
igniteisbad
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fuck early puberty. i’m like 5’6, parents are about 5’3 and 5’10. I fractured my fibula and in the xray you can see the plates at my ankles are fully fucking fused. I don’t exactly know why, but I feel absolutely terrified at times, like knowing that something really bad is inevitably coming and all you can do is wait. I don’t know how long they have BEEN fully fused for, which means that I don’t know how long I have until the other height affecting plates are fused as well. for all I know, my knees could be fully fused too. I can’t imagine living at this tiny size for the rest of my life. my hands are small, my shoe size is 8.5-9, and again, i’m only 5’6 ish (hopefully slightly taller). I feel like it’s genuinely over for me, especially as people I used to be 2 literal heads taller than are now inches taller than me. completely destroying the little self worth I already had. what the fuck do I do?? do I hop on some shit? all i’ve been doing is mk677 but is that little 40% igf1 boost even worth it?? what if everything is already closed?? if everything isn’t already closed, do I just say fuck it and hop on some shit like cjc or hgh?? the only reason I haven’t before is because I can’t really store it properly without my parents probably finding it. fucking crazy how I haven’t even gotten into high school and this is already happening. so genuinely over. the amount of LLS shit i’ve watched today is unmatched to any time in the past. also the tall ass doctor towering over me saying “he’s not gonna grow much more, growth plates here are closed” absolutely crushed my soul. I knew I was gonna be short and have premature plate closure but it still really hurts to hear.