30th birthday next year

[Pikabro]

there’s no one that’s truly khhv in this forum they are all pretenders

Done bhai

They see us as a joke

 

[DarkTriadBeliever]

Damn unc, it might be time for you to retire from .org

 

[MoggerGaston]

How did you even end up here you’re literally a Mogger jfl

parental child-abuse (narc-mother) and being obese as a child (due to parents).

 

[mightbecooked123]

who is in your avi btw, I need to get like him on gawd

lol do you think he mogs?

 

[mightbecooked123]

They see us as a joke

Your not alone brah

 

[Gengar]

no. I carry this pain with me, inside of me.

I will need to deal with it at some point.

That's the only thing we can do. Carrying on.

 

[DarkLoner94]

It ain't easy, good luck

 

[Gengar]

It saddens me that my first romantic encounter with a woman, that stacylite girl, was also my best encounter.

i thought gates were opening for me and now that I had some experience, I would start dating more, find out what I really like and find a girl who matches with me.
Turns out it's rough as fuck out there. Even with some experience, you are looking and looking but nothing comes.

She set up high expectations for you. I mean, it's understandable. Other women would just pale in comparison, unless you get one on her looks level and personality - it has to be both simultaneously. She can't only have looks and nor can she only have personality. She needs both for you to be satisfied again. But deep down you know a woman like that is rare and that they are already snatched up by others. What age were you when you dated her? Early 20s, I assume? No later than that, and no earlier than late teens.

 

[MoggerGaston]

the man in that picture is you?

ye

 

[MoggerGaston]

You've said many times prior that you've had slays and GFs, you fucking idiot. What do you even gain from all this pretending? Jeez

what pretending? I have never lied about anything, never pretended anything. I have said before I was KHHV till 23.5yo, then dated that stacylite girl for 3 months, then dated a lot for ~2 years.
Now I am 29yo and I have been truecel again, completely. No sex, nothing in the past years.

This is all true.

 

[truthhurts]

Never had a girlfriend/relationship.
I don't have family.
No friends.
Still a student

What should I do at my big celebration next year?

We gonna make it dawg. We can’t give up easily bro.

 

[MoggerGaston]

name the time and place, and I’ll be there

unironically if I ever decide to go out, I need to do one last massive bet with whatever loan I can get.

Hope to do it together with you. Snorting cocaine from some hookers belly while shoving thousands on a single number on roulette

 

[MoggerGaston]

there’s no one that’s truly khhv in this forum they are all pretenders

Done bhai

i was khhv till 23.5yo. I think that's honorary, I know the pain.

 

[MoggerGaston]

She set up high expectations for you. I mean, it's understandable. Other women would just pale in comparison, unless you get one on her looks level and personality - it has to be both simultaneously. She can't only have looks and nor can she only have personality. She needs both for you to be satisfied again. But deep down you know a woman like that is rare and that they are already snatched up by others. What age were you when you dated her? Early 20s, I assume? No later than that, and no earlier than late teens.

i was 23yo, she was 19yo.

Now I am 29yo.

I was KHHV when I met her, yet I felt like I had the tools/mindset necessary to date her. I was socialmaxxing at the time, part of a rowing frat, top-tier athleticism and social-life. (objectively, not subjective. I was part of a frat but never felt home there. This was me playing an act, the role of a frat-boy slayer)
There were many struggles, but a lot of it ended working out just fine between her and me.

Especially our sex-life started as a horrible traumatic event but turned into something we would do a lot and would both greatly enjoy.

I don't think I ever really felt 'secure' though, I was always doubtful that she would leave me eventually, I wasn't good enough, etc.

Girls after her, like you say, personality and looks. I haven't found a single girl that even came close to ONE of those two.
Looks, no way. But I was willing to look past looks honestly.
But personality-wise? That was the worst-issue.

Her personality was extrovert, -say whatever is on her mind-. This matched well with my introverted personality where I keep every thought to myself and don't share. I could respond well to her which also brought out the lion in me. Making my own jokes with her and becoming more extroverted myself. The key thing being that she didn't mind non-NT/autist behavior. She wouldn't get upset or estranged by me acting weirdly. I could act non-NT and she would just enjoy it, find it funny, cute.

All girls I dated afterwards weren't just unattractive, but they also didn't have a personality anything near to what she had. And that also felt limiting to myself.
I need somewhat of a dominant extrovert type girl socially, but also one that will easily accept non-NT behavior from me and enjoy that.

