me, we talked about 10 min when we make out. After that she tells me a couple of more times that she really likes my face.
A few days later i was also with a girl in the club, she was so insanely craving after me that she made me finger her on the danceflor in the club, all while she was a virgin. In the same night i lost my virginity with her.
Theres a few other similar make out stories, where it was zero effort for me, but i think you got my point.
A few days ago i have seen an old friends of mine that i haven’t seen for a longer period of time. And through out the hangout they all really tried to tell me how good i look. They first told me that i looked like Chico and called me that for the rest of the hangover. One even told me that i look like an UNKOWN Slayer.
Now all my dreams have come true, that’s what I’ve been dreaming about the whole time. Im still stuned that this is really happening all at once now. For me now there is no doubt that looks is the key to social and sexual prosperity.
My confidence and self esteem are now through the roof.
Height: 187cm -> 190cm
Based on my personal observations and reactions i got, i fall into the htn category, but you can decide for yourself.
in Motion:
