Almost had a schizo meltdown last night

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I was pretty close to losing myself. My mind was just uncontrollable and I couldn’t tell whether I was in reality or not. It was accompanied by the worst feeling I can feel. I can’t explain the feeling it’s very overwhelming but I’d imagine it’s not to far off from hell. At certain times I’d think about grabbing my katana and slicing my grandmas skull in half. I don’t know if something evil is influencing me or if there’s something wrong in my brain. I do have pains in my head a lot. I’ve been dealing with this for 3-4 years now and im sick of it. The amount of times I’ve thought about killing myself because of this is far to much. I hate this life.

 

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You are on the verge of schizophrenia