6ft4
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I don't usually make reference to my IQ on this forum as my self glaze of choice outside of physical traits is usually about my level of sentience.
I often receive comments making reference to my IQ both on this forum and on my PSL related videos that expand on my forum talking points so I will explore IQ in this thread.
As a young fellow I never gave any thought to my level of intellect.
In primary school I disliked language learning due to having to memorize poems etc and distinctly remembered how much I disliked having to memorize a particularly long prayer for first communion.
Unlike some children though I had a very good level of concentration and remember in one class thinking about how in the zone and focused I was when listening to a long lesson from the teacher, like my brain was a sponge absorbing everything.
It was a level of focus I could only dream of in secondary school when I became more and more ADD despite hearing the claim that the duration for which you can focus increases year on year as you go from child to adult.
I remember being 4-5 years old and not having an understanding of anything that was going on in school and we had to complete an exercise where you circle the non safe places to be in relation to a car or traffic or some shit like that. My aspie brain had no understanding of these real world scenarios that were easier for the other children. That's not to say I was retarded enough to get hit by a car it was just a case that these exercises that required nuance and were not black and white in terms of the answer didn't properly resonate with me.
After some time I settled in to school and became competent at maths and English etc and around 10 years old the class was separated into reading groups and I was briefly put into the elite group which consisted of just one girl and one guy but I was demoted again on the same day so it was an acknowledgement I was the third best reader in the class but I wasn't gonna get to #1.
I remember having a substitute teacher around this time who just spent the day giving us general knowledge questions and I was giving the most correct answers which was surprising to me that the 2 students seen as the smart kids were unable to answer as many questions as I did.
One of the lower intellect kids made a remark in a tone of disbelief saying "6ft4 is smart"
There was a culture of competition in our school where aiming for the best test results possible was seen as the cool kids thing to do as the outsiders of the group who were usually the most antagonistic to group cohesion were the low IQ/Special Ed kids.
Within a year of transitioning from primary to secondary school this entire dynamic changed and the culture became about it being cool to not care about test results and making it a point of conversation to say how little you studied for a test and how poorly you expected to do.
The low IQs where large enough in number that they could form their own groups and frame themselves as the popular ones whereas in primary school the handful of low IQs wanted to be part of our group and could not get along with each other well enough to have their own group.
Despite this championing of low effort in secondary school I was still in the mode where I believed getting the best results you could mattered so I wanted to get good results.
I ended up getting an award for the best results on the end of 1st year tests in my class and there were 3 classes so 2 other students got the same award.
I had a meeting with a guidance counciler or whatever the fuck her role is called and she told me that it was her job to count the students results and that I got the highest results out of every student in my year (thus beating the other 2 students)
If I could point to a moment where schoolwork no longer mattered to me and my competitive drive left me I would say this would be the moment.
At this point I was completely convinced that I intellect mogged everyone in my year which was the widest metric of comparison available to me at that time so I no longer really cared about school work because there was nothing else for me to achieve.
The others who got the awards were foids who were raised in a study culture where they were basically on the path to go into those roles like doctor/pharmacy where one of them was already studying for 5 hours per night in first year and her parents didn't give her tv access.
The most amusing part about this is that she was literally a dumb blonde with 0 ability for independent thought and was extremely gullible to the point where guys would play jokes on her to make her believe anything.
She also dating the lowest IQ guy in our class for a while and they were legit sentience matched.
Once I came to the conclusion that I had no intellectual competitors in my yeargroup despite having classmates who everyone referred to as the smart ones who I mogged in test results while nobody ever referenced my intellect, I could no longer motivate myself to study because I had nothing left to prove to myself.
I would continue to study the night before my main tests because I wanted the vanity metric of receiving the end of year awards but this tactic of only studying the night before the test couldn't maintain my position as an academic award receiver after 3rd year because others with lower intellect had now built up the study habit of hours per night for years.
Once the material needed to revise for a test stacks up, you aren't reading it all on the night before the test.
I left school and did the bare minimum in university to pass and I knew that I was never going to go down the academic or ladder climbing workcel route because I always had ambitions to be my own boss and create my own entreprenureal empire.
My ability to focus in uni work just got progressively worse during my time there as I just became less motivated to do anything other than gymcel and chase slays.