I feel like I am underplaying who I am. I am not a dork, a shut-in nerd, dont get me wrong. But I need people to press certain keys on me, trigger me, to really get the lion out of me, if you get what I mean.
I am not a boring nerd introvert who doesn't speak, but a certain energy engages me and locks me in. It engages the extrovert side in me.

Man, very hard to find.

Yet what's the alternative? Dating a girl I dont vibe with, a girl I dont find attractive?

I am fucked

 

[Simр]

unironically if I ever decide to go out, I need to do one last massive bet with whatever loan I can get.

Hope to do it together with you. Snorting cocaine from some hookers belly while shoving thousands on a single number on roulette

 

[MoggerGaston]

If I ever kill myself, it will be planned.

I don't really see myself as the guy who goes on a killing-spree, who goes ER, I've thought about it a lot. But I just can't find hate towards individuals whom I would be harming.
The idea of killing random people on an ER-spree just doesn't appeal to me whatsoever, and that's after thinking about it a lot. I will never go ER.

I never have hate towards individual people, but more so towards the 'system', 'society'. Never towards individuals, I just see them as fellow-victims.

Anyways, getting massive loans and gambling it all away before you die sounds like a mogger ending tbh.

 

[raabla]

I hope everything goes well for you man

 

[Simр]

If I ever kill myself, it will be planned.

I don't really see myself as the guy who goes on a killing-spree, who goes ER, I've thought about it a lot. But I just can't find hate towards individuals whom I would be harming.

Don’t do it man. It’s not worth it. Your life is worth living

 

[MoggerGaston]

We gonna make it dawg. We can’t give up easily bro.

for real man,

it has to be a new beginning. Letting go of my failed-past, mostly created by my abusive parents.

Now onto something new.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Don’t do it man. It’s not worth it. Your life is worth living

It's difficult to feel this honestly. It all just feels like a big joke to me most of the time.

I have to see it as a joke, because the realization of what my life really is, is too brutal and dark.

 

[MoggerGaston]

We gonna make it dawg. We can’t give up easily bro.

I hope everything goes well for you man

Gonna be very hard to get out of this hole tbh. Not sure how I can tackle this issue whatsoever.
You keep falling back into old habits and the same problems keep arising which hold you back.

Especially my AVPD(avoidant personality disorder) seems to make it impossible to form connections for me.

Idk, well have to see. 2025 maybe.

 

[PrinceLuenLeoncur]

Never had a girlfriend/relationship.
I don't have family.
No friends.
Still a student

What should I do at my big celebration next year?

Your a stronger man than me

I’ll kill myself if I had your stats ngl

I’ve had a gf but not had a gf since 2018 not and sex since 2022

Passed uni but can’t get a decent job

I have Freinds I guess that’s the only good thing here I have. Still a treucel brokie you have more money than me so I guess we one up each other on one thing brutally

 

[truthhurts]

Gonna be very hard to get out of this hole tbh. Not sure how I can tackle this issue whatsoever.
You keep falling back into old habits and the same problems keep arising which hold you back.

Especially my AVPD(avoidant personality disorder) seems to make it impossible to form connections for me.

Idk, well have to see. 2025 maybe.

True tbh, but we gotta make changes, so we don’t end back, sticking to the old habits. Ofc, life is unfair, but nothing changes if we complain again and again. Even if it’s unfair, so what? Exactly nothing happens bro, so we gotta take actions, when you are blackpilled u can take the blackpill for your own advantages . Wish you the best man

 

[SecularIslamist]

I'm 30 in December man. You remind me of myself. I've had casual fuckery a couple times but I don't consider myself ever having a girlfriend in the traditional sense. Just FWB.

You fucking mog so you're probably a fucking standardcel fakecel waiting for virgin stacey.

 

[raabla]

Gonna be very hard to get out of this hole tbh. Not sure how I can tackle this issue whatsoever.
You keep falling back into old habits and the same problems keep arising which hold you back.

Especially my AVPD(avoidant personality disorder) seems to make it impossible to form connections for me.

Idk, well have to see. 2025 maybe.

What do you think the main problem in your life is? Maybe start with that. I know you said you have problems with your family, have you tried to talk with them and resolve any issues? Cut back on drug use? Approach those girls you always post about? sorry if I'm not giving any good advice, i don't know your full situation and therefore can't see it how you do. I don't wanna be one of those people who just says "fix your life bro" But i wanna see you do better. Also maybe give low inhib drugs a try, I haven't tried any but I've seen posts about them here, maybe those can help with your disorder?

