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There was a delusion in me before joining this forum,a delusion that I looked good.
I had been told few times before I looked shit and unattractive but I still somehow believed I could look better.
This continued for several months and I ignored the fact that I was seen repulsive by most of the people.
Whenever any girl would look at me for few seconds passing by,I would count it as an 'IOI' but now that I have realised it,those weren't actually any signs of attraction.
My friends would say I look shit and had less intelligence.
I have never talked to a female of my age in my life and neither has any female approached me.
After my Oneitis moved to a different state,I didn't get attracted to any female for some reason.I legit haven't developed any sort of interest for any other female ever since my Oneitis shifted to a different state.I probably won't develop attraction for anybody till the next 2 years.
1-2 months ago,I came to realisation that everybody who told me I looked shit,was actually right.I have tons of photos of myself in gallery but I regret taking those pictures.I should've realised this earlier that taking selfies won't change anything about your looks.I would look into the camera for hours and take pictures thinking I looked good in those clicks.
But now,i find it quite hard to accept the reality,knowing I will never be able to look good.
All my friends have grown up/glowed up except for me.
Even though they're all recessed,they still look ten times better than me and are NT obviously.
The number of days I had to remain silent all the time while everybody else had friends to talk to,laught together with,enjoy partying and shit,is honestly driving my mental health crazy.
Sitting silently has made me feel worse from a long time but now even the feeling of anxiety is actually much worse.
I don't know how I'll recover from my guilts and mistakes in the past.
I had been told few times before I looked shit and unattractive but I still somehow believed I could look better.
This continued for several months and I ignored the fact that I was seen repulsive by most of the people.
Whenever any girl would look at me for few seconds passing by,I would count it as an 'IOI' but now that I have realised it,those weren't actually any signs of attraction.
My friends would say I look shit and had less intelligence.
I have never talked to a female of my age in my life and neither has any female approached me.
After my Oneitis moved to a different state,I didn't get attracted to any female for some reason.I legit haven't developed any sort of interest for any other female ever since my Oneitis shifted to a different state.I probably won't develop attraction for anybody till the next 2 years.
1-2 months ago,I came to realisation that everybody who told me I looked shit,was actually right.I have tons of photos of myself in gallery but I regret taking those pictures.I should've realised this earlier that taking selfies won't change anything about your looks.I would look into the camera for hours and take pictures thinking I looked good in those clicks.
But now,i find it quite hard to accept the reality,knowing I will never be able to look good.
All my friends have grown up/glowed up except for me.
Even though they're all recessed,they still look ten times better than me and are NT obviously.
The number of days I had to remain silent all the time while everybody else had friends to talk to,laught together with,enjoy partying and shit,is honestly driving my mental health crazy.
Sitting silently has made me feel worse from a long time but now even the feeling of anxiety is actually much worse.
I don't know how I'll recover from my guilts and mistakes in the past.