Once I finished uni I combined roiding and nights out together for the first time and I lived a life of working part time and slaying as much as possible but I was so lazy that I couldn't complete any of the most basic tasks off of my to do list without it taking months.
I think that being at an unnaturally high bodyweight for my frame, being tired from gymcelling, eating excess calories contributed massively to my laziness while drinking often and being on roids wrecked my ability to focus or gain any mental clarity to start projects I had been putting off for years
I forget at what point it was that the comments about my IQ started becoming common on PSL forums but I would say that I began making thought provoking threads at least from 2017 onwards having first joined PSL in 2015.
I was still trying to understand the world in my early 20s but the more info that cam my way the more it made sense and I was aspie about saving and organizing content I came across into folders on my laptop so on topics that interested my I would save interesting stuff I could later call upon.
Once my slaying days were behind me I eventually started youtubecelling again (did it on and off in uni but had channels deleted) and this time youtube took off for me better than it had ever done before and people commented on the quality of some of my takes that were never produced before.
The 2020s was when my IQ started getting recognized most on the forum and while I do think I made my best run of threads in this time I sometimes wonder if the people calling me high IQ are not people at all but are in fact just scripts within the simulation that serve the function of encouraging me to keep making posts on here and keep making PSL related youtube videos for no profit and keep formulating theories as it serves as a distraction from fully ascending in my life.
Basically it is dead internet theory in action, working to prevent me from levelling up in my own life because I feel like my threads and PSL videos are adding value to others lives based on the feedback I get.
I will admit however that the only people who's opinion on my IQ I care about are people in circles like this online because this is the only place where I've come across individuals that I feel have similar sentience levels to myself.
On the topic of whether I consider myself high IQ, it has never been a trait I've had any doubts about, even before I knew where I really stood when compared to my peers, I never questioned my intellect.
I noticed in school around 12 years old that when the teacher would ask a student a question they used to try desperately to come up with an answer even if they didn't know it to avoid looking dumb whereas I would simply answer that I don't know because I wasn't bothered answering it but the concern for other people thinking I was dumb has never once crossed my mind in my life.
I spoke to a PSLer who mentioned feeling uncomfortable in an interaction where they got an indication that the other person had a superior intellect, I have never felt this in my life.
Even if I was face to face with a guy who I truly believed would mog me in an IQ test, I would still feel I have something that he lacks.
There was a guy in my school in a different year who I didn't personally know but I heard stories of his high IQ schemes through friends and I resonated with him a lot that I wish he could've been a connection of mine.
When I see examples of guys like that I want to associate them rather than avoid them.
I could be in a room with nothing but accomplished physicists and I wouldn't feel insecure about my intellect.
I know there are guys out there who will mog me in raw IQ, I know there are guys who can pick up maths/physics shit way faster than I could but I have a comfort with my level of intellect because of how my brain finds the answers to things I ponder about and how it just draws connections and conjures up theories than no one on earth is likely to ever have thought of before.
I am an aspie ideas factory and I possess an intellectual "je ne sais quoi" that rivals some of the best minds in history.
Despite sounding like a narcy fuck I have never tried to gain recognition for my intellect and I have never tried to make people think I was smart in any way just to fuel my ego.
I also never act like a know it all or flex my knowledge on subjects where I could in front of others.
When I had an underbite I was at my peak narcissism levels (underbite + narcyess may be interconnected) in my head I would refer to myself as high IQ and goodlooking etc as a way to cope with my deformity but post surgery I don't feel the need to do it anymore, I am just happy being who I am and I don't feel the need to compare my traits to others.
I did a week long course a while back and just by being the quiet guy in the class, the instructor established by the 4th day that I was to be used as the example of the guy who was gonna get all of the questions right on the final exam and at one point a joke was made about why I wasn't engaging in the offtopic convo and someone said "he's just wondering how long until he can get away from us retards"
This was very telling because despite doing absolutely nothing but being myself and speaking less than anyone in the class, the others assigned me the label of being the high IQ guy who likely looked down on the rest of the class for their immaturity/stupidity (even tho I don't look down on people for their intellect)
I listened to one of those philosophy vids recently that said your silence triggers other's insecurities because it acts as a mirror and reflects.
