Anyone else used to have extreme optimism?

[GlamGuru]

I remember I was so obsessed with certain traits, like clavicle length, I measure it every day, and did pullups everyday, and thinking it's gonna go up in a week or something. Also if I measured wrong somehow and see an increase like 5 mm, I was insanely happy. Then used that as coping mechanism, and become hella hyper and motivated.

Now I gave up on those feelings, and feel hopeless a bit. I think realizing softmaxxing is cope and does not work is what got rid of those optimism feeling, hardmaxx is only way.