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This one hurts. I've always been attached to anyone who gives me the slightest attention. I have many friends whom I care deeply about. While I come off as an a-hole some of the time, deep down I am a caring person. Eventually, I gave up chasing girls and believing divine intervention. I began to hear the voices. I connect spiritually to my surroundings and nature. The spirits, as I call them, have helped me through a lot of mental stress.
Overconfidence has always been an issue in my life. I lead the school in suspensions and was not allowed on an international exchange program to France because of it. That was my wake up call. After that, I got a therapist. I slowly began communicating with the spirits and fixing my life. For the first time in my life, I became seemingly normal and out of trouble. Despite subtle improvement, I had another bad attention seeking phase in the fall of 2025. Fortunately, the lord kept me out of trouble. Everything that happens in life has already happened. You are gods puppet in his show. Everyone is fake and your path has already been decided. I am destined for success. I simply need to live out the lessons that god has brought upon me to reach the upper level.
On the looksmaxxing side of my life, I discovered redpill and self improvement in 8th grade. It has slowly ruined my life but made me realize the potential of my looks. I always passed it off as a joke, yet remain active in online forums and tutorial videos. I began softmaxxing techniques and regular gym sessions. Combined with facial hair at 17, I began to look significantly older and more mature looking. I often got erratic haircuts, yet decided to let it grow for a year. After I began taking it even more serious, I began a calorie deficit to finally reveal my muscles and facial features. I'm not lean yet, but I've ascended. I might begin hardmaxxing very soon based on the trajectory of my life. The better my looks get, the more attention and opportunities I get. People seem to like you more when you look better. Even when you act the same. It is very hard to explain to someone how much better they would be treated if they simply ascended and took control of their life. I have become an insane high school swimmer and got a diet coach who pushes me to be the best version of myself.
Recently, I've been approached by a friend in a large fraternity. Upon hearing of my looksmaxxing conquests, he set me up with 3 suspicious modeling agents from LA and Boston. None carried I.D or had any papers. All of them seemed like tweakers. However, the appearance of their massive modified diesel truck outside and their confidence that it would work out, I trusted them to come to my house to take pictures of me. They left and I never heard back. They told me I'd get an email in the coming weeks for a job from their boss. Even if it works out, I've been approached by other people in the gym asking if I wanted a job in sales. They were shocked to learn I was only 17. On the side, I have begun reaching out to modeling agents to kickstart my professional career. God knows it will all work out for me.
My dating life hasn't even started yet. I always wanted female attention but never chased. I was so deprived of female attention but never looked for it. If a girl slid into my DMs, I wouldn't care but I'd love the attention. Because of it, I've often questioned my sexuality. I've concluded I find both genders attractive. However, since I've ascended this summer, I had a friend set me up with a quick add. She was so nice and matched my personality. We ended up playing Fortnite together. It seems like nothing, but to me it was progress. She ghosted me the next day. I get sad when I am left on cliffhangers. (Foreshadowing) After that, I got into a talking stage with a 20 year old. She was 4 years older than me in September of 2025. We clicked so well. Our personalities were perfect for each other and I never felt anyone like her up until that point. We respected boundaries, but it was clear she liked me. After I revealed my real age however (I told her I was 18) she realized it wouldn't work. After another week, she announced she had to unadd me. While it was the closest I've been, I wasn't sad. I knew it was the best for both of us and I was grateful that she communicated to me before she cut me off. I still think about her now and then, but I'm happy that it was a respectful fall off. I've tried girls from school, but none of them want me due to my poor reputation. I've matured a lot since my troubled days, but pieces of him are still in me. Serious incidents have hindered me from getting a girl to love.
Recently, I quick added a girl with a low snap score and low follower count. At this point in my life, I had given up reaching out to girls. But she seemed to want me. We started talking because god told me the time was right to pursue another girl. She started sending me long voice messages. She asked for my number. She cared about me and me, being the guy I am, went from not liking her to feeling super attached. We planned a date, and she cancelled. She planned to come to my swim meet, but she cancelled again. Yet she still showed interest. She opened up about her anxiety and personal problems, how she felt stressed to talk to people. We ended up going out on Saturday night, shortly after I met with modeling agents. We hit it off. She was so cute. We talked on the phone every night. Sunday night, I called her to discuss a future date, as she kept insisting we do another. She hung up at 9:20 to go watch a show with her family. I walked my dog. I sent her a text the next day, no reply. I was used to being ignored, so I checked up on her. Maybe it was her anxiety. After she hung up Sunday night, she hasn't talked to me since. I thought I was changed. I thought I looked too good to be ghosted. I thought my personality was improved.