I sometimes get into situations when trying to pull a girl where they ask about what I'm studying or what I previously studied, because I avoid the topic so much since I think its boring and pointless since a uni degree means nothing I just tell them I did some course and never used it after and I sometimes think that I go down in foids estimation because they often think the be all and end all for intellect is level of success in education.
If I wanted to I could unleash blatant self praise game (I've made a thread on this) and just flat out tell them I intellect mog them beyond all conceivable measure but I have no issues with foids believing I'm average IQ which may actually be to my detriment sometimes if they view themselves as high IQ.
My appearance says I'm a jack the Lad but my behaviour doesn't and my non NT behaviour probably suggests to foids I should have a masters degree at minimum to explain my lack of NT but when I don't have that shit since I'm a trailblazing maverick it concerns them however my Intellect is too outside the box to be wasted on this midwit institutional education bullshit.
I always wondered why people would encourage a genius child of theirs to become a doctor or some shit that any moderately intelligent person could become with enough effort when your talents would be utterly wasted down that life path because your gift means that doing anything short of something that's never been done before would be a travesty
Many people will point to Dolph Lungdren as being the genetic apex because he had peak physical form (in terms of male gaze) and he was also giga high IQ.
However Dolph Lungdren today is a 67 year old man who has shrunk to 189cm so he is not the biggest full package mogger on earth regardless of what he used to be.
Despite getting a masters in chemical engineering, he had plenty of time on the side of his acting career to make some kind of breakthrough in science or philosophy but he wasn't bothered, can you say he truly fulfilled his intellectual potential in this case?
The spot for the greatest full package mogger is vacant and when I unveil the greatest philosophical breakthroughs the world has seen since Nietzsche while also being a master of the arts by releasing incredible musical compositions while also achieving giga athletic feats while also being a 195cm TFBEM the sport of the biggest all round full package mogger will belong to me.
You may be wondering if I am so intellectually gifted why have I not achieved much in my life and am instead posting an essay to this forum while approaching 30 years old?
It is because the genius either figures himself out to carve his own path or destroys himself in the process. I've been to the brink where I've almost destroyed myself (addicted to new slays, regular mentalcel meltdowns from alcohol) but I came out the other side and I am only now just figuring myself out and how I will carry the burden of this gift that has been bestowed upon me to ascend to greatness
I often receive comments making reference to my IQ both on this forum and on my PSL related videos that expand on my forum talking points so I will explore IQ in this thread.
As a young fellow I never gave any thought to my level of intellect.
In primary school I disliked language learning due to having to memorize poems etc and distinctly remembered how much I disliked having to memorize a particularly long prayer for first communion.
Unlike some children though I had a very good level of concentration and remember in one class thinking about how in the zone and focused I was when listening to a long lesson from the teacher, like my brain was a sponge absorbing everything.
It was a level of focus I could only dream of in secondary school when I became more and more ADD despite hearing the claim that the duration for which you can focus increases year on year as you go from child to adult.
I remember being 4-5 years old and not having an understanding of anything that was going on in school and we had to complete an exercise where you circle the non safe places to be in relation to a car or traffic or some shit like that. My aspie brain had no understanding of these real world scenarios that were easier for the other children. That's not to say I was retarded enough to get hit by a car it was just a case that these exercises that required nuance and were not black and white in terms of the answer didn't properly resonate with me.
After some time I settled in to school and became competent at maths and English etc and around 10 years old the class was separated into reading groups and I was briefly put into the elite group which consisted of just one girl and one guy but I was demoted again on the same day so it was an acknowledgement I was the third best reader in the class but I wasn't gonna get to #1.
I remember having a substitute teacher around this time who just spent the day giving us general knowledge questions and I was giving the most correct answers which was surprising to me that the 2 students seen as the smart kids were unable to answer as many questions as I did.
One of the lower intellect kids made a remark in a tone of disbelief saying "6ft4 is smart"
There was a culture of competition in our school where aiming for the best test results possible was seen as the cool kids thing to do as the outsiders of the group who were usually the most antagonistic to group cohesion were the low IQ/Special Ed kids.
Within a year of transitioning from primary to secondary school this entire dynamic changed and the culture became about it being cool to not care about test results and making it a point of conversation to say how little you studied for a test and how poorly you expected to do.
The low IQs where large enough in number that they could form their own groups and frame themselves as the popular ones whereas in primary school the handful of low IQs wanted to be part of our group and could not get along with each other well enough to have their own group.
