4/21/25

[Vultus Tui Res]

10:51 PM

I keep ascending, but I’m reaching the final stage where one has to really lock down.

Unfortunately, my genetics can only be maximized so much, I will be stuck at HTN unless I hardmax.

My heart aches knowing that I won’t be able to get certain girls, not all of them will like me.

I fear that I might end up with someone who isn’t my looksmatch, that I will have to date someone of my kind because of the differences in ethnicity and culture between others.

I would rather live and die alone than ever steep low below my looks level. But for a moment, I see LTN’s with beautiful girls, for a moment I feel as though I can truly pull someone who is really beautiful just like they did.

I feel so numb to many things lately to the point where life doesn’t feel real, I’m just existing…

I’m scared, I’m not sure why, but I just am, is this all life has to offer? I wish I could just transcend to another state of being and leave this rotten world.

Good night everyone and sweet dreams!

 

[try2beme]

Cant read cus this font gives me uni ptsd

 

[Vultus Tui Res]

Cant read cus this font gives me uni ptsd

I’m sorry about that.

You’re not missing out on anything, just some lonely schizophrenic ramblings!