Has this happened to you?
Does my life sound familiar?
What should I do? Am I ghosted?
Feel free to reply with any questions or comments,
Trisertion
Overconfidence has always been an issue in my life. I lead the school in suspensions and was not allowed on an international exchange program to France because of it. That was my wake up call. After that, I got a therapist. I slowly began communicating with the spirits and fixing my life. For the first time in my life, I became seemingly normal and out of trouble. Despite subtle improvement, I had another bad attention seeking phase in the fall of 2025. Fortunately, the lord kept me out of trouble. Everything that happens in life has already happened. You are gods puppet in his show. Everyone is fake and your path has already been decided. I am destined for success. I simply need to live out the lessons that god has brought upon me to reach the upper level.
On the looksmaxxing side of my life, I discovered redpill and self improvement in 8th grade. It has slowly ruined my life but made me realize the potential of my looks. I always passed it off as a joke, yet remain active in online forums and tutorial videos. I began softmaxxing techniques and regular gym sessions. Combined with facial hair at 17, I began to look significantly older and more mature looking. I often got erratic haircuts, yet decided to let it grow for a year. After I began taking it even more serious, I began a calorie deficit to finally reveal my muscles and facial features. I'm not lean yet, but I've ascended. I might begin hardmaxxing very soon based on the trajectory of my life. The better my looks get, the more attention and opportunities I get. People seem to like you more when you look better. Even when you act the same. It is very hard to explain to someone how much better they would be treated if they simply ascended and took control of their life. I have become an insane high school swimmer and got a diet coach who pushes me to be the best version of myself.
Recently, I've been approached by a friend in a large fraternity. Upon hearing of my looksmaxxing conquests, he set me up with 3 suspicious modeling agents from LA and Boston. None carried I.D or had any papers. All of them seemed like tweakers. However, the appearance of their massive modified diesel truck outside and their confidence that it would work out, I trusted them to come to my house to take pictures of me. They left and I never heard back. They told me I'd get an email in the coming weeks for a job from their boss. Even if it works out, I've been approached by other people in the gym asking if I wanted a job in sales. They were shocked to learn I was only 17. On the side, I have begun reaching out to modeling agents to kickstart my professional career. God knows it will all work out for me.
My dating life hasn't even started yet. I always wanted female attention but never chased. I was so deprived of female attention but never looked for it. If a girl slid into my DMs, I wouldn't care but I'd love the attention. Because of it, I've often questioned my sexuality. I've concluded I find both genders attractive. However, since I've ascended this summer, I had a friend set me up with a quick add. She was so nice and matched my personality. We ended up playing Fortnite together. It seems like nothing, but to me it was progress. She ghosted me the next day. I get sad when I am left on cliffhangers. (Foreshadowing) After that, I got into a talking stage with a 20 year old. She was 4 years older than me in September of 2025. We clicked so well. Our personalities were perfect for each other and I never felt anyone like her up until that point. We respected boundaries, but it was clear she liked me. After I revealed my real age however (I told her I was 18) she realized it wouldn't work. After another week, she announced she had to unadd me. While it was the closest I've been, I wasn't sad. I knew it was the best for both of us and I was grateful that she communicated to me before she cut me off. I still think about her now and then, but I'm happy that it was a respectful fall off. I've tried girls from school, but none of them want me due to my poor reputation. I've matured a lot since my troubled days, but pieces of him are still in me. Serious incidents have hindered me from getting a girl to love.
Recently, I quick added a girl with a low snap score and low follower count. At this point in my life, I had given up reaching out to girls. But she seemed to want me. We started talking because god told me the time was right to pursue another girl. She started sending me long voice messages. She asked for my number. She cared about me and me, being the guy I am, went from not liking her to feeling super attached. We planned a date, and she cancelled. She planned to come to my swim meet, but she cancelled again. Yet she still showed interest. She opened up about her anxiety and personal problems, how she felt stressed to talk to people. We ended up going out on Saturday night, shortly after I met with modeling agents. We hit it off. She was so cute. We talked on the phone every night. Sunday night, I called her to discuss a future date, as she kept insisting we do another. She hung up at 9:20 to go watch a show with her family. I walked my dog. I sent her a text the next day, no reply. I was used to being ignored, so I checked up on her. Maybe it was her anxiety. After she hung up Sunday night, she hasn't talked to me since. I thought I was changed. I thought I looked too good to be ghosted. I thought my personality was improved.
Has this happened to you?
Does my life sound familiar?
What should I do? Am I ghosted?
Feel free to reply with any questions or comments,
Trisertion
