
Xazzy
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I am not insulting anyone on here damn it I was also beaten up, called slurs and yelled at a lot while growing up my parents were young both were in early 20s they had just been adults for like 3-4 years I dont blame them that much anymore as our relationship has gotten kind of better but not being loved as a child, spending hours at end alone with nannies and maids raising me defiantly fucked me up mentally I dont feel compassionate towards people, dont feel like I should do anything for anyone till the time I dont get something in return, I dont know I looksmaxxed and got some girlfriends but broke my relationship with all of them for various reasons they said I was not normal and that there was something so fucked up inside my head I dont blame them I hit one of them in a fit of rage really hard on the face and still feel guilty but that is at not being loved by your own kind when you were young does to you, I am on the school football team loved by everyone but I am sure they all secretly know I am unpredictable that my reaction to even small mishaps is unpredictable I cry constantly and never feel like I should be loved I miss her I shouldn't have hit her I am sorry 
Maybe in another life I was loved and I WOULD BE ALE TO MAINTAIN RELATIONSHIPS WITH PEOPLE I LOVE MAYBE?
Maybe in another life I was loved and I WOULD BE ALE TO MAINTAIN RELATIONSHIPS WITH PEOPLE I LOVE MAYBE?