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They finished their LGD-4033 cycle and are taking erdafitinib, an aromatase inhibitor, and enclomiphene, while feeling that weed and/or the AI may be worsening their mental health. They describe intense existential thoughts, a fake/unreal feeling, warped time perception, hyper-awareness of mental and patterns, nausea, dizziness and anxiety about their heart rate, although the unreality feeling has improved compared with five days ago.
ACTUAL RANT->
i am 16.5 and it is day 7 erdafitinib. been taking aromatase inhibitor + enclomiphene for probably about 3weeks and 2 months respectively. finished my lgd4033 sarm cycle of like 4 months.
I’ve developed a newfound awareness for mental health issues, i always thought this shit was cope but now I’m more aware, but i’m confident i can make a partial recovery from this at worst case scenario, but i will never be the same in terms of the way I think, but that’s not necessarily a fully bad thing.
i think my mental health issues maybe caused by smoking weed (did this 6 days ago mush and this triggered a feeling of—> whole world feels fake and i feel like i am viewing my subconscious thoughts through my conscious mind and having insane existential thoughts that went deeper than they ever did before. i think my mental health issues stem from also aromatase inhibitor because i heard it makes people depressed and also smoking weed cuz i lowk had somewhat of “panic attack” and my sense of time is warped.
I realise i am a significant retard and idk what i’m doing with my life. I also have a strong urge to understand more about the human brain as there are these thoughts that gnaw at me and need to be answered. The whole world feels fake but it has gone better compared to 5 days ago when it was horrendous.
On the topic of heart rate i constantly feel nauseous and dizzy and the sense of time is warped like i feel like i am seeing my reality completely off. What im about to sound retarded but your brain has mental patterns that it subconsciously goes through and i feel like im hyper aware of them which makes my reality feel fake but its hard/impossible to describe fully. regardless, i keep feeling that my heart rate is incredibly fast and i measured it today in class with an apple watch and it was about 90 and i swear it was never that high. I reckon it’s mostly mental as im constantly stressed rather than physical affects but maybe it’s a combination
On a positive note I have newfound awakenings in the sense that I feel like if i conquer the human mind I can control everything as the human mind creates your reality in front of you (the whole word is processed through your brain.) I realised 95% of my actions i do without thinking and that everyone acts subconsciously. I listed to the whole of Ted Kazynscki’s manifesto where he outlines societal control and specifically i reckon they poison your subconscious so i have the gruelling task of reprogramming my subconscious. I know this sounds like SO much BULLSHIT and i would’ve thought i sound FUCKING insane a week ago but this is true. —> i can LEARN from this incident and improve as a human. (ignoring my existential questions about why this even matters if this physical reality is so insignificant/ what is the physical reality/ is the physical reality real/ what am i? (what am i sounds retarded but consider what you actually are, are you your thoughts and are your thoughts real?
my explanations in the paragraph above are lacking and i have clearly not put enough thought into this and I will put more thought into this for sure. recommend and psychology books please.
oh also lmao my indiamart order with so much shit got seized (not seized but i gotta be 18 to pick it up at post office) so it’s over lmao that made me sad but i didn’t really care that was super insignificant comparatively
P.S i know all ngas don’t care. consider not saying anything before saying something redundant. thanks.
They finished their LGD-4033 cycle and are taking erdafitinib, an aromatase inhibitor, and enclomiphene, while feeling that weed and/or the AI may be worsening their mental health. They describe intense existential thoughts, a fake/unreal feeling, warped time perception, hyper-awareness of mental and patterns, nausea, dizziness and anxiety about their heart rate, although the unreality feeling has improved compared with five days ago.
ACTUAL RANT->
i am 16.5 and it is day 7 erdafitinib. been taking aromatase inhibitor + enclomiphene for probably about 3weeks and 2 months respectively. finished my lgd4033 sarm cycle of like 4 months.
I’ve developed a newfound awareness for mental health issues, i always thought this shit was cope but now I’m more aware, but i’m confident i can make a partial recovery from this at worst case scenario, but i will never be the same in terms of the way I think, but that’s not necessarily a fully bad thing.
i think my mental health issues maybe caused by smoking weed (did this 6 days ago mush and this triggered a feeling of—> whole world feels fake and i feel like i am viewing my subconscious thoughts through my conscious mind and having insane existential thoughts that went deeper than they ever did before. i think my mental health issues stem from also aromatase inhibitor because i heard it makes people depressed and also smoking weed cuz i lowk had somewhat of “panic attack” and my sense of time is warped.
I realise i am a significant retard and idk what i’m doing with my life. I also have a strong urge to understand more about the human brain as there are these thoughts that gnaw at me and need to be answered. The whole world feels fake but it has gone better compared to 5 days ago when it was horrendous.
On the topic of heart rate i constantly feel nauseous and dizzy and the sense of time is warped like i feel like i am seeing my reality completely off. What im about to sound retarded but your brain has mental patterns that it subconsciously goes through and i feel like im hyper aware of them which makes my reality feel fake but its hard/impossible to describe fully. regardless, i keep feeling that my heart rate is incredibly fast and i measured it today in class with an apple watch and it was about 90 and i swear it was never that high. I reckon it’s mostly mental as im constantly stressed rather than physical affects but maybe it’s a combination
On a positive note I have newfound awakenings in the sense that I feel like if i conquer the human mind I can control everything as the human mind creates your reality in front of you (the whole word is processed through your brain.) I realised 95% of my actions i do without thinking and that everyone acts subconsciously. I listed to the whole of Ted Kazynscki’s manifesto where he outlines societal control and specifically i reckon they poison your subconscious so i have the gruelling task of reprogramming my subconscious. I know this sounds like SO much BULLSHIT and i would’ve thought i sound FUCKING insane a week ago but this is true. —> i can LEARN from this incident and improve as a human. (ignoring my existential questions about why this even matters if this physical reality is so insignificant/ what is the physical reality/ is the physical reality real/ what am i? (what am i sounds retarded but consider what you actually are, are you your thoughts and are your thoughts real?
my explanations in the paragraph above are lacking and i have clearly not put enough thought into this and I will put more thought into this for sure. recommend and psychology books please.
oh also lmao my indiamart order with so much shit got seized (not seized but i gotta be 18 to pick it up at post office) so it’s over lmao that made me sad but i didn’t really care that was super insignificant comparatively
P.S i know all ngas don’t care. consider not saying anything before saying something redundant. thanks.
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