cope677foidslaya
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Erda raping me now nosebleeds bro but it’s prob cuz i pick my nose cuz it’s dry
My iliac crest/my hip bone (the right side) on the backhurts like fuck, mentioned this in yesterdays post but it’s gotten so much worse.
today’s study stack: L theanine 400mg Caffiene 150mg, concerta 36mg modafinil 200mg. Didn’t take a dexamohetamune cuz i was too stimmed.
BP getting tested tommorow
It’s 1:18am, i couldn’t sleep cuz of stims lol
Work was horrendous and i cleaned every cm of the butcher cuz of the amphetamines prob and cuz my 60 year old coworkers write me up and say i do shit so it made me want to prove them wrong but i over worked myself.
Spent 10:30am-2:30pm fully locked in with only 2 bathroom breaks, barely a word spoken. I’m never locked this in btw.
Mental health was peak, but maybe deteriorating a little only as the physical body and mind are connected and my body is disintegrating my skins dry everywhere
Height growth on erda day 20 ~1.5cm i think
P.S foid likes me and I know I will gain dopamine from doing anything with her but only my animalistic instinct and body wants to do something, she is attractive but logically my brain knows i should stick to myself and volcel as i need to stay to myself and lock in. Thoughts?
haha no one’s gonna reply to this cuz no one has to my last 5 posts but we’re all gonna make it
My vision for myself is to 1. hit 6ft on erda (177.3 rn but i swear im growing now). Be fully myself without acting in social situations and thinking what the correct answer is (Im neurotypical btw
) took me 5 years to learn social skills where im tolerable. Leave this shit all behind so i can be myself without fucking talking about bullshit, effortlessness and not caring about this stuff is equally important than looks (don’t disagree, people say being ND is hell because personality is equally as important as looks, the posture the way you dress the body language the contrast the expression the way you speak all create a split second impression for others.) And finally, to be romantically interested in a girl for the first time in 2.5ish years which will be achieved by leaving this shit behind and loving myself truly.
They calling this the grayest post of 2026. Oh and also roids after i wither my progress away on ERDA. Love.
My iliac crest/my hip bone (the right side) on the backhurts like fuck, mentioned this in yesterdays post but it’s gotten so much worse.
today’s study stack: L theanine 400mg Caffiene 150mg, concerta 36mg modafinil 200mg. Didn’t take a dexamohetamune cuz i was too stimmed.
BP getting tested tommorow
It’s 1:18am, i couldn’t sleep cuz of stims lol
Work was horrendous and i cleaned every cm of the butcher cuz of the amphetamines prob and cuz my 60 year old coworkers write me up and say i do shit so it made me want to prove them wrong but i over worked myself.
Spent 10:30am-2:30pm fully locked in with only 2 bathroom breaks, barely a word spoken. I’m never locked this in btw.
Mental health was peak, but maybe deteriorating a little only as the physical body and mind are connected and my body is disintegrating my skins dry everywhere
Height growth on erda day 20 ~1.5cm i think
P.S foid likes me and I know I will gain dopamine from doing anything with her but only my animalistic instinct and body wants to do something, she is attractive but logically my brain knows i should stick to myself and volcel as i need to stay to myself and lock in. Thoughts?
haha no one’s gonna reply to this cuz no one has to my last 5 posts but we’re all gonna make it
My vision for myself is to 1. hit 6ft on erda (177.3 rn but i swear im growing now). Be fully myself without acting in social situations and thinking what the correct answer is (Im neurotypical btw
) took me 5 years to learn social skills where im tolerable. Leave this shit all behind so i can be myself without fucking talking about bullshit, effortlessness and not caring about this stuff is equally important than looks (don’t disagree, people say being ND is hell because personality is equally as important as looks, the posture the way you dress the body language the contrast the expression the way you speak all create a split second impression for others.) And finally, to be romantically interested in a girl for the first time in 2.5ish years which will be achieved by leaving this shit behind and loving myself truly. They calling this the grayest post of 2026
. Oh and also roids after i wither my progress away on ERDA. Love.
