theworstever
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tldr fag.... brothers, this isn't for you. skip. I'm not even in the mood to call people names anymore. I've reached the final stage of hopelessness.
I've been gathering powers to kill myself for years. I became suicidal around 8th grade but compared to now, back then it was all goofy shit after a bad day. I don't wanna sound dumb as shit but I think I'm the member who's put the most effort, pain and resources towards ascension on here. Whoever knows, knows.
I'm pessimistic by birth but I never expected it to go that bad. I suffered like a wild animal but I can recall words from a very wise member ''you just can't cheat your genetics''. I couldn't cheat my dick. I am born to die with a small dick. I am born to die a virgin because of that. Thankfully, or not, I'm not dumb enough to whip this shrimp in front of a foid. And yes, if my dick was not small I'd have definitely not been a virgin at all. I've had chances to slay Stacies and I couldn't take them. It's just not something that I can recover from unleashing this thing in front of a woman and even if she doesn't laugh or make a remark, I'll just know I can't give her what she wanted and that she'd never repeat. And when she ghosts me after that, I'd know the reason.
I'm far too self-conscious unlike a lot of men in my position. Most really don't give a shit and if they have a chance to slay they'll take it without thinking. I bet I wouldn't even be able to get an erection from all the stress and self hate. I tried everything that could have been done and it just failed.
Nobody apart from blackpilled dicklets will understand my pain. I know most of you will laugh, especially the hung ones, the ones lacking empathy and etc. I'm fully okay with being clowned below. *insert Bart Simpson at least you tried cake meme*.
Ascension is completely impossible if you're a dicklet. Nothing can compensate. Sure, you can get a girlfriend since she won't originally know the size but it's inevitable she'll either leave or cheat until you find out. At the end of the day, I can't really blame the foids on that. If I was one, I wouldn't have wanted a shrimp penetrating me either.
The size is the miserable 5.5x6. I know girth is supposed to be fine but the length is absolutely killing me. Most of the users on here have a longer flaccid than my erect state. ON TOP OF EVERYTHING, I'm a grower. It's like a constant slap and a reminder that you're small because when it's flaccid it's like a 2 year old's dick. I've always said and insisted height and dick are 99% of all you need. Hell, I went and fucking done LL, probably the only retard on here to do it. Unfortunately, after thorough research, there's no surgery available to add length. Nothing.
99% , I won't be alive on this day next year. The only thing keeping me alive so far was my fear but when you lose all hope, fear goes too. I promise to make sure I leave a proof I've killed myself before doing it. At least so I can be remembered as a man of my word. Now, after my failed ascension, I'm living my last months. I will lay in the grave as a kissless virgin after 23 torturous years. Not even sure I'll be laying in a grave tbf, afaik people who commit suicide don't get to have a funeral. I'm so fucked in the head that I fully have the wish to have my miserable body thrown in the wild, thrown in a trash bin, thrown to stray dogs. I feel trash belongs to the trash.
Dread it. Run from it. Destiny arrives all the same.
I've been gathering powers to kill myself for years. I became suicidal around 8th grade but compared to now, back then it was all goofy shit after a bad day. I don't wanna sound dumb as shit but I think I'm the member who's put the most effort, pain and resources towards ascension on here. Whoever knows, knows.
I'm pessimistic by birth but I never expected it to go that bad. I suffered like a wild animal but I can recall words from a very wise member ''you just can't cheat your genetics''. I couldn't cheat my dick. I am born to die with a small dick. I am born to die a virgin because of that. Thankfully, or not, I'm not dumb enough to whip this shrimp in front of a foid. And yes, if my dick was not small I'd have definitely not been a virgin at all. I've had chances to slay Stacies and I couldn't take them. It's just not something that I can recover from unleashing this thing in front of a woman and even if she doesn't laugh or make a remark, I'll just know I can't give her what she wanted and that she'd never repeat. And when she ghosts me after that, I'd know the reason.
I'm far too self-conscious unlike a lot of men in my position. Most really don't give a shit and if they have a chance to slay they'll take it without thinking. I bet I wouldn't even be able to get an erection from all the stress and self hate. I tried everything that could have been done and it just failed.
Nobody apart from blackpilled dicklets will understand my pain. I know most of you will laugh, especially the hung ones, the ones lacking empathy and etc. I'm fully okay with being clowned below. *insert Bart Simpson at least you tried cake meme*.
Ascension is completely impossible if you're a dicklet. Nothing can compensate. Sure, you can get a girlfriend since she won't originally know the size but it's inevitable she'll either leave or cheat until you find out. At the end of the day, I can't really blame the foids on that. If I was one, I wouldn't have wanted a shrimp penetrating me either.
The size is the miserable 5.5x6. I know girth is supposed to be fine but the length is absolutely killing me. Most of the users on here have a longer flaccid than my erect state. ON TOP OF EVERYTHING, I'm a grower. It's like a constant slap and a reminder that you're small because when it's flaccid it's like a 2 year old's dick. I've always said and insisted height and dick are 99% of all you need. Hell, I went and fucking done LL, probably the only retard on here to do it. Unfortunately, after thorough research, there's no surgery available to add length. Nothing.
99% , I won't be alive on this day next year. The only thing keeping me alive so far was my fear but when you lose all hope, fear goes too. I promise to make sure I leave a proof I've killed myself before doing it. At least so I can be remembered as a man of my word. Now, after my failed ascension, I'm living my last months. I will lay in the grave as a kissless virgin after 23 torturous years. Not even sure I'll be laying in a grave tbf, afaik people who commit suicide don't get to have a funeral. I'm so fucked in the head that I fully have the wish to have my miserable body thrown in the wild, thrown in a trash bin, thrown to stray dogs. I feel trash belongs to the trash.
Dread it. Run from it. Destiny arrives all the same.
