RODEBLUR
Most oppressed user on org Threadmaking REINSTATED
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often hear people say shit like, ''man i wish i found this forum sooner! when i was X age!'' or ''this forum fucked up my life!'' whatever whatever
or maybe some care because they're too ''new'' and they want to be with the big boys
but honestly i am extremely satisfied with the time i found this forum, i wouldn't have wanted it to be any sooner or later
if i had found it back in 2018, despite me already knowing about HGH, questioning my face, my body, even going as far as to making front and side pictures of my face and making morphs, i wouldn't have wanted to stumble upon it then with my then mental state. i had too many copes, too many responsibilities to take care of, too many fucking documents to read, work to do, meetings with the fucking government body it would have completely disrupted my thought process, it would have fucked up the dynamic between my friends at the time and i would have spiralled into a pit of despair and stoicism.
on the other hand, if i had found it later than i did, i would've kept churning out shitty instagram pics and embarrass myself in front of all my friends (10 followers) to the point i lose them all after exposing myself as some autistic clown who has no idea how to be NT and use those apps like a normal person. i would've never broken out of my mother's perception of me looking ''perfect'' and ''beautiful'' and i would've amassed a much bigger ego from watching FaceandLMS videos without the ability to truly analyze myself, therefore thinking of myself as some kind of divinely beautiful being, which i would let everyone know non-verbally, and i'd be digging myself a deeper grave each day, until the moment it all boils up to the brim and eventually explodes into a never-ending mess of complete ostracism and humiliation.
at the time i found this forum, it was the answer to all the questions i had, at the point i was curious about them most, while having all the time in the world to research them. it also served as a substitute for the complete lack of social interaction i had, and an outlet for my hobby in morphing and sharing my thoughts with like-minded individuals in a similar situation.
this forum gave me the tools and knowledge to ascend at the exact time i needed them, when my situation with women was at its worst. it told me exactly what features were good and what i had to work on, so i could focus on presenting some and hiding others the best way i could.
all in all, i do consider this site to be a net positive in my life and i don't wish that i had found it at any other time.
or maybe some care because they're too ''new'' and they want to be with the big boys
but honestly i am extremely satisfied with the time i found this forum, i wouldn't have wanted it to be any sooner or later
if i had found it back in 2018, despite me already knowing about HGH, questioning my face, my body, even going as far as to making front and side pictures of my face and making morphs, i wouldn't have wanted to stumble upon it then with my then mental state. i had too many copes, too many responsibilities to take care of, too many fucking documents to read, work to do, meetings with the fucking government body it would have completely disrupted my thought process, it would have fucked up the dynamic between my friends at the time and i would have spiralled into a pit of despair and stoicism.
on the other hand, if i had found it later than i did, i would've kept churning out shitty instagram pics and embarrass myself in front of all my friends (10 followers) to the point i lose them all after exposing myself as some autistic clown who has no idea how to be NT and use those apps like a normal person. i would've never broken out of my mother's perception of me looking ''perfect'' and ''beautiful'' and i would've amassed a much bigger ego from watching FaceandLMS videos without the ability to truly analyze myself, therefore thinking of myself as some kind of divinely beautiful being, which i would let everyone know non-verbally, and i'd be digging myself a deeper grave each day, until the moment it all boils up to the brim and eventually explodes into a never-ending mess of complete ostracism and humiliation.
at the time i found this forum, it was the answer to all the questions i had, at the point i was curious about them most, while having all the time in the world to research them. it also served as a substitute for the complete lack of social interaction i had, and an outlet for my hobby in morphing and sharing my thoughts with like-minded individuals in a similar situation.
this forum gave me the tools and knowledge to ascend at the exact time i needed them, when my situation with women was at its worst. it told me exactly what features were good and what i had to work on, so i could focus on presenting some and hiding others the best way i could.
all in all, i do consider this site to be a net positive in my life and i don't wish that i had found it at any other time.
