Abused Dogs know one thing

[LXR]

Its that the only thing that matters in the world is yourself, thats it. Not your daddy, not your mommy, not your brother. Just you. I am an abused dog and I never loved my family, and I sure didnt trust them. They made it so that I would always second guess everyone's intentions.

That is why I never really feel any connection with my city, race, country or family. I didnt feel homesick when I went across the country for college, I dont miss home when I am out for 6 months. Nothing really is home, nothing I can call my own except for the money I make and the things I achieve however small they might be. I own a brass razor that might be the only thing I take ownership for. I dont look at my race as my own, they are just more people in my vicinity, sometimes in competition.


Life as an abused dog is brutal but at least I dont get scammed by being vigilant

 

[prolarper]

I’m like this but I don’t think I’m an “abused dog”

 

[quan1]

isn't that just a sociopath?

 

[stev]

Its that the only thing that matters in the world is yourself, thats it. Not your daddy, nit your mommy, not your brother. Just you. I am an abused dog and I never loved my family, and I sure didnt trust them. They made it so that I would always second guess everyone's intentions.

That is why I never really feel any connection with my city, race, country or family. I didnt feel homesick when I went across the country for college, I dont miss home when I am out for 6 months. Nothing really is home, nothing I can call my own except for the money I make and the things I achieve however small they might be. I own a brass razor that might be the only thing I take ownership for. I dont look at my race as my own, they are just more people in my vicinity, sometimes in competition.


Life as an abused dog is brutal but at least I dont get scammed by being vigilant

I think your mindset is why you feel so alone and isolated - it hasn't done you any good

 

[prolarper]

I think your mindset is why you feel so alone and isolated - it hasn't done you any good

It doesn’t feel isolating or distressing, it just feels normal

 

[stev]

It doesn’t feel isolating or distressing, it just feels normal

That's because you've become accustomed to it

 

[Pickletoil]

True

 

[prolarper]

That's because you've become accustomed to it

Not really I’ve always been like that according to my family as well, I had a healthy upbringing also, I’m just not emotionally needy

 

[LXR]

isn't that just a sociopath?

No its not that I dont feel anything or I want to do something malicious. In fact I want to feel normal, to be able to be friends, to make small talk with people, to be normal. I dont want to be this way but instinct kicks in. I would never intentionally harm or scam some stranger

 

[LXR]

I think your mindset is why you feel so alone and isolated - it hasn't done you any good

Its something that just kicks in. I cant feel comfortable even with people I know for years because there is something telling me in the back of my mind that something's gonna fuck it up

 

[optimisticzoomer]

 

[ecstazy]

Its something that just kicks in. I cant feel comfortable even with people I know for years because there is something telling me in the back of my mind that something's gonna fuck it up

That’s exactly how I feel I’m so awkward in social situations to the point it’s debilitating

 

[LXR]

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Nah I dont feel edgy typing this. I didnt say I am neurodivergent. Just a product of getting beat up and getting insulted. When I was school, I didnt even question it because getting badly beaten up by parents was normal where I live. Everybody I knew had experienced it, its just now with the internet that I know its not normal and I am a weirdo

 

[optimisticzoomer]

Nah I dont feel edgy typing this. I didnt say I am neurodivergent. Just a product of getting beat up and getting insulted. When I was school, I didnt even question it because getting badly beaten up by parents was normal where I live. Everybody I knew had experienced it, its just now with the internet that I know its not normal and I am a weirdo

It’s not just a phase, mum!

 

[LXR]

It’s not just a phase, mum!

Its been like this ever since I remember. I dont have any friends. Not from school or from college

 

[optimisticzoomer]

Its been like this ever since I remember. I dont have any friends. Not from school or from college

Have you tried ashwagandha?

 

[LXR]

Have you tried ashwagandha?

Nope why ?

 

[optimisticzoomer]

Nope why ?

No reason

 

[LXR]

No reason

What if I train with Shaolin monks ? I think it will cure me

 

[optimisticzoomer]

What if I train with Shaolin monks ? I think it will cure me

You don’t need to be cured. You need to accept

 

[pfl]