About self steem.

[Deleted member 10699]

I'm looksmaxxing and it's working on how people treats me. Kind of. Even my dad even commented on me getting sharp features (my bodyfat is no near 12 percent, so leanmaxxing will ascend me). I still see myself as a piece of shit, and I still believe that everyone is better than me at everything, which is not true. I've always underrated myself because I was scared of being seen as arrogant if I spoke good about myself (I don't talk too much, so some people think that I'm asshole or someone who thinks high of himself, and as a weirdo).

I remember that once, a new girl entered our class, and a girl was presenting her to the classmates. When she presented me, she said something without her wanting me to listen: "he's a weirdo". The tone was the typical "don't waste your time with him xddd". Like, I'm weird, I know that (please, don't say that personality doesn't matter. It does if you're not a chad, which most people here, aren't). Is there any fucking way of being less autistic (I mean, I'm diagnosed)?

Most of my classmates, this year, know that I'm a weirdo, but they mean like a weirdo in a quirky way. People, in general, think that I'm weird, or quirky. Some like it, some not, and the people who are more outgoing try to make fun of me, but in a cute way. Like, if they like me, they mess with me but they make sure you know it and they make it in an affectionate way (I don't know if I'm explain it well). But strangers think that I'm weird (this happens to me, but because I have OCD and I tend to stare at people a lot-even my mum sometimes is like: "why are you staring at me like that"-). And, well, your friends will immediatly think that you're super innocent because you're shy and people will be happy when you smile or laugh (because I ralely do that).

I must also say that strangers never smile at me unless they're cashiers or workers (or acquaintances or friends), or if I'm being polite (though the last person who smiled at me for being polite had a crush on me, so I don't know if this is something related to politeness). Anyways, I'm trying to have a better self-steem. What activities do you recommend for achieving that? Like, some people recommended me to get off of the Internet a bit and to do voluntering. What do you think? What's your advice?

 

[Danish_Retard]

I'm looksmaxxing and it's working on how people treats me. Kind of. Even my dad even commented on me getting sharp features (my bodyfat is no near 12 percent, so leanmaxxing will ascend me). I still see myself as a piece of shit, and I still believe that everyone is better than me at everything, which is not true. I've always underrated myself because I was scared of being seen as arrogant if I spoke good about myself (I don't talk too much, so some people think that I'm asshole or someone who thinks high of himself, and as a weirdo).

I remember that once, a new girl entered our class, and a girl was presenting her to the classmates. When she presented me, she said something without her wanting me to listen: "he's a weirdo". Like, I'm weird, I know that (please, don't say that personality doesn't matter. It does if you're not a chad, which most people here, aren't). Is there any fucking way of being less autistic (I mean, I'm diagnosed)? Most of my classmates, this year, know that I'm a weirdo, but they mean like a weirdo in a quirky way. People, in general, think that I'm weird, or quirky. Some like it, some not, and the people who are more outgoing try to make fun of me, but in a cute way. Like, if they like me, they mess with me but they make sure you know it and they make it in an affectionate way (I don't know if I'm explain it well). But strangers think that I'm weird (this happens to me, but because I have OCD and I tend to stare at people a lot-even my mum sometimes is like: "why are you staring at me like that"-). And, well, your friends will immediatly think that you're super innocent because you're shy and people will be happy when you smile or laugh (because you ralely do). I must also say that strangers never smile at me unless they're cashiers or workers (or acquaintances or friends), or if I'm being polite (though the last person who smiled at me for being polite had a crush on me, so I don't know if this is something related to politeness). Anyways, I'm trying to have a better self-steem. What activities do you recommend for achieving that? Like, some people recommended me to get off of the Internet a bit and to do voluntering. What do you think? What's your advice?

Learn of paragraphing greycel, but can your rant be summed to this, "no selfesteem because I'm a autistic weirdo nobody liked during my childhood"?

Self-esteem can be earned 2 ways, either getting validated or stopping to care about normies opinion on you. Both are pretty self-explanatory but hard to achieve.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

Learn of paragraphing greycel, but can your rant be summed to this, "no selfesteem because I'm a autistic weirdo nobody liked during my childhood"?

Self-esteem can be earned 2 ways, either getting validated or stopping to care about normies opinion on you. Both are pretty self-explanatory but hard to achieve.