 

[MoggerGaston]

What do you think the main problem in your life is? Maybe start with that. I know you said you have problems with your family, have you tried to talk with them and resolve any issues? Cut back on drug use? Approach those girls you always post about? sorry if I'm not giving any good advice, i don't know your full situation and therefore can't see it how you do. I don't wanna be one of those people who just says "fix your life bro" But i wanna see you do better. Also maybe give low inhib drugs a try, I haven't tried any but I've seen posts about them here, maybe those can help with your disorder?

i have extremely low self-esteem issues, depression. Feeling very down about everything. Little to no energy

 

[raabla]

i have extremely low self-esteem issues, depression. Feeling very down about everything. Little to no energy

When did it all start?

 

[maximum cope31]

Having the first GF after 20 = fucked forever

I also had it once, never again. After that no interaction, not even close for 2.5 years. And im still at the college, girls everywhere but 0 for me.

Not a slayer in highschool = Not a slayer for life

It is the loser, quiet kid life for us. Well someone had to do it. It can't be all turbo NT jocks.

 

[Bjornn]

I could possibly choose to OD on drugs, but I think it's too early for that.

why would u wanna kys?

 

[MoggerGaston]

When did it all start?

Teenage years, gradually getting worse into young adulthood

 

[lurking truecel]

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I won't forget but in the end it didn't matter.

Is that you fr ?

 

[Gengar]

i was 23yo, she was 19yo.

Now I am 29yo.

I was KHHV when I met her, yet I felt like I had the tools/mindset necessary to date her. I was socialmaxxing at the time, part of a rowing frat, top-tier athleticism and social-life. (objectively, not subjective. I was part of a frat but never felt home there. This was me playing an act, the role of a frat-boy slayer)
There were many struggles, but a lot of it ended working out just fine between her and me.

Especially our sex-life started as a horrible traumatic event but turned into something we would do a lot and would both greatly enjoy.

I don't think I ever really felt 'secure' though, I was always doubtful that she would leave me eventually, I wasn't good enough, etc.

Girls after her, like you say, personality and looks. I haven't found a single girl that even came close to ONE of those two.
Looks, no way. But I was willing to look past looks honestly.
But personality-wise? That was the worst-issue.

Her personality was extrovert, -say whatever is on her mind-. This matched well with my introverted personality where I keep every thought to myself and don't share. I could respond well to her which also brought out the lion in me. Making my own jokes with her and becoming more extroverted myself. The key thing being that she didn't mind non-NT/autist behavior. She wouldn't get upset or estranged by me acting weirdly. I could act non-NT and she would just enjoy it, find it funny, cute.

All girls I dated afterwards weren't just unattractive, but they also didn't have a personality anything near to what she had. And that also felt limiting to myself.
I need somewhat of a dominant extrovert type girl socially, but also one that will easily accept non-NT behavior from me and enjoy that.

I feel like I am underplaying who I am. I am not a dork, a shut-in nerd, dont get me wrong. But I need people to press certain keys on me, trigger me, to really get the lion out of me, if you get what I mean.
I am not a boring nerd introvert who doesn't speak, but a certain energy engages me and locks me in. It engages the extrovert side in me.

Man, very hard to find.

Yet what's the alternative? Dating a girl I dont vibe with, a girl I dont find attractive?

I am fucked

It's really gonna be difficult from now on, she set the bar really high. Most women are, by far, lacking in what you seek. I wish you good luck because you are going to need it. I understand how you feel, by the way, about wanting to have your buttons pressed. In a way, I can relate. I used to be extremely extroverted and now I'm the opposite, but when I'm with both of my best friends from high school, that energy comes back to me again and it's like I'm just as extroverted again like I used to be, or close to it, really. You just need to find the right people to surround yourself with. Again, best of luck, my sher bhai.

 

[LateAscension]

You aren't wrong. Dutch people, dutch culture, I despise it honestly

But I don't think I would feel at home in Poland either since I grew up in the netherlands.

What's wrong with dutch culture? Why do you hate it so much?

Also, hookers are legal over there. You could fuck a Stacy every week for 100-200 euros.

 

[Zenis]

what pretending? I have never lied about anything, never pretended anything. I have said before I was KHHV till 23.5yo, then dated that stacylite girl for 3 months, then dated a lot for ~2 years.
Now I am 29yo and I have been truecel again, completely. No sex, nothing in the past years.

This is all true.

She’s not stacylite you mog her tbhb

 

[Hades_GOW]

You aren't wrong. Dutch people, dutch culture, I despise it honestly

But I don't think I would feel at home in Poland either since I grew up in the netherlands.

Poland same shit will happen in Poland..

 

[PrinceLuenLeoncur]

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I won't forget but in the end it didn't matter.

This I know the painful memories