Accidentally uploaded lol

[not__cel]

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[not__cel]

I’ve had a porn addiction on and off for years now, I’ve done nofap I’ve gooned. I edited personal porn videos, I watched normal porn videos, voyeur, scat, freeuse, snuff, hentai, hypnosis, degradation, humiliation, vanilla, hardcore ect ect

This is my totally honest recounting of how this shit started

When I was a lot younger I liked anime so naturally I found hentai haven (RIP) and I didn’t really understand what I liked about it but I didn’t focus too much on it, then I got a little bit older and started reading manga and that was the real start, I clicked on the comments and one comment of a chapter of a manga I liked (can’t remember what it was) and I highlighted the text that said ‘sex’ and there was a search feature so I searched it……. This was the start of what was to come ( ) eventually I’d find myself deliberately going to the chapter to highlight the text and search it up

And eventually I wracked up the balls to search it on my own, I watched a wide array of shit, some of which I wouldn’t even watch today (lots of scat)


I think this developmentally fucked me up

then for years I’d just read hentai manga with too much crazy shit to even recount (the body modification tag gives me heebie jeebies)

There are so many memories of when I was at a place then suddenly I remembered I had porn at home that I could come to so I sped up time I would’ve had with people I cared about one of which died recently so this shit makes me sad ngl

Then I decided to go nofap, this was what was best for me and I even joined a sport for the first time in years and all was well until some family shit happened and I became homeschooled

On one hand

Jfl this accidentally uploaded

 

[2025cel]

You are not the main character dawg, If you really can't stop wanking tf even are you nga

 

[2025cel]

Jfl this accidentally uploaded

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[not__cel]

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What’s wrong with it?

 

[not__cel]

You are not the main character dawg, If you really can't stop wanking tf even are you nga

I did nofap for 2 months but it was too much

 

[2025cel]

I did nofap for 2 months but it was too much

I've been doing it for 2 years, If you're bored most of the time, you will want to fap.

 

[Deleted member 108191]

I remembered I had porn at home that I could come to so I sped up time I would’ve had with people I cared about one of which died recently so this shit makes me sad ngl

Fuck this is fucking brootalll

 

[not__cel]

I've been doing it for 2 years, If you're bored most of the time, you will want to fap.

You give me inspiration, how is it day to day?

 

[2025cel]

You give me inspiration, how is it day to day?

It's pretty good, after about 3 months or something you lose the count of it, after about half a year, you don't even feel the need anymore. Because it just feels so unnatural.

 

[not__cel]

Fuck this is fucking brootalll

My cousin who I used to hang out with and play Nintendo/soccer with died suddenly and it suddenly made me remember all the missed time because I wanted to go home and jerk off, that’s when I decided to try nofap but the urges came back.

 

[not__cel]

It's pretty good, after about 3 months or something you lose the count of it, after about half a year, you don't even feel the need anymore. Because it just feels so unnatural.

I’ll try and maybe a phone detox

 

[Deleted member 108191]

My cousin who I used to hang out with and play Nintendo/soccer with died suddenly and it suddenly made me remember all the missed time because I wanted to go home and jerk off, that’s when I decided to try nofap but the urges came back.

I'd say the urges are normal.

It shows that you're healthy. But the addiction of fap is not.

Try to occupy yourself with other activities, or spend time in places where you would not jerk off like outside your house or in the kitchen.