But I don't how to get that validation. I get the validation of having friends that care about me, but I want to stop caring about the opinions of normal people. Like, a lot of people reffered to be as ugly (third person), and I have two options: using the blackpill knowledge to point their flaws and to be a piece of shit, or to stop caring. Then I got rated as HTN here, and a lot of people have told me that some of the people who called me ugly did it because of my obviously autistic behaviour. "no selfesteem because I'm a autistic weirdo nobody liked during my childhood". Yes, and no. A lot of people dislike me now (I'm 20). But I see myself as ugly, and a lot of girls said how ugly I was without even knowing me (and they were looking to my recessed side profile).

 

[Deleted member 11127]

Yeah, that's fucked up how your head can play tricks on you. I always thought bad about myself and even if people showed me they like me, they like spend time with me etc, I still think I am different. I guess that's how it must be.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

But I don't how to get that validation. I get the validation of having friends that care about me, but I want to stop caring about the opinions of normal people. Like, a lot of people reffered to be as ugly (third person), and I have two options: using the blackpill knowledge to point their flaws and to be a piece of shit, or to stop caring. Then I got rated as HTN here, and a lot of people have told me that some of the people who called me ugly did it because of my obviously autistic behaviour. "no selfesteem because I'm a autistic weirdo nobody liked during my childhood". Yes, and no. A lot of people dislike me now (I'm 20). But I see myself as ugly, and a lot of girls said how ugly I was without even knowing me (and they were looking to my recessed side profile).

At the same time, I find these people to be extremely pathetic. Our society is allowing mediocrity (looks and status) to be the norm. It's a good indication of the people who have worth in my life, though. Those who thinking so high of theirselves and decide to laugh at other people phisycal appearance, disabilities, etc., shouldn't even fight agaisnt racism, sexism or homophobia. This behaviour is normalized because talent, even intelligence, doesn't have any market value. That's why I'm against our culture, starting from the Reinassance. We value looks because most people have no talent, and they need to get ego boosts constantly. They even get offended if you point that out.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

Yeah, that's fucked up how your head can play tricks on you. I always thought bad about myself and even if people showed me they like me, they like spend time with me etc, I still think I am different. I guess that's how it must be.

I still don't know if it's my mind or something real. I've been called ugly a lot by different people in different situations, with no relation with each other. That's why I began to looksmaxx. I look much better now, but my chin is still recessed. . But I still despise our race. We're superior, but we're still drived by the same wires as apes.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

I still don't know if it's my mind or something real. I've been called ugly a lot by different people in different situations, with no relation with each other. That's why I began to looksmaxx. I look much better now, but my chin is still recessed. . But I still despise our race. We're superior, but we're still drived by the same wires as apes.

Even if I ascend from HTN to chadlite, I'll never like people and I will still be alone. I still feel the same paranoia I feel right now: if they discover that you're autistic, they will leave you alone. It's not true, but my mind is not rational.

 

[Deleted member 4438]

yeah yeah yeah

didnt read

 

[Deleted member 10699]

yeah yeah yeah

didnt read

Quality response. 10/10.

 

[YoungRichNigga]

u said that u were 20 right?
well its a little bit too late at this point since your already outa high school and cant go back and change what you've experience when u were younger and what you grew into.
i was in your same situation when i was 13 but i grew and matured. I built a vast social circle and have pretty good social skills at this point.

My advice to you is: Looksmax (will make u more confident)
hit the gym
interact with literally everyone, don't matter what age, status or race.
start smoking weed and go to bars with friends (don't get addicted tho)

 

[SkinjobCatastrophe]

jfl I thought you were gonna talk about “self steam” like standing over a bunch of steam to clear out your pores or something like that

 

[Deleted member 10699]

u said that u were 20 right?
well its a little bit too late at this point since your already outa high school and cant go back and change what you've experience when u were younger and what you grew into.
i was in your same situation when i was 13 but i grew and matured. I built a vast social circle and have pretty good social skills at this point.

My advice to you is: Looksmax (will make u more confident)
hit the gym
interact with literally everyone, don't matter what age, status or race.
start smoking weed and go to bars with friends (don't get addicted tho)

I'm not NT, so I kind of dislike bars and super social places. My looksmaxx is gonna be beard, 12 bodyfat and lip lift. I'll never smoke weed because of paranoia. But I'll try to be more social.