Aypo129
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I might not watch this forum or get on internet vanity for some time now since i had this realization
I am currently 18 and studying, will probably be out of house next year but only recently i have realized that i have caught a slight disgust for this home and rooms i lay inside.
Let me explain
Two years ago in 2020 i left my original school and then corona hits, so you know what happened TL;DR got addicted to stay inside and rot
I discovered blackpill about 2 or 3 months ago and been watching this forum everyday now and just today i had a very ugly truth facing toward me
My life is over.
Not in terms of looks
Not in terms of money
But what i have left behind
Just 3-4 years ago everything was moving right
I was in sport and growing at high rate
Great grades, Dopamine at its peak
I studied 4-5 hours and everyday woke up at 6 ,went to school, came at 2, sport at 5,pokemon and dbz all that at 7 and slept at 10
Went out to festivals with hefty crowd
Just everything went right and bam its all gone in dust now
Now i wont complain anymore
The BP is very good knowledge which might ascend me to hieght unknown
However,
There are two soul crushing truth i am facing that
1)Everything in life has gaslight me till now and just a accident of not discovering BP might have killed my soul for how the world actually works
2)Not a single year that will go on from now till i reach 30 will ever compare to a single day of the year 2017 to december 2019
I am not afraid of competetion by all means but the harsh truth maybe that nothing that i will do to compete will ever give equal returns, its all diminishing return now
Ps- read the whole thing and dont scroll its important matter
I am currently 18 and studying, will probably be out of house next year but only recently i have realized that i have caught a slight disgust for this home and rooms i lay inside.
Let me explain
Two years ago in 2020 i left my original school and then corona hits, so you know what happened TL;DR got addicted to stay inside and rot
I discovered blackpill about 2 or 3 months ago and been watching this forum everyday now and just today i had a very ugly truth facing toward me
My life is over.
Not in terms of looks
Not in terms of money
But what i have left behind
Just 3-4 years ago everything was moving right
I was in sport and growing at high rate
Great grades, Dopamine at its peak
I studied 4-5 hours and everyday woke up at 6 ,went to school, came at 2, sport at 5,pokemon and dbz all that at 7 and slept at 10
Went out to festivals with hefty crowd
Just everything went right and bam its all gone in dust now
Now i wont complain anymore
The BP is very good knowledge which might ascend me to hieght unknown
However,
There are two soul crushing truth i am facing that
1)Everything in life has gaslight me till now and just a accident of not discovering BP might have killed my soul for how the world actually works
2)Not a single year that will go on from now till i reach 30 will ever compare to a single day of the year 2017 to december 2019
I am not afraid of competetion by all means but the harsh truth maybe that nothing that i will do to compete will ever give equal returns, its all diminishing return now
Ps- read the whole thing and dont scroll its important matter
