addiction to cheap dopamine. vicous unwinnable cycle

[d1lurkaa]

Soon as I wake up I pray, eat my food in silence with no stimulation.

Then I read for 2 hours, and take a walk.

I feel good asf and feel like I'm finally escaping this vicious cycle but then... I come back home and sit on the couch or bed and I ruin all my progress by gooning viciously up to 4-7 times. then I say fuck it and doomscroll and eat junk food the whole day. 4 straight weeks of this daily. I want to escape but im so deep into this mess. Idk what kinda damage ive done to my brain

im defeated man my brain is finished

 

[molotov]

gooning viciously up to 4-7 times