
0hMan
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Title. I constantly fantasize about shooting myself in the face a lot of the times when I fantasize about this. It's ideal, that way people can't see my ugly mug rotting. I don't have a gun though, so this is just speculation lol. Mossad GTFO. I'd like to do it in front of many people, maybe in my school. It's a way better end to a revenge fantasy rather than shooting up a school or any gay ER shit like that. That way you can't be vilified, and you don't have to do anything horrendous like actually taking a human life other than your own, yet you can still have extreme adverse affects on people around you.
I wish I could have multiple lives, not so I could live forever but instead so I could see the aftermath. I wish I could be able to see people gasping around my corpse, etc. There's this one video (I'm not going to link it, but you could find it very easily) of this girl shooting her cousin on accident and then herself in a bathroom, and their cousins keep opening the bathroom door and running away in shock. I'd like to be able to see that after I shoot myself, but it's impossible. Death is a very odd process, and to be able to control your own is quite beautiful TBH.
I'm not even sure if I really mean it or not. On one hand, I really wish I could end things. On the other, I'm quite afraid of judgement in the hereafter. Earlier today, I was sitting in a staircase with a window. I told myself that if the window was unlocked I would jump out of it. I had planned out what I was going to do, and then I went to open the window. It was locked. I wonder what I would have done if it was unlocked.
I wish there was an option to just pause life. Sleep is beautiful to me for many reasons (that's another post, I can make that if you folks would like), especially due to the fact that I can truly feel a woman loving me eversooften if I'm lucky enough in my dreams. We're quite behind in technology, we need a method for medically-induced comas.
Anybody else fantasize about this? How do you imagine your death?
I wish I could have multiple lives, not so I could live forever but instead so I could see the aftermath. I wish I could be able to see people gasping around my corpse, etc. There's this one video (I'm not going to link it, but you could find it very easily) of this girl shooting her cousin on accident and then herself in a bathroom, and their cousins keep opening the bathroom door and running away in shock. I'd like to be able to see that after I shoot myself, but it's impossible. Death is a very odd process, and to be able to control your own is quite beautiful TBH.
I'm not even sure if I really mean it or not. On one hand, I really wish I could end things. On the other, I'm quite afraid of judgement in the hereafter. Earlier today, I was sitting in a staircase with a window. I told myself that if the window was unlocked I would jump out of it. I had planned out what I was going to do, and then I went to open the window. It was locked. I wonder what I would have done if it was unlocked.
I wish there was an option to just pause life. Sleep is beautiful to me for many reasons (that's another post, I can make that if you folks would like), especially due to the fact that I can truly feel a woman loving me eversooften if I'm lucky enough in my dreams. We're quite behind in technology, we need a method for medically-induced comas.
Anybody else fantasize about this? How do you imagine your death?