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Iron
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I’m 17 (turning 18 on April 30). I have dyslexia, ADHD, and OCD, so my spelling isn’t great. Just heads up I wrote this into chat gpt just told it to fix my spelling and grammar so yall could understand this better thx for giving the time and day to read this enjoy
I’ve been on Zoloft and Adderall since around 8th grade (a few years now). About 8 months ago I also started Abilify. When I’m off Zoloft, I get depressed and my OCD becomes very intense. When I’m on it, my libido is extremely low.
In terms of PEDs and hormones: I ran a 2-month testosterone cycle at 350mg with an AI. I’ve been on 6 IU of HGH for about 4 months, and I did a 3-month MK-677 cycle at 15mg. I smoke weed most days and vape daily since 10th grade (weed not literally every single day, but close).
Right now I’m on Accutane, oral minoxidil, 4mg Reta and PCT — nothing else. In about a month, I’m planning to run 8 IU of HGH for a few years.
Sexually, I’ve had two partners but struggle with erections and don’t get fully hard naturally. Testosterone helped while I was on cycle, but I never actually had sex — I mostly just masturbated. I’ve been masturbating daily for about a year. I’m in independent studies and only have one class per week, so I’m alone a lot and don’t have much structure, which probably contributes to that habit.
Mentally, blackpill content has had a big impact on me. It’s honestly what I think about most of the time. I act on it in terms of trying to improve my appearance, but I’ve become inconsistent and obsessive. It’s the main thing that draws my attention and motivation. Even though I’m 6’1” and objectively decent-looking, my confidence feels ruined because I constantly compare myself and fixate on flaws.
I’ve also been very unmotivated and lazy. Because I only have one class a week, I don’t do much day to day, which probably makes everything worse. I’m planning to go to community college after high school, work, and save money for a LeFort I surgery in the future.
Given all of this — psychiatric meds, testosterone cycle, HGH, MK-677, Accutane, weed, vaping, daily masturbation, libido issues, and obsessive focus on appearance — I’m trying to understand realistically how much I may have affected my hormones, brain chemistry, sexual function, or long-term development. I’m looking for serious, informed input. I’m a social guy and people do like me I’m not like a autistic nd type but idek I have 0 discipline so lazy and 0 structure
In about a month, I’m planning to run 8 IU of HGH for a few years.
Mental health:
Sexual health:
Lifestyle and future plans:
Given everything — psychiatric meds, PED use, HGH, MK-677, Accutane, weed, vaping, libido issues, low motivation — I’m trying to understand realistically how much damage I may have done to my hormones, brain chemistry, sexual function, or long-term development.
I’m looking for serious, informed input.
I’ve been on Zoloft and Adderall since around 8th grade (a few years now). About 8 months ago I also started Abilify. When I’m off Zoloft, I get depressed and my OCD becomes very intense. When I’m on it, my libido is extremely low.
In terms of PEDs and hormones: I ran a 2-month testosterone cycle at 350mg with an AI. I’ve been on 6 IU of HGH for about 4 months, and I did a 3-month MK-677 cycle at 15mg. I smoke weed most days and vape daily since 10th grade (weed not literally every single day, but close).
Right now I’m on Accutane, oral minoxidil, 4mg Reta and PCT — nothing else. In about a month, I’m planning to run 8 IU of HGH for a few years.
Sexually, I’ve had two partners but struggle with erections and don’t get fully hard naturally. Testosterone helped while I was on cycle, but I never actually had sex — I mostly just masturbated. I’ve been masturbating daily for about a year. I’m in independent studies and only have one class per week, so I’m alone a lot and don’t have much structure, which probably contributes to that habit.
Mentally, blackpill content has had a big impact on me. It’s honestly what I think about most of the time. I act on it in terms of trying to improve my appearance, but I’ve become inconsistent and obsessive. It’s the main thing that draws my attention and motivation. Even though I’m 6’1” and objectively decent-looking, my confidence feels ruined because I constantly compare myself and fixate on flaws.
I’ve also been very unmotivated and lazy. Because I only have one class a week, I don’t do much day to day, which probably makes everything worse. I’m planning to go to community college after high school, work, and save money for a LeFort I surgery in the future.
Given all of this — psychiatric meds, testosterone cycle, HGH, MK-677, Accutane, weed, vaping, daily masturbation, libido issues, and obsessive focus on appearance — I’m trying to understand realistically how much I may have affected my hormones, brain chemistry, sexual function, or long-term development. I’m looking for serious, informed input. I’m a social guy and people do like me I’m not like a autistic nd type but idek I have 0 discipline so lazy and 0 structure
- Accutane
- Oral minoxidil
- PCT
- Nothing else at the moment
In about a month, I’m planning to run 8 IU of HGH for a few years.
Mental health:
- When I’m off Zoloft, I get depressed and my OCD becomes very intense.
- When I’m on Zoloft, my libido is extremely low.
- I’ve also noticed overall low motivation and laziness. I’m in independent studies and only have one class per week, so I don’t have much structure. I don’t really do much during the day, which probably makes everything worse.
Sexual health:
- I’ve had two partners but struggle with erections and don’t get fully hard naturally.
- Testosterone helped when I was on cycle, but I never actually had sex — I mostly just masturbated.
- I’ve been masturbating daily for about a year, which likely increased because I’m alone a lot due to independent studies.
Lifestyle and future plans:
- I’m planning to go to community college after high school.
- I plan to work and save money for a LeFort I surgery in the future.
Given everything — psychiatric meds, PED use, HGH, MK-677, Accutane, weed, vaping, libido issues, low motivation — I’m trying to understand realistically how much damage I may have done to my hormones, brain chemistry, sexual function, or long-term development.
I’m looking for serious, informed input.
