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hopefully you havent actually fallen for any of the memes.
just look at forum chads and see where all their efforts led them. Exact same place as you.
insecure, lonely, self-hating.
"but i have a purpose yo, im dieting and exercising and taking care of myself"
but you hate everyone? you are starving yourself, so that some starving girl can psychologically match you to a popular image she created in her head on pinterest that illicits subconscious cues of high achievement and societal success.
ive been here for about 5 years of my life.
I was depressed and this was a gateway out of that into something worse. over obsession with appearances, diet, excercise.
I starved myself for 2 months, then I injected roids, then I starved myself for 6 more months so I could get the "validashun" from "da prime POOSEEY BRO". I couldn't even bring myself to look at the average person who wasn't below 10% bodyfat.
I lost my sex drive, I took drugs to fix that too (Viagra).
I pushed everyone away, I told myself I was better than them, that I had found the truth. Meanwhile i was binge eating every friday due to starvation and then waking up at 5am on a Saturday to run on a treadmill for 2 hours to burn off the guilt. Months later I start bulking, my body not having been accustomed to satiety for months, consuming food like a vacuum. gaining 40 lbs. And still associating my image to my worth, to fall back into the starvation shredding cycle again.
we are not well dudes. something happened in our childhood. I was rejected, i thought it was because i was ugly. and that stuck with me forever. Thats how I ended up here. I fought with myself for so long, I told myself its because im garbage, because Im fat, because im ugly, or stupid that I don't get the results I want in life, and that maybe If I fix myself in these ways I will be happy.
Do not fight yourself, you are the only person who cares about you. At least for the time that you are on this planet, you shouldn't be angry at yourself for the things that just weren't meant to be.
For most of you who probably think "oh just some retard 3psl, who got 4psl and thought his life would change" you wouldnt be wrong. Going from 4-6psl is nothing. the same problems exist everywhere I am convinced.
The only reason I can even come to this realization is cause this one dude, who has constantly tried to talk to me even when I pushed him away. He's always trying to do things that bring him joy in life, and that inspired me not to chain myself in this hell of lookism and self-hatred. For 5 +years i did not help a single person except for "myself" and even me, I wasn't helped by it.
Just take a moment to reflect why your happiness will be in a future where you have leg lengthening, or chin projection, or your body fat will be gone. why can't you be happy now? what made you feel this way?
just look at forum chads and see where all their efforts led them. Exact same place as you.
insecure, lonely, self-hating.
"but i have a purpose yo, im dieting and exercising and taking care of myself"
but you hate everyone? you are starving yourself, so that some starving girl can psychologically match you to a popular image she created in her head on pinterest that illicits subconscious cues of high achievement and societal success.
ive been here for about 5 years of my life.
I was depressed and this was a gateway out of that into something worse. over obsession with appearances, diet, excercise.
I starved myself for 2 months, then I injected roids, then I starved myself for 6 more months so I could get the "validashun" from "da prime POOSEEY BRO". I couldn't even bring myself to look at the average person who wasn't below 10% bodyfat.
I lost my sex drive, I took drugs to fix that too (Viagra).
I pushed everyone away, I told myself I was better than them, that I had found the truth. Meanwhile i was binge eating every friday due to starvation and then waking up at 5am on a Saturday to run on a treadmill for 2 hours to burn off the guilt. Months later I start bulking, my body not having been accustomed to satiety for months, consuming food like a vacuum. gaining 40 lbs. And still associating my image to my worth, to fall back into the starvation shredding cycle again.
we are not well dudes. something happened in our childhood. I was rejected, i thought it was because i was ugly. and that stuck with me forever. Thats how I ended up here. I fought with myself for so long, I told myself its because im garbage, because Im fat, because im ugly, or stupid that I don't get the results I want in life, and that maybe If I fix myself in these ways I will be happy.
Do not fight yourself, you are the only person who cares about you. At least for the time that you are on this planet, you shouldn't be angry at yourself for the things that just weren't meant to be.
For most of you who probably think "oh just some retard 3psl, who got 4psl and thought his life would change" you wouldnt be wrong. Going from 4-6psl is nothing. the same problems exist everywhere I am convinced.
The only reason I can even come to this realization is cause this one dude, who has constantly tried to talk to me even when I pushed him away. He's always trying to do things that bring him joy in life, and that inspired me not to chain myself in this hell of lookism and self-hatred. For 5 +years i did not help a single person except for "myself" and even me, I wasn't helped by it.
Just take a moment to reflect why your happiness will be in a future where you have leg lengthening, or chin projection, or your body fat will be gone. why can't you be happy now? what made you feel this way?
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