Despite this championing of low effort in secondary school I was still in the mode where I believed getting the best results you could mattered so I wanted to get good results.
I ended up getting an award for the best results on the end of 1st year tests in my class and there were 3 classes so 2 other students got the same award.
I had a meeting with a guidance counciler or whatever the fuck her role is called and she told me that it was her job to count the students results and that I got the highest results out of every student in my year (thus beating the other 2 students)
If I could point to a moment where schoolwork no longer mattered to me and my competitive drive left me I would say this would be the moment.
At this point I was completely convinced that I intellect mogged everyone in my year which was the widest metric of comparison available to me at that time so I no longer really cared about school work because there was nothing else for me to achieve.
The others who got the awards were foids who were raised in a study culture where they were basically on the path to go into those roles like doctor/pharmacy where one of them was already studying for 5 hours per night in first year and her parents didn't give her tv access.
The most amusing part about this is that she was literally a dumb blonde with 0 ability for independent thought and was extremely gullible to the point where guys would play jokes on her to make her believe anything.
She also dating the lowest IQ guy in our class for a while and they were legit sentience matched.
Once I came to the conclusion that I had no intellectual competitors in my yeargroup despite having classmates who everyone referred to as the smart ones who I mogged in test results while nobody ever referenced my intellect, I could no longer motivate myself to study because I had nothing left to prove to myself.
I would continue to study the night before my main tests because I wanted the vanity metric of receiving the end of year awards but this tactic of only studying the night before the test couldn't maintain my position as an academic award receiver after 3rd year because others with lower intellect had now built up the study habit of hours per night for years.
Once the material needed to revise for a test stacks up, you aren't reading it all on the night before the test.
I left school and did the bare minimum in university to pass and I knew that I was never going to go down the academic or ladder climbing workcel route because I always had ambitions to be my own boss and create my own entreprenureal empire.
My ability to focus in uni work just got progressively worse during my time there as I just became less motivated to do anything other than gymcel and chase slays.
Once I finished uni I combined roiding and nights out together for the first time and I lived a life of working part time and slaying as much as possible but I was so lazy that I couldn't complete any of the most basic tasks off of my to do list without it taking months.
I think that being at an unnaturally high bodyweight for my frame, being tired from gymcelling, eating excess calories contributed massively to my laziness while drinking often and being on roids wrecked my ability to focus or gain any mental clarity to start projects I had been putting off for years
I forget at what point it was that the comments about my IQ started becoming common on PSL forums but I would say that I began making thought provoking threads at least from 2017 onwards having first joined PSL in 2015.
I was still trying to understand the world in my early 20s but the more info that cam my way the more it made sense and I was aspie about saving and organizing content I came across into folders on my laptop so on topics that interested my I would save interesting stuff I could later call upon.
Once my slaying days were behind me I eventually started youtubecelling again (did it on and off in uni but had channels deleted) and this time youtube took off for me better than it had ever done before and people commented on the quality of some of my takes that were never produced before.
The 2020s was when my IQ started getting recognized most on the forum and while I do think I made my best run of threads in this time I sometimes wonder if the people calling me high IQ are not people at all but are in fact just scripts within the simulation that serve the function of encouraging me to keep making posts on here and keep making PSL related youtube videos for no profit and keep formulating theories as it serves as a distraction from fully ascending in my life.
Basically it is dead internet theory in action, working to prevent me from levelling up in my own life because I feel like my threads and PSL videos are adding value to others lives based on the feedback I get.
I will admit however that the only people who's opinion on my IQ I care about are people in circles like this online because this is the only place where I've come across individuals that I feel have similar sentience levels to myself.
On the topic of whether I consider myself high IQ, it has never been a trait I've had any doubts about, even before I knew where I really stood when compared to my peers, I never questioned my intellect.
I noticed in school around 12 years old that when the teacher would ask a student a question they used to try desperately to come up with an answer even if they didn't know it to avoid looking dumb whereas I would simply answer that I don't know because I wasn't bothered answering it but the concern for other people thinking I was dumb has never once crossed my mind in my life.
I spoke to a PSLer who mentioned feeling uncomfortable in an interaction where they got an indication that the other person had a superior intellect, I have never felt this in my life.
