ChadFucksYourOneitis
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Back during my bachelor and HS I used to be extremely competitive and ambitious in every assignment and in every exam. I always aimed for 90+ and loaded every semester with toughest courses taught by the most ruthless professors in the department. I get a dopamine rush knowing that i scoremog the entire class. I never learned how to take a good lecture note. My handwriting is nasty. What I wrote in classes were doodles of some key equations and calculations. I always ask a prof /my femoid classmate for a copy of his notes after the class. I carry this habit to my postgraduate school and this shit didn't end up well, I have to drop and retake a QM course because the materials didn't stick well and the prof's original notes look just like hieroglyphs.
Restrospectively , I don't even know why did I behave that way. Undergraduate life should be about exploring different subcultures, get wasted at the local night club and do cool stuffs.
In my postgraduate study , I treat my study like a job. I always clock in my college at 0800 and I always clock out at 2030. I don't even study on the weekends. I don't even care if I'm at the lowest of the class since all the grades aren't curved. I don't even care if someone try to remind me that they get better scores than me. I don't give a fuck if I ace an assignments. I just do what's need to be done to get into a respectable Phd position or postdoc. That's it. I'm not abandoning my study, I do care but I won't let it fuck my mental health again like I did in my undergraduate study. Never felt so liberating.
In the end , grad students are all really just a bunch of unemployed motherfuckers who cope with doing a masters unless they're being funded by their PIs or in a scholarship program.
Restrospectively , I don't even know why did I behave that way. Undergraduate life should be about exploring different subcultures, get wasted at the local night club and do cool stuffs.
In my postgraduate study , I treat my study like a job. I always clock in my college at 0800 and I always clock out at 2030. I don't even study on the weekends. I don't even care if I'm at the lowest of the class since all the grades aren't curved. I don't even care if someone try to remind me that they get better scores than me. I don't give a fuck if I ace an assignments. I just do what's need to be done to get into a respectable Phd position or postdoc. That's it. I'm not abandoning my study, I do care but I won't let it fuck my mental health again like I did in my undergraduate study. Never felt so liberating.
In the end , grad students are all really just a bunch of unemployed motherfuckers who cope with doing a masters unless they're being funded by their PIs or in a scholarship program.
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