Addicted to abuse?

[ElySioNs]

I’m new to reddit and I’ve posted a few stories but what I think I’ve realized from talking to ppl on here is that I’m addicted to abuse, especially sexual abuse. I know it’s wrong and that I shouldn’t be looking for or even think abt wanting it but my body I think is just fully trained to enjoy it.

I’m posting this bcuz I want to see if there are other ppl who have a similar experiences and are like me.

I am currently a 25 year old female living in the nederlands.

I have found in the last 2 years that I can only get off from sex if I’m being abused or degraded. I think it stems from my childhood and the way mom single hooker/stripper mother brought me up but I’ve been sexually abused my whole life and now when I look for a boyfriend who treats me as I should I just get bored and they can’t get me off. I feel bad bcuz I want to like these nice amazing men but I always go back to the abusive one for release.

I know I’m broken and that my mind needs fixing

 

[Deleted member 99909]

DNR + abuse is addictive for some reason

 

[Deleted member 64864]

its because its fun

 

[Deleted member 90484]

you do realize this isn't written by a girl, it's written by an incel, right?