Even if I was face to face with a guy who I truly believed would mog me in an IQ test, I would still feel I have something that he lacks.
There was a guy in my school in a different year who I didn't personally know but I heard stories of his high IQ schemes through friends and I resonated with him a lot that I wish he could've been a connection of mine.
When I see examples of guys like that I want to associate them rather than avoid them.
I could be in a room with nothing but accomplished physicists and I wouldn't feel insecure about my intellect.
I know there are guys out there who will mog me in raw IQ, I know there are guys who can pick up maths/physics shit way faster than I could but I have a comfort with my level of intellect because of how my brain finds the answers to things I ponder about and how it just draws connections and conjures up theories than no one on earth is likely to ever have thought of before.
I am an aspie ideas factory and I possess an intellectual "je ne sais quoi" that rivals some of the best minds in history.
Despite sounding like a narcy fuck I have never tried to gain recognition for my intellect and I have never tried to make people think I was smart in any way just to fuel my ego.
I also never act like a know it all or flex my knowledge on subjects where I could in front of others.
When I had an underbite I was at my peak narcissism levels (underbite + narcyess may be interconnected) in my head I would refer to myself as high IQ and goodlooking etc as a way to cope with my deformity but post surgery I don't feel the need to do it anymore, I am just happy being who I am and I don't feel the need to compare my traits to others.
I did a week long course a while back and just by being the quiet guy in the class, the instructor established by the 4th day that I was to be used as the example of the guy who was gonna get all of the questions right on the final exam and at one point a joke was made about why I wasn't engaging in the offtopic convo and someone said "he's just wondering how long until he can get away from us retards"
This was very telling because despite doing absolutely nothing but being myself and speaking less than anyone in the class, the others assigned me the label of being the high IQ guy who likely looked down on the rest of the class for their immaturity/stupidity (even tho I don't look down on people for their intellect)
I listened to one of those philosophy vids recently that said your silence triggers other's insecurities because it acts as a mirror and reflects.
I sometimes get into situations when trying to pull a girl where they ask about what I'm studying or what I previously studied, because I avoid the topic so much since I think its boring and pointless since a uni degree means nothing I just tell them I did some course and never used it after and I sometimes think that I go down in foids estimation because they often think the be all and end all for intellect is level of success in education.
If I wanted to I could unleash blatant self praise game (I've made a thread on this) and just flat out tell them I intellect mog them beyond all conceivable measure but I have no issues with foids believing I'm average IQ which may actually be to my detriment sometimes if they view themselves as high IQ.
My appearance says I'm a jack the Lad but my behaviour doesn't and my non NT behaviour probably suggests to foids I should have a masters degree at minimum to explain my lack of NT but when I don't have that shit since I'm a trailblazing maverick it concerns them however my Intellect is too outside the box to be wasted on this midwit institutional education bullshit.
I always wondered why people would encourage a genius child of theirs to become a doctor or some shit that any moderately intelligent person could become with enough effort when your talents would be utterly wasted down that life path because your gift means that doing anything short of something that's never been done before would be a travesty
Many people will point to Dolph Lungdren as being the genetic apex because he had peak physical form (in terms of male gaze) and he was also giga high IQ.
However Dolph Lungdren today is a 67 year old man who has shrunk to 189cm so he is not the biggest full package mogger on earth regardless of what he used to be.
Despite getting a masters in chemical engineering, he had plenty of time on the side of his acting career to make some kind of breakthrough in science or philosophy but he wasn't bothered, can you say he truly fulfilled his intellectual potential in this case?
The spot for the greatest full package mogger is vacant and when I unveil the greatest philosophical breakthroughs the world has seen since Nietzsche while also being a master of the arts by releasing incredible musical compositions while also achieving giga athletic feats while also being a 195cm TFBEM the sport of the biggest all round full package mogger will belong to me.
You may be wondering if I am so intellectually gifted why have I not achieved much in my life and am instead posting an essay to this forum while approaching 30 years old?
It is because the genius either figures himself out to carve his own path or destroys himself in the process. I've been to the brink where I've almost destroyed myself (addicted to new slays, regular mentalcel meltdowns from alcohol) but I came out the other side and I am only now just figuring myself out and how I will carry the burden of this gift that has been bestowed upon me to ascend to greatness
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