vigor
CYBER//PSYCHO
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I don’t know exactly how to describe it but something happened to my psyche between the age of 18-20 that has just caused me to lose any sense of grounding in my immediate reality
Like nothing really feels real. I’m not a schizo, I’m not hallucinating or anything. But the world just doesn’t feel real. My thought processes feel weird. My life doesn’t feel like mine
I’ve also had a couple of incidents which I could only really describe as semi-psychotic episodes. Mainly off of stims (but sometimes not) after not sleeping for a while. Periods where I suddenly became very invested in strange things that feel stupid in hindsight.
Like recently I became fascinated with buddhism for a couple of days and felt euphoric thinking I’d found the answer to my problems and then the next day the spell just wore off and it sounded ridiculous.
Another time I had some odd theories about the nature of consciousness and wrote a couple of extremely long and elaborate threads here on my old acc at like 5am instead of sleeping a few days before a crucial exam
It feels like my life just doesn’t make sense any more. And I don’t know if I can ever get back that sense of normalcy, of order. And I think its only getting worse. Hope I’m not a full blown schizo by 25..
Like nothing really feels real. I’m not a schizo, I’m not hallucinating or anything. But the world just doesn’t feel real. My thought processes feel weird. My life doesn’t feel like mine
I’ve also had a couple of incidents which I could only really describe as semi-psychotic episodes. Mainly off of stims (but sometimes not) after not sleeping for a while. Periods where I suddenly became very invested in strange things that feel stupid in hindsight.
Like recently I became fascinated with buddhism for a couple of days and felt euphoric thinking I’d found the answer to my problems and then the next day the spell just wore off and it sounded ridiculous.
Another time I had some odd theories about the nature of consciousness and wrote a couple of extremely long and elaborate threads here on my old acc at like 5am instead of sleeping a few days before a crucial exam
It feels like my life just doesn’t make sense any more. And I don’t know if I can ever get back that sense of normalcy, of order. And I think its only getting worse. Hope I’m not a full blown schizo by 25..
